Some time ago I was attacked very badly when I thought I was going to die. I am a girl that on the outside looks good and on the inside was very vunerable but now I am stronger.
I am not here to arrange to meet people in person, I am on here to express my self anonymously, to find out more about myself and to have intelligent discourse with others on life. I am a model, a lover of life, a lover.
I shout drunken at the full moon in the moonlit midnight hour, love the sun on my bare skin all over, play my beautiful guitar, dance wildly to banging trance, cry to doomed love songs, wreak havoc with male hormones and I stand at cliff edges and feel that feeling as I leap off and soar.....
I see so much every day that moves me deeply from a cloud shape, to the way a finger moves, to that microsecond of a look from someone to a sleeping cat to a round rock in the middle of rubble. Music is part of my soul and I live with a wild passion, cry with a wild passion, laugh with a wild passion and make love with a wild passion. My life is maybe not a normal one and I thank God is isnt. I feel highs so high I can touch the stars of the Great Bear in the skies, I have felt lows so deep no light would ever reach that place and even my little green bear faded from me, but through it all I now love life and people so so much it scares me. My whole life is a rush- in more ways than one...
Im not a kool fun loving chick that has simple words. I am a crazy girl who knows what life really is, having almost lost it and who holds each second close, like a baby. ...
Love life and love and help each other ....
Please also read the words that used to be on Jessica Stein's page
Making a difference is the opportunity to take the time each day to acknowledge the beauty around us, to appreciate the amazing people who touch us, and to leave the world a better place each day through our thoughts, words and actions. Once we discover how to appreciate the timeless values in our daily experiences, we can enjoy the best things in life. Do every act of your life as if it were your last. There is always time for gratitude and new beginnings. An inspired idea can become a movement. We so believe that great ideas can only come from great leaders, that effective protest can only be driven by saintly figures. How inspiring to realize that any one of us has the ability to imagine a workable solution and can then turn that idea into powerful action. A childs simple idea can become a spark. No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. It's impossible to feel the pain of someones condition compared with ours. There isn't one definition of a victim. There isn't one definition of the most horrible thing that can happen to a person. You cant compare atrocities. You cant compare human misery. Frivolities of problems would seem shallow after significance, and finding purpose in life a new meaning, wondering how anything normal could ever seem important again. You can lose everything. Nothing belongs to you. It's just things. The man upstairs gives you the opportunity to accumulate things, but they're not yours. They come and they go. We never know what is going to happen to us tomorrow. Now is all we've got. This minute. I just take it as it comes, and I keep a smile on my face. All that's important is what happens in your heart. Your last mortal thought will be "why did I take so many days - just like today - for granted?". It's like we each have a different thing to do in the world, a different point of view, and nobody can judge anybody else. In the ways of peace, it means having the courage to make the human connections with those we fear, with those we hate, with those who think differently then we do. It means refusing to leave the other behind as we go. The best gift to receive is knowing your a significant instrument in someone else's life. I wonder how many human beings, who do good everyday for the people around them, go unacknowledged, never knowing of the power of their simple acts of kindness and caring. In the final analysis, our most basic common link is that we all inhabit this small planet. We all breathe the same air. We all cherish our children's future. And we are all mortal. Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle. Forgo your anger for a moment and save yourself a hundred days of trouble.
A moments insight is sometimes worth a life's experience.
... beautifully true.
She knows as I do that life is precious, that it can suddenly be taken away. Open your eyes, open your heart and look at this world in all of its wonder. Look, really look at a flower, look really look into a child’s eyes, look, really look at the ocean’s waves and the sky’s clouds. Breathe and smile that you can, walk and slowly flex each leg then toe and smile that you can, dance naked in the sun and laugh that you can. Phone someone and show you care and seek out those that need help and see the tear in their eyes at your kindness, a kindness that they may not have seen before. Be you, find out who you is, strip away the pretence, the false personas, don’t want to be someone else, don’t want to be successful or admired, just be you and the feeling of contentment will bathe over you. Take every negative thought that comes your way and stamp on it before it sows seeds and weeds obscure your view. If you let them grow they will take you over. Have courage and faith in good and inspire others to.
There is a song, with some lyrics that are close to my soul and one line is..
"and this world will be shaken by a whisper"
Don’t ever feel you are too small to make a difference…...
"Only the weak are cruel. Gentleness can only be expected from the strong." ---
LEO F. BUSCAGLIA
Every one in this world deserves an answer, an honest reply. Too many people take the easy route in life. You will never see the richness in this world if you take the easy path, if you never go off the common track. Look down the difficult paths, climb the hard routes, reply to the difficult questions, face problems with courage and honesty. Don't be afraid of mistakes, of falling, there are no perfect answers in this world, don't let others set your agendas or boundaries. Don't strive for respect, for acceptance, for love, don't seek it out, don't need it to live. Respect is earnt slowly, the only acceptance that is important is self acceptance and love- no one has any control over. Don't spend your life escaping yourself. Find yourself on a mountain, by the shore, in a field, in the stars, in a puddle, in dance, in art, in music, in another's smile when you help them- these are the places where life will start to make sense.
Have courage, feel the beauty in this world, the goodness in this world, strip away false bravadoes, insecurities, strip away chains from your past and stand new and raw like a baby and let the light and the richness of life bathe over and in you and smile:) Every day, every hour, every second is a new start in our lives…
Find You and be just You and be proud you are you
I dedicate this site to Hope, to Positivity, to Compassion, to Understanding, to Peace, to Passion, to Love, but above all to Kindness to others.
Midnight 2006/7, in the city of my heart, the city of love and passion and beauty..
