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So Let Me Eat Cake

Hopeless romanticism with a dash of geek

About Me

Name:Addie

I'm 19 and this is going to be long.. enjoy!

Sometimes I don't know if I have deep talks with people because I care for them, or because I like fucking with their heads and challenging their beliefs to see how deep those beliefs go...

some days are just meant to make you feel like hell, so that the next day youll be happy because you cant get any worse. The least you can do is pick yourself up, take the next step, and hope you dont fall again.

people are multifaceted, but so few understand that. I try to understand that, and I try to give people the chance to be different, but very few accept, we're so stuck in our roles that we cant break out anymore. We're so used to being judged that we pay no attention at all and inevitably, it's difficult to change when you need to.

People Depress Me; People who feel they have to be in a relationship to be happy, People who have never experienced the awesomeness that is sitting in a parking lot at midnight with your best friend and just talking until you have to drive back roads to beat the cops home, People who think they'resmart so that gives them a right to ruin everyone else's existence by manipulating the other stupid people, People who are gold diggers and are in it for the easy fix, People like me who can't seem to become better as hard as we try; we can't keep on our feet, People who have fallen and are having ahard time climbing back up, People who fell down and drank their way deeper, People who don't realize that the people they hang out with are fucked up. But its human nature and we can't change it as hard as we try, we just have to play the cards we're given, but if we end up with the Queen ofSpades, we shouldn't give up and admit defeat because there's always a chance we can Shoot the Moon

I realize that If I met myself on the street, I'd hate me. probably immediately. I judge people fast. one of my larger downfalls. If I cannot love myself, accept myself, learn to care for myself, than how I can possibly be able to love others, accept others, and learn to care for others. Its something I needto work and pray on..

I'm a nerd and in the words of a good friend Cait "You have always been a skinny little emo kid!"

Disrespect annoys the hell out of me.. so don't do it

heres my plan: I'm going to be a sophomore in college. Working towards an english degree with a psych minor if I can swing it. Plan on teaching literature and writing on the side. good luck to me.

Sometimes I dont know if my desire to do good springs from a genuine want to help or from the guilt of knowing that I am a sinner

I try to wax poetic but sometimes I just end up rambling crazy.

My Interests

fireworks, staring at the river late at night, sitting on hills staring at stars, singing poorly in the shower, ripping pages of particularly pretty people from magazines, swings, cardboard cutouts, jones soda bottles, swords, reading textbooks for interesting content, reading shakespeare at my leisure, sitting and people watching, sitting outside, writing, sleeping, gaming, making mix cds for friends, making tea.. lots of tea, figuring out who I'll be today, fortune cookies that fit perfectly into my life, people with odd hair/hair colors, going after things I can't have, trying to keep everyone happy, extra credit, full length mirrors, ticket stubs, rain, sunny days, grass, amusing changes in perception, reading more than necessary, writing poetry instead of notes O.o!

I'd like to meet:

Someone who will kiss me when I'm crying,

Someone who will know me by my voice,

Someone who can tell if I'm upset without me telling them,

Someone who likes my incessant rambling,

Someone who appreciates my crazy analogies,

Someone who will go to Africa with me,

Someone to hold my hand when I'm scared,

Someone who will draw chalk pictures on my sidewalk in the sun.

Music:

