REWIND
BITCH
I love how
everyone
thinks
they're so bad
ass,
when they
couldn't even
possibly
comprehend
the thoughts
that run
through my
mind that
make me
truely
PSYCHOTIC.
Fuck it.
Honestly?
You have no right to know me.
<3 Keep thinking you know what I am
because you could never possibly imagine.
I sing.
This Human life was never meant for me.
Growing up; Dying on the inside. REALIZING {{LIFE}} sucks ass. Loving, yet never being loved truly. Staggering through life. FALLING into a dark hole. Wishing, Hoping.... PRAYING TO GOD the pain will stop. Crying, and screaming. Just wanting to do something that will END IT ALL ---> In a hail of bullets. ~AWAY~ With everything and everyone that ever DID YOU WRONG. Just knowing, you're powerless.
I'd like to meet...
Poets. Lovers. Dreamers. Thinkers.
My Heroz;;
My bestest and closest friend, who I love way to much for him to be a friend or brother, James Utsler.
God
Jenny
Connie
Alex
Teenah
Katie
Mokshya
Ect.
MUSICIS INTHE AIRIBREATHE
"You treat me
Like I belong
Like I exist
Like I have a reason to be
You treat me better
Than anyone else treats me
You say I matter
That I'm wanted around
I believe your words
They make such a lovely sound"
-James
Why the fuck did I trust your fucking lies?
I know I can't cure stupid, but honestly the government should have us apply for permits to reproduce. Discussing sex or death over lunch isn't uncommon, it tends to be quite frequent, even though most of us don't get laid anyways. Suicide, people want to do it, how hard is it to do it right the first time? Some people are still alive though, because it IS illegal to kill people, in some cases that's quite unfortunate. If you keep getting pregnant, even though you're using birth control, I'd deduce the fact that "It isn't working, maybe I should use a condom..." Medicine seems to work only for a short time, then you develop some mutation of the common cold and die from it. That's what you get for letting something else do all the work for you and your body. You're not going to die untill your pourpose is over, you know that right? You have at least 100 years to live, yet you waste it and make it so you have less than that. Why subtract? Adding tends to be better, unless of course it has to do with the human population. Rocks seem to have a higher IQ than most of the human population anyways... IQ Doesn't measure the comprehension level of one person. If we had a number measurement for comprehension, you know damn well for most of the population it would be smaller than the adverage IQ ratio. In other words; You can know millions of things, but if you don't understand any of it, you're no use to anyone.
I try and find every way to be original. I don't want to be anyone else. That's the problem though. Everyone is the same, everyone is fake somehow. No one is original. I'd rather stand up and make it up along the way though. That's the only fun in life, is if everything was a surprise. Fuck the conformists. Fuck the non-conformist. My head is spinning, because everyone is the same. It's starting to drive me insane.
Everyone deserves better. No one deserves to die. We have the power to do many things yet we still screw off. There's no second chances in the real world. Once something is gone, it's gone. We are always finding things to distract us from reality. We are mindless drones. We are ignorant. We are fallen as a civilization. We are unaware of the truth. We are blind, yet it's right there in front of us. We are manipulated. We are destroyed. We are seperated. We are dead.