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For_My_Darkness

About Me


Side note: chameleons vary greatly in size and body structure, with maximum total length varying from Xcm to Ycm. Many have head or facial ornamentation...
Some (but not all) chameleon species are able to change their skin colors, whilst others are able to change into different colors. Recent research indicates that they do not only change their color for reasons of camouflage, but also use colour changes as a method of communication and attraction.
...and I don't believe in coincidences, everything happens for a reason, has a purpose and some special meaning. I believe in a bunch of other stuff too, magic dust and all, so don't even try to re-convince me.
LIKES:


- mysteries, conspiracy theories and unsolved crimes
- black/white (vintage) documentaries
- my knee-high combat boots
- getting my hands messy in glue, papers, paints, etc (when sculpting and making models)
- that unexplainable grufti smell of German goth shops
- to cross-stitch
- tight CORSETS and thick garter belts
- dalmatians and bats
- mozzarella and olives
- movie quotes and soundtracks
- mushrooms, especially fried and pickled
- anything with cheese in it and sweetcorn
- also Dr Pepper, coffee, Lonkero, Cherry liquor (Edelkirsch) and cherry brandy, some red wines, Moraschino, Pina Colada and hot chocolate
- Kultur-Ruine, and dancing...
- my best friend's Sarah's sarcastic humour
- accents
- heavy snowing
- chocolate sponge cake (is it what chocolate muffins are made of?!)
- Gabriel Knight (from "the Beast Within")
- cute Russian boys from Comedy Club
- handsome actors who play handsome Edward Fairfax Rochester in Jane Eyre films
- daffodils, lilies and pale miniature roses
- coffeeshops, bookshops and library cafes
- Cradle of Filth clothes and videos (up until Nyphetamine)
- mermaids
- making Puppy's mohawk
- quality mohawks on others
- Finnish longhaired metal-men and their headbanging
- Gucci's RUSH (red) and Clinique's HAPPY (classic)
- long nails and dark manicure
- Belgian seashell truffles
- Bad Taste Bears, especially the one with the torn heart
- hoodies
- feminity, as it seems to devalue lately
- candles
- spicy chocolate
- preparing for Christmas (but not the winter holidays itself)
- wrapping (hip-hopping!) paper
- lace, some ripped tights and sometimes velvet
- cinema and theatre
- French, and yes, the accent too! very much
- horror/thriller/scary movies with a philosphical edge (eg. Saw)
- historical drama with costumes and horror
- cats' purring, actually I love everything about cats
- making gifts, I just can't help it
- Romanians!!! (I miss Nedelea...)
- my bondage pants
- bondages in general
- me!
- being called Marisha
- Schloss Neuschwanstein, King Ludwig II and Kaiserin Sissi
- Glogi with cinnamon, pepper cookies and German Christmas markets
- smoking fruity waterpipe /cherry flavor's my favorite/
- being tipsy, a little bit and then I talk a lot!
- things spontaneous
- being taken care of without asking
- did I already mention my hair fetish?...
- and mozzarella?
- smell of burnt wood and smell of the sea
- Moscow at night
- long snowy Scandinavian winters when it gets dark early
- heavy rain&thunder
- the effect coffee has on me
- sweet incents (like sandal or amber)
- cherry/blackcurrant flavours
- good Feng-Shui
- long-distance swimming
- Chandler from 'Friends'
- lip piercing with a rrrrrrring
- eyebrow piercing on men
- sunglasses
- Marmite (nostalgia for my British past), also Jelly Babies, crunchy peanut butter in red pot and salt&vinegar crisps
- scissors
- French maids
- waking up in the morning, when it's heavily raining outside
- black turtle-neck slim-fit sweaters
- doing laundry
- 'Big Red' chewing gum
- my huge and messy writing desk
- handwritting
- writting in general
- Jyrki69 in "the Chair" and "Brandon Lee"
- when new issue of "Cross-stitcher" comes out
- fleamarkets and 2nd hand stores
- vintage military and such inspired clothing
- uniforms and strict suits
- vintage things and classic pin-ups
- long-distance train/bus
- my old job at the editorial house
- listening to music at nights, when it's dark, and daydreaming... (current hit nr 1 is "Butterfly on a Wheel")
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Men who:
- have dress-sense
- can cook
- know mediterranean cuisine
- are taller than me
- are creative and unusual
- are sarcastic and confident
- know more EBM bands than me
- are patient
- can wear a skirt
- are posessive and not shy
- maybe have a dalmatian?
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- my black kissa with one eye, whom I miss more than anything in this world, he died on 1.11.07
- Poetic and old-fashioned Goths like this:
- babies and children


