My systems caught in conniption, stomach in knots
Feedin for my medicine, overcoming addiction
The first step is quittin, nah the first steps admittin
I got a problem, I need help, this is something I can't beat myself
I almost felt like I can't be cured
Rehab won't take me cuz I ain't insured
Layin in the bath tub, shakin like a new born
Searchin for the courage it'll take for me to move on
I've been livin life like this way too long
Beggin God please, bring me home
I stopped before, three or four days
Always end up back in the same place
People call me a junkie, dope fiend
How they gonna judge me, they don't even know me
Lights off, wanna be left alone, I'm tryin to enjoy the methodone
Put a Jimi Hendrix record on, and excuse me while I kiss the sky
Dosed off, woke up, sick to my stomach, ran to the bathroom
Started to vomit, the methodone wore off and the withdrawal started
That first day was the hardest...My name is Tanner...im 18 years old and im am pretty fuckin awesome...no lie...i have the greatest family and friends...mom i love u so much...momma daddyluv u 2...dad and Kathy yall r awesome...sissy jeremy hestan and brynlee i love yall more than yall will ever know...dairyu r great im so glad u r my lil sister lol i would b lost without u...colby kevin baker scott cory ki d-bob yall r my boys and i got u if u ever need anything...i am the happiest i have ever been in my life...things arent ever easy but if they were it wouldnt be as much fun...and for all my peoples u kno i gotta represent...CWB!!!!!!!!!!The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the iniquities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men. Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee.
