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RetroSpect-shun

To feel too much is still better then not feeling enough

About Me

I am Mikael the master of my own illusionary world. My AIM is: Lysergic Mikael

"People tell me that my personality is divided. I don't think so, but maybe it is."
"I know you got problems... hell, we all do. But you gotta understand that there ain't no gettin' offa this train we're on, till we get to the end of the line."
"No one lives in the slums because they want to. It's like this train. It can't run except where its rails take it."
"This day will never come again... So let me have this moment..."
"I'll be going now. I'll come back when it's all over."
"It's really something, having a smoke at a place like this."
"Live with the planet, die with the planet. Maybe this is the way it should be. Who knows? I'm full of booze..."
"You appear to be looking forward, but in reality you're only looking downward. You're only looking at yourself. Like that, you will find nothing"
"Thinking back I forgot to tell you this;
I didn't care how you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you."

I am a designer, I am an artist, I have a obsession for RPGs, I am bipolar, I beleive in a shadow government, I adore adderall, I am obsessed with the movie Wicker Park, I have NO sense of time BUT I have an unbeleivable sense of direction, I beleive in love at first sight and don't mind if you think that's stupid, I think too much, I have a kick ass girlfriend, I am really impatient while waiting for public transportation, I celebrated thanksgiving by eating fried chicken out of a box on top of a trash can in the rain, I am very random, I am overemotional, I am not modest and I can be very shy, I am an Aries, I love irony, I drink too many energy drinks, I am an artist in art school (ironic?), I search for the meaning of life, I buy things I do not need, I clean alot, I love psychology, I beleive in karma and fate, I think nothing makes sense, I love rain, I do not trust most people. Everybody is titled to their own opinion even if it is obviously wrong. I never do what I am told to, I have the people I need so I am not really looking for anything else, I finally found it ;)
I like: piercings, traveling, bungiesex, videogames, poetry, my friends, my world, my anna, my phone my laptop, my habits, my pastimes, anything that glows, camel lights, beer, music, baths...etc.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion 33%
Stability 23%
Orderliness 63%
Accommodation 43%
Interdependence 43%
Intellectual 83%
Mystical 83%
Artistic 83%
Religious 83%
Hedonism 90%
Materialism 70%
Narcissism 50%
Adventurousness 83%
Work ethic 50%
Self absorbed 76%
Conflict seeking 70%
Need to dominate 56%
Romantic 56%
Avoidant 63%
Anti-authority 90%
Wealth 36%
Dependency 50%
Change averse 83%
Cautiousness 56%
Individuality 90%
Sexuality 50%
Peter pan complex 90%
Physical security 70%
Physical Fitness 77%
Histrionic 63%
Paranoia 70%
Vanity 76%
Hypersensitivity 70%
Female cliche 70%

Don't even take a breath The air is cut with cyanide In honor of the New Year
The press gives us cause to celebrate, The air raid sirens, Flood barbed wire skylines, With artificial night, As we sleep to burn the red, From our bloodless eyes, Tonight we're all time bombs on fault lines.
Have we lost everything now?, Walking like each other's ghosts, Around these silent streets, The sedatives tell you everything is alright,
Like calendars dying, At New Year's Eve parties, As we kiss hard on the lips, And swear this year, Will be better then the last, Jet Black-the ink that spells your name, Jet Black-The blood that's in your veins, Jet Black-We say, "How long can we take this chance not to celebrate?"
There's music playing, Though we dance to the beat, Of our own black hearts, And draw diagrams, Of suicide on each other's wrists, Then trace them with razorblades,
Fire to flames, "Strike Match.", Burn these words from our lips, As 'The Dagger' screams, "Love is dead", and it's a "newspaper tragedy", Have we lost what we love? Have we said everything? Does it change anything? Stare at the clock, Avoid at all costs, This emptiness.
Ten seconds left until midnight, nine chances to drown ourselves in black and white, eight faces turned away from the shock, seven windows and, six of them were locked, five stories falling, forever and ever, three cheers to the mirror, now there are two of us, can we have one last dance?
..


My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I ACTUALLY met her!

Music:

Thursday
Get Up Kids
Postal Service
Straylight Run
Damien Rice
Taking Back Sunday
Dashboard Confessional
Fall Out Boy
mewithoutYou
Bright Eyes
Funeral for a Friend
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Clap your hands say yeah!
Armor for Sleep
Story of the Year
Bayside
OK GO
Fiona Apple
Death Cab
Incubus
NIN
SAOSIN
Rites of Spring
Wicker Park Sountrack
Panic! at the Disco
Hendrix
TOOL
APC
Starting Line
Crass
Mindless Self Indulgence
Used
RPG Soundtracks
Faint
Floyd

Many others...music is my blood

Movies:

Wicker Park, Interview with a Vampire, actually anything with vampires. Kevin Smith films, Braveheart, Boondock Saints, Snatch, Blow, Rules of Attraction, older anime, Fear and Loathing, Darko, and standup comedy, Def Poetry, anything Shakespearean, anything with Bruce Lee, any jet li flick without a rapper as his co-star, GROOVE, Party Monster, Human Traffic, Lock Stock and Two Smokin Barrels,it's all gone pete tong, sleep with me, Tarentino flicks...

Heroes:

Cloud Strife, Buddha, single mothers, the guy in Tienamen Square that stood in front of the line of tanks, and most of all my Grandparents

My Blog

Christmas and stuff

So I went out this morning, went to like twenty or thirty jewelry places to buy Anna diamonds, because....well she's my diamond. And I had a conversation with Robbin, yeah that famous jeweler with the...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 04:43:00 PST

Vampires are the shiaz, yeah pay no mind

"I have to know why she left""She got scared, everyone gets scared""No not her, she isn't like that.She wouldn't of left without an explanation, a letter, a message...I know she loved me..."   Te...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Fri, 01 Dec 2006 12:14:00 PST

Satisfactory realizationess

It is november 25th 2006. Not particularly a significant date. But I realize something right now. Life is really good for me nowadays. This is seriously the real-est that life has ever been, that I ha...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 04:28:00 PST

what tarot I am

You are The Devil Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition. Perhaps the most misunderstood o...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 10:37:00 PST

something

What do we wait for with self deteriorating numbness Where are we going to surrounded by scrutinizing vision How can we ever make it through to luminescent alabaster When did we lose sight of who is w...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 06:44:00 PST

One more

A perfect ending to an abhorred existancerelentless, persucutory, and unblamedfeeling that flies with wings taintedly whitedeceptively even, but flying nonethelessno complaints are put asideyet guilt ...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 06:00:00 PST

Poem about emo

Annihilisticly Overanalyzing the Emo-ization feelings flow freelytears tear tapestriesinside my heart lies undiscovered truth cryingovertly hoping for releaseejaculating the interiorcry once again my ...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 06:00:00 PST

Nevermind

Okay....so no more pessimism at the moment about love....bye bye inspiration. Anyway. Pissed Off French: Standing on precipices of emptiness and reservationThe edge of rapture and defeat, rupture is d...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 05:59:00 PST

Even sappier, even dumber

Mistress...blessed, enrapture the rupture of my soulLady of the night, let it be. Never enforce the tollBaby, cereulean, magenta, blood fused with truthLies unfounded bring times of tears, avenues of....
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 01:37:00 PST

More sappy then usual

Eagerly awaiting a gift to wake to the eyes of the one you secretly cherish. Almost selflessly you keep your mouth shut indefinitally but true Sometimes love is better on a one way street in the backr...
Posted by I Beleive in Geminis on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 12:26:00 PST