.:|[unity303]|:.; 30 Seconds To Mars; The Academy Is...; Adam Ant; advantage Lucy; Aerosmith; Age of Punk; A-Ha; Ai Otsuka; Akon; Al Green; The Alan Parsons Project; Alanis Morissette; Alice Nine; Alizee; The All-American Rejects; Anais; amateur Love; And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead; Andre3000; Andy Williams; Ani DiFranco; Anna Nalick; Anodajay; Aphex Twins; Appleseed Cast; Aqua; Aqualung; The Arcade Fire; Architecture in Helsinki; Augustana; Aural Vampire; Aurum; Avenue Q; Avril Lavigne; Ayumi Hamasaki; B*Witched; Band Aid; Barenaked Ladies; Baumer; Beastie Boys; The Beatles; Beck; Belanova; Belle & Sebastian; Ben E. King; Ben Folds Five; Benny Benassi; Billie Piper; Billy Idol; The Bird and The Bee; Bishop Allen; Black 47; Black Eyed Peas; Blaqk Audio; Blind Melon; Bloc Party; Blonde Redhead; The Blow; Blue October; BoA (not the asian pop star); The Boy Least Likely To; Brand New; Broken Social Scene; Bruce Springsteen; Capsule; The Cardinal Sin; Carla Bruni; The Carpenters; Cascada; Casper and the Cookies; Cat Power; Cat Stevens; Catch 22; Charlie Rich; Chatmonchy; Cheap Trick; Cherry Poppin' Daddies; Chris Cornell; Christina Aguilera; Chumbawamba; Cirque Du Soleil; The Cloud Room; Coldplay; Corey Hart; Cornershop; Counting Crows; Cranberries; Cribs; CSS; Cure; Daft Punk; Damien Rice; Daniel Powter; Dashboard Confessional; Dave Matthews Band; David Bowie; Death Cab For Cutie; Decemberists; Delta Goodrem; Destroyer; Dido; Dir en Grey; DJ Tiesto; Dresden Dolls; Drifters; Duran Duran; Eagle Eye Cherry; Elvis Costello; Elvis Presley; Emily Loizeau; Etro Anime; Evanescense; Eve 6; Fairy Fore; FAKE?; Fall Out Boy; Fatboy Slim; The Feeling; Feist; Fergie; A Fine Frenzy; Finger Eleven; Fiona Apple; The Flavor Crystals; Flock of Seagulls; Fool's Garden; Francoise Hardy; Frank Sinatra; Franz Ferdinand; Fray; Frente!; Frou Frou; Garbage; Garmarna; Gary Jules; Ginny and the Heartbreakers; Goo Goo Dolls; Good Life; Graham Colton Band; Guns N Roses; Gwen Stefani; Gym Class Heroes; Halcali; HelloGoodbye; Hikaru Utada; HIM; The Hold Steady; The Hollies; Honorary Title; Hooverphonics; Hop Along Queen Ansleis; Howie Day; IMonster; Ima Robot; Imogen Heap; Infinity; Iris; Ivri Lider; Jack Johnson; James Blunt; Jem; Jessica Riddle; Jet; Jet Set Radio Future Soundtrack; Jewel; Jimmy Eat World; Johnathan Coulton; John Lennon; John Mayer; Josephine Collective; Kagrral; Kaki King; Keane; Killers; Kinks; Kinnie Starr; KT Tunstall; Legend of Zelda (OoT, MM, TP) Soundtracks; Lenny Kravitz; Lesser Birds of Paradise; Liam Lynch; Lifehouse; Liz Durrett; Long Blondes; Louis XIV; Maplewood; Maroon 5; Marvin Gaye; Matisyahu; Mew; Mighty Mighty Bosstones; Mika; Millencolin; Miyavi; Moaning Myrtles; Modern English; Modest Mouse; Most Serene Republic; MUSE; My Chemical Romance; Natalie Imbruglia; Natasha Bedingfield; Neil Young; Nelly Furtado; Nightmare; Nightmare of You; Nine Days; No Doubt; OAR; Oasis; Of Montreal; OKGO; Olympic Hopefuls; Opeth; Origa; Ottis Redding; O-Zone; Panic! At the Disco; Paolo Nutini; Pedro the Lion; People Press Play; Peter Bjorn and John; Peter Gabriel; Pink Floyd; Pink Martini; Pink Spiders; Pixies; Plain White T's; Plastic Tree; Police; Postal Service; Pretty Girls Make Graves; Prince; Proclaimers; Psyche Origami; Rakes; Red Hot Chili Peppers; Reel Big Fish; Regina Spektor; Relient K; Remus Lupins; Rilo Kiley; Robyn; Rocky Horror; Rogue Wave; Rosie and the Originals; Royksopp; Rusted Root; Santana; Sarah McLachlan; Savage Garden; Save Ferris; Sean Kingston; Selena; Self Evident; Shaggy; Shakira; Shh This is a Library; Shout Out Louds; Sixpence None The Richer; Smoosh; Snow Patrol; The Sounds; Spin Doctors; Spirited Away; Spoon; Stereo Total; Strangers; Stray Cats; Streetlight Manifesto; Strokes; Superchic; Supertramp; Supreme Beings of Leisure; Sweeney Todd Soundtrack; Tal Brachman; Talking Heads; TATU; Taxi Girl; Tegan and Sara; Temptations; Terra Naomi; They Might Be Giants; Third Eye Blind; Three Dog Night; Tiger Army; Tori Amos; Tracy Chapman; T-Rex; TTC; Turtles; UpCDownCLeftCRightCABC+Start; Van Morrison; Vanessa Carlton; Vanessa Paradis; Velvet Goldmine Soundtrack; Velvet Revolver; Velvet Underground; Vertical Horizon; Verve Pipe; Vienna Teng; Vince Gill; Vines; Wallflowers; White Stripes; Wir Sind Helden; Yoshihisa Hirano and Hideki Taniuchi (AKA Death Note Soundtrack); Zolof The Rock N Roll Destroyer; Zombies.and then there's a slew more on my computer at home.so now you can see the range of music I listen to on some semblance of a regular basis.

