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i cant believe what ive done i was mistaken
i cant look back to see which wrong turn was taken
its too hazy
and too many days have past
time amazingly moves way to fast
close my eyes and let it all fade to black
theres nothing that you can say to unstray the bricks that lay my back
ashamed i gave away all that
a chance to embrace those playful acts
and let the present chase away a painful past
but now i dwell on that
slow to react like a turtle that fell on his back
he doesnt want anyone to be able to tell that
inside that shell thats cracked hes soft and brittle
overwhelming thoughts that trickle causing riddles
stomping in the mud mad because he never gets what he wants
you'd think after enough rain, he would of been able to rinse away the stains
a breeze blows a kiss and slowly drifts away all of his pains
and even when the wind started roaring like a lion
it was more calming then a time in his life when
distance was his biggest foreseen obstacle
the journey in time reflecting off of his wide open eyes seemed unlogical
but one day he decided to take a leap of faith
a leap too big for his little legs to complete at his pace
decenting surprisingly he was protected quietly by that roaring wind
when he placed his weight in the hands of fate
that blind faith escorted him to a foreign land...
her eyes captivated me
like the stars on a night
where even the smallest star in the sky lights the earth up like fire flies
gently lathered untattered skin
a smile that would make the maddest man grin
she walks refined beauty defined by her delectable shine and symmetrical lines
im divided in between these feelings of mine
everytime i walk by frail
her lips and eyes stay still
she doesnt lift her cheeks
i probably walk by too quick to speak
lightheaded face getting pale
i used to blush and wag my tail
find reasons to act fresh
and observe how in depth her class gets
now im stale how can i have failed to touch her,
when she loved talking but never dailed my number
im in a slumber stunted to growth and i hope
i'll be able to cope with this
inability to focus with open-ness
oh its rich i can taste it and smell its fragrance
patience has seemed to only make me face-less
and it brings me to my knees
knowing i missed out on that oppurtunity
to get to know her geta little closer
get below her, understand her a little so I can grow ta
her like a flower stretching every inch closer to that sun
i'd fight for every inch with her just to get burned liked that sun
but now its done i made mistakes i cant repent
when im so damn shy and stubourn
so bent over knowing the extent of how unconcerned
she was about my dumb words, and i still dream about that love bird
its haunting the curiousity the emphasis on all the ambition contained
if only i was able to gather my ego before all of this damn rain
i could of used it as my umbrella, now im dumb lost just some fella to run across
and thats the truth its absolute why was my ass something cupid had to shoot
time lets the past dilute and fates a fork in the road, this direction i had to choose
and i appreciate, when she was there to allieviate that choice, it was a given
but i guess everybody needs their space in this modern day of livin
not much gets discussed we run from issues
say fuck it i give up im never gonna miss you
isnt it messed up how harsh it is
in a world full of pacifists and arsenists
its hard to get someone to care for you
in times of need be there for you
we take things so personal our actions and words become surgical
what does it take to become merciful
as im accessin' their minds its hard to find
true happiness of any kind so i bless 'em
with a level of rapture which their destined
to have in their essence of being
love and emotion is blind
so sometimes i feel like its senseless seing
another theory proved false and outdated
because i can see love and emotion on all of your faces
a perfect portrait painted
theres girls with only a cosmetic exterior beauty
which is inferior to some of these girls purely seemed interior
that happens to make me wearier in the long run
its pick and chose but how could i lose if theres no wrong one
my bodies gone numb
like i just slid naked down a snowy salom
ive fallen, yet im still standing
vision panning on all of em
and i cant bring myself to making a decision
on one end theres a relationships thats sex driven
with all the perfect romance that seems to be hand written
on the other end is a relationship consistin
of emotional bliss and rhythm which intesifiys every climax at every aspect
tears fallin emotions callin and we're not even sad yet
it brings a smile to my face to see theres a smile on your face
i love to see you shine, experiencing new things with an open mind
questioning whats real, expressing what ya feel
not overwhelemed by sex appeal
but still appealing sexually not too consealed
not over exposed creative and classy with the clothes
you pay for, now strike a pose
theres not much need to say more
considering a pictures worth a thousand words
i'd utter every lost one but you've taken my breath
i'd swim the depths of your ocean to recover the sunken chest
a treasure that couldnt be measured with currency
priceless pure passion promising a future currently
forget troubled coincidences, in fact, forget fate
even without full control over life, it still can be great
just except the way things are
live life however you want with your wings spread far
just keep your morals, ethics and princables
your philosophy of life is yours and at its own pinnacle
now a days in a pit of fools, its pitiful that the pit is full
its a ridicule to our way of life
but its true not everything can always be the way you like
or what is believed to be right
my insight is out of sight so believe this
once your obtain full control over drastic drama all despair seizes
by full control i mean complete comprehension and attention
to reality and not some animated suspension
handed down thru cultures
which most of the times is outdated unlike books, paintings, songs and sculptures
all almost being timeless, like the negative moments humans tend to get lost in
which cost them, all their natural hair color, and life span botchin'
but lifes awesome, you just gotta keep the positive outlook
and assist our worlds knowledge base cause we'd be no where without books
i'd cross mountains to reach that repleneshing place
the lake that hydrates and rejuvinates
my energy that keeps me moving through winds
mistakes, trials and errors they all share a
common interest, its a sahara
desert for me to conquest
venturing through life with an honest concept
