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martin.
hey, im straight. im kinda smart, but im pretty lazy. so i tend to avg out as a "b" student. i tend to get competitive. half the time i wont believe a word that will come out of your mouth. an old friend taught me the hard way. i know exactly where i want to go in life, i'm just having a hard time getting there. and every day for the past year, the first thought in my mind has been- its ok, one day ill wake up, and this will all just be a memory.
confession of the day.
10/27/07- i was serious when i said you made me the happiest.
10/28/07- so i wondered what was more important- now? or the future?
10/29/07- i miss waking up to random ass messages.
10/30/07- so i had this conversation with steph's mom and i realized that a big part of who i am today is because of you.
10/31/07- this is the first time i've felt like this in a long time. i was homesick. i felt empty, tired, and like the only thing i wanted to do was work, knowing that would be my way out.
11/01/07- this is the first time my family spent a day together in over a year. i missed that.
11/02/07- i've had a really crappy week. today didn't help.
11/03/07- this is my first dance without my maroon shirt.
11/04/07- i hate this feeling. i dont even know what feeling this is. its just there, and it won't go away. i keep trying to be happy, but, it just stops me. idk. i really dont anymore.
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