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I'm Amanda. I have a 5 year old daughter, Jordan. She is smart and awesome and is attending Pre-K. I have a new little person Aiden. He is 4 months already. Time goes fast. I have almost been together with Bobby a year. I don't know what I would do without him. He makes me ^_^ I am glad I found him. It is strange how sometimes the person you end up with is right there the whole time and you just don't know it. Not that we would have been very compatable 7 years ago. We probably would have hated each other. Funny how things end up. I love my family very much.
My life seems like there are bits and pieces missing and I can't fill them in. I had perinatal cardiomyopathy in December when I had my son. About a week of my life is gone. I was in a medically induced coma for that time and I woke up scared not knowing why I was on a table with a breathing tube down my throat. As hard as I try, I can't remember his birth and that saddens me. I just wish I could get those memories back. Bobby was there everyday, even when I was in a coma. He probably liked that I couldn't talk back. Gave his ears a rest. It meant the world to me that my family and friends were there. Even if I didn't know it at the time. I wish I knew who all showed up and I would thank you personally. When they let me go home they implanted a difibulator (ICD) to help regulate my heartrate and keep it steady. It has gone off once, but that was a sensitivity issue. We won't go into how it got set off. I have been feeling lethargic and dizzy and they have adjusted my medication. That has helped. Now my goal is to lose some weight. About 60 lbs. I will be happy with 10... Well I will just have to try harder and keep everyone updated.
I play WoW, Dragonblight is where I am. Alliance FTW! Shiney is my baby ^_^ Now I just need to get money and turn my account back on. >.>
I hate most people. I am an odd person. I don't talk much unless I am comfortable with you. I am shy. I am anti-social. I hate relying on others but do it anyway. I don't say what I think b/c I don't want to piss people off and I assume they don't care anyway. I hate confrontation. I assume people's stupidity until proven wrong. I have a lot of thoughts and opinions but rarely share them. I am easy to get along with. I accept people as they are, faults and all (except myself). Music makes me happy. I am an indecisive person. I am a pushover and a people pleaser. I am stubborn and determined. I tend to be slightly annoying. I am OCD. I have been told that I am amusing. I tend to take things to heart. I have an ability (or curse) to take everything said and make it personal. I have very poor self-esteem. have trouble when I can't understand something. I tend to allow my emotions to control me. I am very simple-minded. I tend to repeat myself a lot. I love manga and WoW and my family. I am odd. I have a strange sense of humor and tend to laugh at things most people don't find amusing. I am easily distracted and easily amused. I am lazy. I am Irrational. I am jealous.
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random

Well, I just thought that I would write some stuff down.  I am trying really hard to not be that person who always has something negative to say about themselves.  I am trying to like me.  I can't say...
Posted by on Mon, 13 Apr 2009 08:43:00 GMT

Mood swings

So here lately I have been having awful mood swings.  Well, mainly crying and acting irrational.  I was also very dizzy and hardly coherent.  I found the culprit...not taking my meds.  Someone asked i...
Posted by on Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:21:00 GMT

Aiden Lee

Aiden Lee Haynes was born on December 02,2008.  Almost everyone has heard the story by now.  just wanted to share that I am home and feeling better.  Hopefully I am REALLY be...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Dec 2008 05:48:00 GMT

Tired

Beyond being too tired to think, move, breathe, eat...well you get the picture, I am doing well.  It does, however, take about 10 mins to put my socks on in the morning.  Bobby finds this am...
Posted by on Sat, 20 Sep 2008 16:27:00 GMT

Venting.

I am glad that I don't rely on most people for support and help.  The people I do rely on, don't think that they need to judge me and love me and care for me the way I am.  Even when I do so...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Jun 2008 18:17:00 GMT

fun and games and stuff

Leave your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I will do...1. I'll respond with something random about you.2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.3. I'll pick a kin...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 16:00:00 GMT

need to get some things said outloud

This week has been really different and tough and trying.  After 6+ years Jerrod and I are no longer together.  We have been talking about it all week and I decided that it was the best for ...
Posted by on Sun, 11 May 2008 22:07:00 GMT

poems are random, and so am I

Well I was digging through my notebook and i found a poem that I wrote a few months ago and thought I would share it.  I think I am going to try to get the rest typed up and put up here in some w...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 18:20:00 GMT

more randomness b/c I can

Ever have that problem where you think you have something to say and nothing ever comes together in words so you just shrug it off?  Well I am like that all the time.  I always feel like I h...
Posted by on Thu, 07 Feb 2008 00:12:00 GMT

randomness

Blogs are easy to write when I am depressed or angry.  I just wanted to try to write one in a good mood for once.  A lot of things have happened recently (good and bad) that just made me rea...
Posted by on Tue, 29 Jan 2008 16:38:00 GMT