calmy connecting
tests of strength go beyond this
only if, you open your eyes and begin copin with
life, nature, the elements which face ya
dead on, unthreatened, doing what they do naturally
aspiring to evolve and hoping you do the same adequately
responding with empathy, which means your consumed by that entity
lose yourself and take part in doing what was meant to be
feel the cold enter you when it snows, when it rains just let it flow
live life, like its your last day
live love, like its a passage way
live long like a child, laugh and play
thats the way, yes, yes, thats the way
embrace that which you are blessed with
and take a moment to thank god, for every hidden message
his given you, every moment of sadness you lived through he was still beside you
hoping you'd became stronger, so he could be back in you
inside ya, unburnt by the fire, facing elemental forces
traveling that sahara on camelback, never forgetting the horses
you've left behind, to get ahead to get some time
experience, that love, the evolution, the rhyme, the reason
appreciation for each season, each taste of life you're given
seduced by the moments of blissful rhythm, you keep holdin knowing if just
you make it last a minute longer, you'll feel infinitely stronger
so you do this, that sense of accomplishment
the reminiscence of how you went through it
even after how many times you almost called it quits
you prevailed
through snow and hail that would freeze a polar bear down to his nails
through a desert of sands that could dehydrate, and bury a man
through mountains that blew winds so hard you nearly fell apart
yet you still stand here with new feelings, with that new heart
live life, like its your last day
live love, like its a passage way
live long like a child, laugh and play
thats the way, yes, yes, thats the way
why is it we do what we do
take action, embrace laughter
lifes more spontaneous than I
So I try to keep a close eye
rather than closed eyes
hopin i, will be chosen
for love, not enthronement
let the good times roll in
'til every muscle on your bodies swollen
I find it so hard to impose
myself on such a wonderful glow
and I know, loves not something you hold
its something to mold, something that grows
this is something i chose to write
cause i know its right
to say at this moment of life
i need to keep showing signs of life with an open sight
but I still shy away, night and day
im a bashful kinda guy i must say
im just strayed off and a little too soft
this past of mine is filled with tons of good
but I still cant help but dwell on whats not understood
whats over my head, stuffed under my bed
locked away in the closet, i need a security deposit
for these treasures i've haven't yet had a pleasure to find
body mind and soul together tether my life
and each source neeeeds to grub nutrients of love
and its better to find that within ya self and from above
before you seek out, reach out to the sky and dont budge
what happens when two people see eye to eye and treat eachother as equals
magnifence, its fabulous how innocent the sickness is
that sickness that gives you tingles through your spine
tryin not to, get over-excited, no longer single ready to combine
your energy with another person like ying and yang
that mutual feeling brings healin to any pain
but it will burn like the touch of a flame, if you act selfish
lookin out for eachothers wellness is a must
avoiding confrontation, facin problems savin the trust
cause thats something you dont wanna lose
love is hard to find, and its something you dont wanna abuse
or take advantage of, cause charma will leave you bandaged up
its rough being that victim, knowing your position was righteous
living life just tryin to find a kiss that'll consume you
undo and soothe you, in ways no other set of lips could do
loves like voodoo, it can move you, through moods
and sometimes spook you, it'll glue you to that person
grow old and still treat each moment like its new with that person
thats love when its till death till ya part
thats love, when it still lives through your heart
when they're long gone, love in this world is uncommon
loves is un-selfish, self-less, healthfully helpless
and can come and go as it pleases and you feed it
too much thought, love is something you lead with ya heart
consumption of thoughts is a function of loss
its something ive tossed away,
wake up feel my heart, thats how i start my day
pardon me, as i burst into a puddle
of emotions tryin to juggle faith in a rational sense
remaining restlessly open and dense
not impenetrable just filling my cup up with substance
lost in the abundance of complexity that this world offers
widened horizons my eyes glim as my heart becomes softer
nights become shorter days become longer
my lifes sorda, a haze in this maze i become stronger
as i become calmer and more aware
of the motions that are reflected from the glare in my eyes
i feel a sense of being when i stare at the skies
stretch my neck, flare my nostrils, and bare with the times
and share with the lives, moments ive endured and experienced
overwhelemed, secure in the weariness and exhaustion
from liviing life and repeating processes too often
tedious but its still fascinating, fabulous its awesome
not knowing what to expect, what positive images will people reflect
for instance an old man tells his grand daughter a story of a time he met a lady
and that lady became his everything
his reason to wake, his reason to feel great
the moods, the sights the 4 seasons that paced each day with a wonderful taste
even though shes no longer in his grace he speaks with a smile on his face
expressing beloved memories that he embraced
thats love when its till death till ya part
thats love, when it still lives through your heart
when they're long gone, love in this world is uncommon
loves is un-selfish, self-less, healthfully helpless
and can come and go as it pleases and you feed it
too much thought, love is something you lead with ya heart
sometimes i really dont know what do with me myself
sunshines i know the day will eventually end itself
i gotta move on these through long days of emotional pain
soaking up moments and memories with teary eyes hopin its rain
im out of this foul bs thats how it is when i become so powerless
i cant breathe ina breath withered like a flowers tip from the winters stress
luxuries are just a sinners quest you could live with less
the answers always gonna be within chest so give your best
life goes on when the light goes on inside ya mind
in time wounds heal flowers bloom fields in spring and resume life
just do the same for yourself meet new people and start a new life