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PAIN= Weakness leaving the body.
What is this?!? Mid life crisis? maybe. I feel like I have been in a spin cycle for years now and just cant see straight yet. Tired of trying to live up to what I thought others wanted me to be- never felt like I was succeeding--tired of trying to make everyone else happy. Sober for 10, almost 11 years now-off of something I never wanted to live a day without(you know what I mean). Now I am just trying to figure out who I am and what I want. Feeling blindsided by reality, tossed around by careless hearts with good intentions. Angry at myself for being so confused. Angry at myself for hurting the ones I love. Trying to live my life without allowing myself to numb the pain. The light at the end of the tunnel always seems to be an oncoming train...I'll keep looking. The only way out is through.
"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear-not the absence of fear."
I got this awesome profile image from Picklemy.com!
If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything.
"And you said I know that this will hurt But if I don't break your heart Then things will just get worse If the burden seems too much to bear Remember the end will justify The pain it took to get us there And I'll let it be known At time I have shown Signs of all my weakness But somewhere in me There is strength And you promise me That you believe In time I will defeat this Cause somewhere in me There is strength" Reliant K
Everything happens for a reason-we must have the patience to wait for the understanding.
"There's always more to every story than just whats here and now-there's not one hopeless situation that cant be turned around."
"Sometimes the very thing you're looking for, is the one thing You can't see..."
'Never allow someone to be your Priority while allowing yourself to be their Option'
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

people from my past. on this journey, trying to figure out my future, remembering my past is important...

Your Love Style is Agape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?

You Are An ISFJ
The Nurturer

You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.
A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.
In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.
You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.

You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist. What's Your Personality Type?

My Blog

a piece from an email

this is just a piece from an email i received and i thought it wasimportant enough that i needed to put it somewhere that i couldread again whenever i needed reminding.Understand the importance of say...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Mar 2009 09:54:00 GMT

for Jacob- the most special person in the world-my favorite!

to help you remember when you forget.......NEVER forget! i like you for always, i'll love you forever. as long as im living, my baby you'll be!
Posted by on Tue, 23 Sep 2008 07:12:00 GMT

doing the bored blogging thing

You Are The Lovershttp://www.blogthingsimages.com/whattarotcardareyouqui z/lovers.jpg" height="100" width="100">You represent ideal love: innocence, trust, exhilaration and joy.You demonstrate the harm...
Posted by on Mon, 26 May 2008 16:49:00 GMT

just a song...favorite song

don't understand Why you've done these things to me I can not comprehend Your lack of loyalty For you I would have shaken down The heavens from the sky But it seems my love was stronger than Thi...
Posted by on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 09:05:00 GMT

find your wings....

Letting Go Author unknown To "let go" does not mean to stop caring,it means I can't do it for someone else.To "let go" is not to cut myself off,it's the realization I can't control another.To "let go"...
Posted by on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 09:40:00 GMT

awake

awake this morning with something different. not a longing or a missing-not a wonder or a wishingi have to now question if the time for you has passed. is this what i was praying for-a way to let it a...
Posted by on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 12:30:00 GMT

a wish for that someone special at this years end...

. happiness, clarity, love, reality, open eyes, tunnel vision goodbye, a path well lit, no stumble rocks on it, to see what is real, a balance between think and feel, not just the whisper of a stone ...
Posted by on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 07:08:00 GMT

dont know where this came from

I think when something is thought out logically, with all of the important information properly weighed and sorted out, and a decision is made on what is right for your life or for that which is in y...
Posted by on Sun, 23 Dec 2007 21:10:00 GMT

ralph marston

"Don't lower your expectations to meet your performance. Raise your level of performance to meet your expectations. Expect the best of yourself, and then do what is necessary to make it a reality." &n...
Posted by on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 18:09:00 GMT

control-or the lack there of...

so, loving to drink (escape, numb) as I do, I again didnt listen to my instincts. I know better than to drink when I feel I NEED a drink. I also know better than to drink when in a bad mood. As a res...
Posted by on Sun, 02 Dec 2007 13:28:00 GMT