I have come to realize that you cant live life being who everybody else wants you to be, or live life for anybody but yourself and the lord. Life throws us lots of unexpected things. They can be horrible horrible things or they could be things that you live for, and sometimes they can feel insignificant in comparison to the big picture.. BUT you have to keep on living, and you have to take whatever life brings you, good or bad. Everything happens for a reason. Some people may feel that god is not fair, and that our prayers never seem to be answered, but in reality we are blessed.. God has given us so so much and continues to give us more and more every second of every day, and if we love him and live by him he will give us eternal life, in the kingdom of heaven. Your heart may feel broken, and you may feel all alone, but just remember that god will never leave you. We are his children, and no matter what he will be there for us, and if we let him take over our lives, life on this earth can be incredible, AND life in heaven, well...that..that is unimaginable.....