No one really can relate to me, even though it seems like my bestest friends think they are the closest to get me. Really the only people who do are my dad and god and my neices... Isnt that weird? I'm pretty much doing a blog of myself in About Me section... isnt that different? It's just i keep questioning myself, "Where Do I Go From Here"?? I am a 17 Year Old Girl who is lost without her father. I am never going to be a successer at life, alot of people have told me that because I am a Gretzschel. Well for all of you sick people, who don't know a damn thing about me, I dont care. You don't know me okay, you think I have the best family and some of the coolest friends, or the complete opposite. But god, where did I mess up in life. I lost my father through a depression stage when we were fighting and I got to apologize 2 days before his accident. How pathetic, I wish I could take it all back just to see him. You can see I am a very upfront and forward person when it comes to emotions and feelings? I have the dream to become a writer, and a photographer, and maybe even a singer... haha yeah right I don't have the slightest voice for it.. Gosh what am I doing. It's just I wish I could make a miracle happen you know. I dont want to be famous, I just want to be an ordinary person that anyone can accept and lately in (TODAY'S WORLD) there isnt many people who do that anymore without rude comments? Can you believe all the stuff that has changed since Elvis Presley and Johnny Cash existed? I mean their music still does, its just people are going wack on music and its like what in the world happen to our music. It use to be so classical and less verbally abusive to the modern children ears. You have girls (no offense people) that dress skankish and dance on T.V. setting a bad example for the younger youth today. Is that what you all really want for your children? Its just so god dang it... I dont know. Half of you probally stopped reading this so far. Its 12:37 a.m. here in Nebraska where I am living til August then back to Winfield I go. Great Place for an Education Right??? Wrong, so many crooks and stuff living there, and to think I have 3 neices who I love and care for that live there... The danger that are lurking around the block and on the street. People getting mugged, its just crazy how people are today and to think we are equal?? People look at that differently just because of color, I mean what is it thats different? We all look at sex and stuff differently too now a days. Most girls back in the day would wait until marriage but I mean yeah some would slip but its just so unfair. We are the ones who are destroying our planet slowly that when we pass, our children after us will have to face?? How do you feel about that? I have no idea how I do, its called insanity. But Im Jerrica. Im 17 years old. I live in Arapahoe,Ne right now and Getting ready to move back to Wichita, KS to live that secret life where barely anyone will know me. I hope one day I will be known for helping save a childs life not for fame, but because it will be worth it. But my favorite color is GREEN because its neutral... The world is full of it and i love it. Doesnt matter how pissed off you are, I bet alot of people can find a quiet place out in teh country and look at the fields and find peace within themselve. But Thats It :) Thanks
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