*FAIRYTALE*
Maybe I've been living in Finland ("metal capital of the world") for too long, as this story surprisingly makes sense.
So, this is the situation: there is a beautiful princess trapped in a castle guarded by a dragon. Here is the end of the story with different kind of metalheads as knights.
* POWER METAL
The protagonist arrives riding a white unicorn, escapes from the dragon, saves the princess and makes love to her in an enchanted forest.
* THRASH METAL
The protagonist arrives, fights the dragon, saves the princess and f*cks her.
* HEAVY METAL
The protagonist arrives on a harley, kills the dragon, drinks a few beers and f*cks the princess.
* FOLK METAL
The protagonist arrives with some friends playing acordions, violins, flutes and many more weird instruments, the dragon falls asleep (because of all the dancing). Then all leave........ without the princess.
* VIKING METAL
The protagonist arrives in a ship, kills the dragon with his mighty axe, skins the dragon and eats it, rapes the princess to death, steals her belongings and burns the castle before leaving.
* DEATH METAL
The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon, f*cks the princess and kills her, then leaves.
* BLACK METAL
The protagonist arrives at midnight, kills the dragon and impales it in front of the castle. Then he sodomizes the princess, drinks her blood in a ritual before killing her. Then he impales the princess next to the dragon.
* GORE METAL
The protagonist arrives, kills the dragon and spreads his guts in front of the castle, f*cks the princess and kills her. Then he f8cks the dead body again, slashes her belly and eats her guts. Then he f*cks the carcass for the third time, burns the corpse and f*cks it for the last time.
* DOOM METAL
The protagonist arrives, sees the size of the dragon and thinks he could never beat him, then he gets depressed and commits suicide. The dragon eats his body and the princess as dessert. That's the end of the sad story.
* PROGRESSIVE METAL
The protagonist arrives with a guitar and plays a solo of 26,5 minutes. The dragon kills himself out of boredom. The protagonist arrives to the princess bedroom, plays another solo with all the techniques and tunes he learned in the last year of the conservatory. The princess escapes looking for the heavy metal protagonist.
* GLAM METAL
The protagonist arrives, the dragon laughs at the guy's appearance and lets him enter. He steals the princess' make up and tries to paint the castle in a beautiful pink colour.
* NU METAL
The protagonist arrives in a run down Honda Civic and attempts to fight the dragon but he burns to death when his moronic baggy clothes catch fire.
LIKES NOT:


- Finnish drinking culture
- Finland-fans
- when my presents and help are rejected (almost always in Finland, WHY?!?!?!)
- my current flatmate's kitchen
- how popular burlesque culture suddenly became
- criticism
- long-term planning
- beer
- skulls and bones, brrr...
- french manicure
- the phrase "I've to go"
- the word "whatever"
- New Year holiadys
- night buses from Helsinki railway station, when it's so crowded and brutal
- spiders and heights, but spiders are MUCH worse!!!
- fruit/jello cakes and icing
- pineapple on pizza and watermelon in salads
- anything else sweet in savory food
- huge commercial sold-out concerts, where I'm forced into being a tiny particle of the shapeless masses
- Facebook, hobbits and Harry Potter
- having to be 'easygoing' when the other person is stubbornly shy
- most green teas
- when in restaurants with national themes music doesn't fit the culture of that nationality
- femenism (BIG time!)
- anything about feet (as in, two foot) or shoes
- slang and swearing in my native language, especially in female version of it
- friends with benefits, other forms of 'open relationships' and polyamorism, and nothing can convince me otherwise.
- messy unorganised hair
- Pantene hair-care because of its smell
- triangles and shortcuts
- eco-friendly 'recycled' fashion
- being woken up, for most reasons
- politics and anti-religious movements
- romantic reality tv (although in 2005 I auditioned for one!)
- deep dead silence
- my father's mood swings
- my sister's drama
- my own ignorance + excessive over-reaction
- being touched/tickeled/hugged by people I don't know well
- when I can't help someone I know is in trouble
- horror movies with sharks or open water (how ironic, because I'm a swimmer...)
- modern glamour and other blings
- calling my male friends for help everytime my computer or internet breaks
- YouTube videos on those profile pages
- (small)talking
- deadlines
- tourism photography, like "me and the monument"
- festivals like Wacken or Tuska
- Microsoft Power Point presentations
- food in general, because I've two left hands in the kitchen and have absolutely no patience for anything food-related
- unkept promises and unanswered questions
- when someone is trying to have a conversation at the same time as the band is playing - how am I suppose to follow both?!
- gold
- Children Of Bodom, really!
- most pure death metal
- milk&honey combination


