I know im 26 years old and im too old for this myspace shit....about me well nothing really interesting but please believe me that im not crazy, desperate or obsessed but i take this as a personal note to myself .....i have been dating Morgan Brown for 3 years (on and off) i have to say that she has been there for me when i felt like mylife wasn't important anymore and she is teaching me how to love myself and her. she is helping me forget my past regret, that its not a mistake but happened for a reason and i should stop holding so much animosity inside (i just want closure or a sense of finality, i can't live with myself or keep beating myself up)... but not to make this sound too brady bunch me and morgan still have our issues...i am a proud owner of a dodge truck that is paid for.....also i enjoy playing drums and i own alot of analog synthesizers i think music is my aptitude and a way to vent all my fustrations.....i tell myself everyday that today is a new day and i must make the best out of my future....i started to get counseling (No im not Pyscho people just that i have a problem i need to deal with)..but why im doing this all over is because i was told to make a change and start over and forgive but not to forget..This Is The Day I Stop Make-Believe.....I give myself an A+....{Gunshot}
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Brendan Nowell,
Birthday: 11-18-81
Birthplace: williamsburg : WMSBG
Current Location: still the fuck here
Eye Color: greenish blue
Hair Color: dark blonde
Height: 5'11
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: white but feel black?
The Shoes You Wore Today: Some combat boots
Your Weakness: Life, and living
Your Fears: Death, I DOnt want It TO Come TO Soon oR At The Wrong Time
Your Perfect Pizza: i hate pizza
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Become a rockstar, how cliche
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: I rather pick up a phone than use IM
Thoughts First Waking Up: I made it through another day
Your Best Physical Feature: Nothing!
Your Bedtime: what kinda ? is that
Your Most Missed Memory: My Grandfather, He Past Away To Soon When We Were Trying To Mend The Broken Parts In The Past and we were working on getting closer again
Pepsi or Coke: I Hate Pepsi But I Will Choose Coke for Jack!
MacDonalds or Burger King: Both are disgusting
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: That Shit Is Not Good For You
Do you Smoke: No!
Do you Swear: fuck fuck fuck
Do you Sing: Yes, but i tell myself that i can't sing but i think anyone can sing if they have something to sing about!
Do you Shower Daily: everyday to be honest
Have you Been in Love: Yes and was but i dont want to remind myself about it
Do you want to go to College: if it is about music
Do you want to get Married: Maby, But Not really I Like To Be alone Alot And I Cant Commit My Time To One Person, i fear commitment but im understanding it
Do you belive in yourself: No! everything and anything i do amounts to shit. i'll end up dead someday
Do you get Motion Sickness: No but i am afraid to fly like a motherfucker..i can not fly ever again
Do you think you are Attractive: No! I Have No Confidence In Myself,i always tell myself im ugly
Are you a Health Freak: can be
Do you get along with your Parents: sometimes but my father is a douce
Do you like Thunderstorms: I Like It with some one near yes yes
Do you play an Instrument: I Play Drums Very Well, also Synthesizers Which I Own Alot Of, and im learning how to make noise on a guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Not Since I Passed Out And Broke Everything and destroyed some keyboards cause i had blacked out due to my past regret very expensive repairs
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: I Dont Use Illegel Drugs And I Have No Respect For Idoits Who Do
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes I Have Been And MY Favorite Store Is Desiel Clothes, Nordstroms and Saks 5th Ave
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Gross Oreos Are Nasty And They Get All In YOur Teeth
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Not A Fan Of Raw Things
In the past month have you been on Stage: No, But I Plan On To
In the past month have you been Dumped: no you fuck wit me you stuck wit me
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: NO!
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: I Have A Job And I Can Pay For Anything I Want
Ever been Drunk: Yes And I Should Not Drink It Opens Up A Wound That Has Never Benn Closed And I Find Myself Destructive
Ever been called a Tease: Teasing Is Very Trashy, Get To The Point Fuck it or Be Fucked
Ever been Beaten up: In School Fights and outside a club cuz some asshole called me a fag and thats one thing you dont do so i slammed him into a car and it took about 4 people to pull me off of him,and with some asshole at an old job cuase he was just human waste taking my well deserved oxygen.. and i had to go to anger management twice and almost failed it, But That Is About It i cant afford to go into anger management for the 3rd time
Ever Shoplifted: Who hasnt At Busch Gardens
How do you want to Die: in my sleep..but i have this feeling that im gonna get shot in the head... i dont know why but its wierd!!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A Rockstar Who ends up a deadbeat Spends All His Money And Files Bankrupt AndLoses Everting And Becomes A has Been Like All The Other Famous Rockstars
What country would you most like to Visit: I Really Dont Know Im Ashamed To Be Living In this World Right Now Since It Is Being Run By The Most Illiterate, And Ignorant AMerican Waste And That Is George Bush.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown
Favourite Hair Color: Dark hair
Short or Long Hair: Short
Height: 5'11
Weight: 120 to 130
Best Clothing Style: tight and black
Number of Drugs I have taken: None IF Your Asking Illegelbut wellbutrin and xanax
Number of CDs I own: Everything by Nine Inch Nails, Rascal Flatts and David gray but Too Many To Count Im A DJ!! well over 2000
Number of Piercings: None Its Not An Image I Want To Represent But Looks Good On some People
Number of Tattoos: I Wanted One Until Everyone Strated Tpo Get The Barcode but none!
Number of things in my Past I Regret: FUCK YOU! One thing that i did and i still regret everything, it has affected mylife in a bad way but i wake up regreting, but i have the will to try to move on but im hurt and angry at this point.. You know Who You Are
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