Movies:

Girl Interrupted, Happy Feet, Finding Nemo, Kung Fu Hustle, Dogma, V For Vendetta, Kiki's Delivery Service, Velvet Goldmine, 10 Things I Hate About You, Labyrinth, Moulin Rouge, Big Fish, My Neighbor Totoro!, Spirited Away, Princess Bride, Rocky Horror, Save the Last Dance, Breakfast Club, Alice in Wonderland, Pirates of the Caribbean, Harry Potter, Sin City, Garden State, Knight's Tale, ShortBus, Juno, Wristcutters: A Love Story, Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium, Waking Life.

Television:

This is stuff I'll watch if it's on and I feel like watching TV, theres nothing that Im religious to.CSI; America's Next Top Model; Doctor Who; Supernatural; Paranormal State; American Gladiators; Project Runway; The News; Colbert Report and Daily Show; Countdown with Keith Olbermann; Music Videos; Firefly.

Books:

I've read a lot of books, most of them fiction, but I'm working on my literature (my library has a shit lit section, and I don't really have time to read up here at college O.O" ) Recently read-some for the first time, some I've read previously: Kite Runner, Les Miserables, Hamlet, The Sun Also Rises, Antigone.I'm working on right now: Dante's Inferno; The Great Gatsby.

Heroes:

My mother. David Bowie. Kaki King. Regina Spektor.

My Blog

The Hair Chapter

Okay guys, Carrie did it and now Im crazy f-n bored with my hair, and since it was such a good idea, Im doing it too (Im such a fangirl ::sigh:: )so, here ya go, I am now your paperdoll.&nbs...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Fri, 08 Jun 2007 04:29:00 PST

Do not feed the emo

Im so tired. Im so tired of acting happy and feeling like Im dying inside. Im tired of trying to forget the pain and shit in my life. I mean, its stupid, because its not like I should be unhappy. but ...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Sat, 05 May 2007 06:57:00 PST

Regina Spektor has my heart

If I kiss you where it's sore If I kiss you where it's sore Will you feel better, better, better Will you feel anything at all Will you feel better, better, better Will you feel anything at all Born l...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 01:07:00 PST

>.< X!@#%^%$#

..>     ..> mood: aggravated..>AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHwhy do they hate me!?! fucking elon! I'm going to be down there mond...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Wed, 04 Apr 2007 12:56:00 PST

I don't know what to say really, so I prattle just to pass the time.

There are days that feel like forever. and days that feel like nothing. Somedays the view from my dingy window is so hopelessly artistic, what with the impoverished houses and the dead tree and the sk...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 04:44:00 PST

lots of blogs lately

got wait listed for elon x_x
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 12:44:00 PST

It smells a little green outside today

It smells like green outside. Some of you know what I mean, some of you don't. Its that smell thats barely noticable by itself in the air, but when it settles in and you realize its there, oh man is ...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 02:51:00 PST

because I'm a story dork

It started as me looking up names for stories, ended up me making a list of 52 of my favorite names (26 per gender, how many lines there are on a standard notebook page). since I'm a dork, and I'm inc...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Thu, 22 Feb 2007 08:02:00 PST

I want to Sing

I want to sing to you my love My only love and happiness Don't be so blue so blue my love Take off your shoes take off my dress I want to sing to you my love My only love and happiness Don't be so blu...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 10:06:00 PST

I was a fricken machine today!

..>     I cleaned my room.. and not just the floor. I cleaned under: my desk, my dresser, my bed. I cleaned off: my desk, my dressers (yes I have two, one functions as a storage thing...
Posted by So Let Me Eat Cake on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 03:46:00 PST