My hands unstoppable!
...obviously I write a lot, by hand or keyboard, all the time. So to prevent me from invading your emails and my own blogs, I re-directed this 'talent' into the following media (nb: always looking for more!)
- www.Stalker.cd (online in German/English)
- Helsinki Times (published weekly in English)
www.helsinkitimes.fi
- 6Degrees (published monthly in English)
www.6d.fi
- www.Lumonetti.fi (online in Finnish)
- www.ThyDoom.com (online in English)


My Dutch seamstress Sannie, who makes my corsets:
www.skeletonsintheclosetclothing.com
www.myspace.com/ohaapala
The magnifiscent Countess of Beaumont and her equally wonderful audio boutique.
My very special friend and inspiration, vintage/pin-up designer Molla:
www.mollamills.com
One amazing girl's, called Alice Nite, concert agency, which I have the honor to be part of.
www.rock-kitty.com

My Interests

I'd like to meet:



Most importantly, Mrs Toquet, because I feel I can really relate to her the most. She's the only one I've ever known of, with whom I too, can just say "windowsill" and "nevertheless" and she'll understand...

Otherwise I won't mind seeing a mermaid and little forest gnomes, but no hobbits!... Beast from Disney and Cinderella's talking mice, then also Gabriel Knight and King Ludwig II. Hugh Jackmann is allowed at all times, with no restrictions or prior bookings.

PS: if you'd give me your address, I'll send you a postcard, really :) [maybe I should stop doing that?...]

My Blog

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oh, I'm in tears! I really do have the best BEST friend in the universe. Through all times, distance and problems there are, we have the strongest connection and friendship possible. And she still sur...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 04:50:00 GMT

* SALE *

...whilst still dealing with all the identity topics, still not leaving me in peace, I've cleared out my closet and found I've a few items brand new and unused. So have a lot, perhaps you or someone y...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Mar 2009 06:12:00 GMT

inspiration to more uniforms

songs like this are a great kick for me out of any depression, just to get going already!!and also, somehow an inspiration for new military-like things... let's see what the end result of it will be t...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Feb 2009 08:04:00 GMT

Schloss Neuschwanstein, re-visited

Sorry that I'm repeating myself...I know I already posted this (last year in April), but I'm just too excited not to do this now: I've just finished my second Neuschwanstein Castle, my most favorite ...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Oct 2008 14:09:00 GMT

no Marisha, no cry!

I'm down. Usually I'm very bubbly and positive, but from last night and until now I'm gloomy, moody and all that... this flu+fever+some of my recent unreasonable behavior made me all too self-consciou...
Posted by on Sat, 16 Aug 2008 12:38:00 GMT

the most wonderful thing!

In Finnish here: http://www.lumonetti.fi/portaali/viihde/musiikki/artikkelit/ celine_dion_diiva_lumosi.htmlAnd in English it follows. (excuse my emotionality, I'm so sentimental and girly in Hartwall A...
Posted by on Mon, 07 Jul 2008 14:05:00 GMT

my lucky 7

In the future I want to have my own column, seems like I've too much to write, all the time; not to say though, surprisingly. A few weeks ago my editor asked me to contribute to a series of articles H...
Posted by on Wed, 02 Jul 2008 00:42:00 GMT

"...and everybody wants her, but I shouldnt even bother..."

very quickly (as if I can!), because have an exam. woke up especially early to study, at 5.30, wasn't too bad actually, only still too dreamy post-WGT mood to concentrate on anything. my British roomm...
Posted by on Fri, 16 May 2008 01:27:00 GMT

surveys’ invasion

What is your favourite alcoholic drink?cocktails with coconutty flavor, I'm a sweet-tooth when it comes to those. But otherwise Gloggi rules my world.Are you upset? not right now, no reasons for it. m...
Posted by on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 14:43:00 GMT

hate!

I thought I was the kind of person with very (or none?) limited amount of extreme emotions, especially in the negative scope, like anger and so on, but this afternoon I've realised that in fact I do H...
Posted by on Sun, 18 Nov 2007 13:39:00 GMT