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SPORK: NAKED INVASION from Tom Stern on Vimeo .i care way more for others than i do for myself. i love people on an individual basis, but despise humanity (yes, there IS a difference) i may not always agree with you, but i will be loyal to you forever, AS LONG AS I FEEL YOU CARE... the fastest way to my heart is to amuse me, and i am easily amused. i am nigh-impossible to offend except by intolerance. i am a magpie who collects bits and pieces from everything to assemble my own mercurial notion of The Truth. i don't care if i steal your soul, as long as i get the picture i want. sometimes i even post them at http://darby.deviantart.com/ i'm not sure if i'm a pessimistic optimist, or an optimistic pessimist- i figure the only way being a gemini relates to me is that i am two people in the same body, both of them complete opposites and both of them slightly crazy. bad stuff? i don't seem to believe in anything, and don't seem to belong anywhere, and i'm afraid that no-one will even notice when i am gone. sometimes i think i'm pretty much ok, but most of the time i am a well of self-loathing so deep that it has no discernable bottom. compliments make me feel excrutiatingly uncomfortable because i'm always waiting for the "but..." i covet other people's (apparent) sense of ease, belonging and self-assurance. i think about dying a lot, but not in a glamorous way. the only thing that keeps my town from being a smoking crater is my very broad and irreverent sense of humour, and a mind like a hummingbird on crack... ooh, something pretty! what was i saying? my two favourite words (besides fuck and asshat) are sublunary and petrichor... and in my own way, i worship the moon. and chaos. if this is not what you expected, please alter your expectations.*********************************************** *********************** Myers Briggs Personality Type Indicator Test ************************************************************ **********Your Type is INFP Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving Strength of the preferences % 11 12 25 44Qualitative analysis of your type formula: You are: * slightly expressed introvert * slightly expressed intuitive personality * moderately expressed feeling personality * moderately expressed perceiving personality------------------------------------------------- ----------- INFP type description by D.Keirsey: Healer Idealists are abstract in thought and speech, cooperative in striving for their ends, and informative and introverted in their interpersonal relations. Healer present a seemingly tranquil, and noticiably pleasant face to the world, and though to all appearances they might seem reserved, and even shy, on the inside they are anything but reserved, having a capacity for caring not always found in other types. They care deeply-indeed, passionately-about a few special persons or a favorite cause, and their fervent aim is to bring peace and integrity to their loved ones and the world.Healers have a profound sense of idealism derived from a strong personal morality, and they conceive of the world as an ethical, honorable place. Indeed, to understand Healers, we must understand their idealism as almost boundless and selfless, inspiring them to make extraordinary sacrifices for someone or something they believe in. The Healer is the Prince or Princess of fairytale, the King's Champion or Defender of the Faith, like Sir Galahad or Joan of Arc. Healers are found in only 1 percent of the general population, although, at times, their idealism leaves them feeling even more isolated from the rest of humanity.Healers seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect, perhaps because they are likely to have a sense of inner division threaded through their lives, which comes from their often unhappy childhood. Healers live a fantasy-filled childhood, which, unfortunately, is discouraged or even punished by many parents. In a practical-minded family, required by their parents to be sociable and industrious in concrete ways, and also given down-to-earth siblings who conform to these parental expectations, Healers come to see themselves as ugly ducklings. Other types usually shrug off parental expectations that do not fit them, but not the Healers. Wishing to please their parents and siblings, but not knowing quite how to do it, they try to hide their differences, believing they are bad to be so fanciful, so unlike their more solid brothers and sisters. They wonder, some of them for the rest of their lives, whether they are OK. They are quite OK, just different from the rest of their family-swans reared in a family of ducks. Even so, to realize and really believe this is not easy for them. Deeply committed to the positive and the good, yet taught to believe there is evil in them, Healers can come to develop a certain fascination with the problem of good and evil, sacred and profane. Healers are drawn toward purity, but can become engrossed with the profane, continuously on the lookout for the wickedness that lurks within them. Then, when Healers believe thay have yielded to an impure temptation, they may be given to acts of self-sacrifice in atonement. Others seldom detect this inner turmoil, however, for the struggle between good and evil is within the Healer, who does not feel compelled to make the issue public.----------------------------------------------------- -- INFP type description by J. Butt: INFPs never seem to lose their sense of wonder. One might say they see life through rose-colored glasses. It's as though they live at the edge of a looking-glass world where mundane objects come to life, where flora and fauna take on near-human qualities.INFP children often exhibit this in a 'Calvin and Hobbes' fashion, switching from reality to fantasy and back again. With few exceptions, it is the NF child who readily develops imaginary playmates (as with Anne of Green Gables's "bookcase girlfriend"--her own reflection) and whose stuffed animals come to life like the Velveteen Rabbit and the Skin Horse:"...Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand..." (the Skin Horse)INFPs have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity.Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response.Of course, not all of life is rosy, and INFPs are not exempt from the same disappointments and frustrations common to humanity. As INTPs tend to have a sense of failed competence, INFPs struggle with the issue of their own ethical perfection, e.g., performance of duty for the greater cause. An INFP friend describes the inner conflict as not good versus bad, but on a grand scale, Good vs. Evil. Luke Skywalker in Star Wars depicts this conflict in his struggle between the two sides of "The Force." Although the dark side must be reckoned with, the INFP believes that good ultimately triumphs.Some INFPs have a gift for taking technical information and putting it into layman's terms. Brendan Kehoe's Zen and the Art of the Internet is one example of this "de-jargoning" talent in action.Functional Analysis:Introverted Feeling INFPs live primarily in a rich inner world of introverted Feeling. Being inward-turning, the natural attraction is away from world and toward essence and ideal. This introversion of dominant Feeling, receiving its data from extraverted intuition, must be the source of the quixotic nature of these usually gentle beings. Feeling is caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same. The "object," be it homo sapiens or a mere representation of an organism, is valued only to the degree that the object contains some measure of the inner Essence or greater Good. Doing a good deed, for example, may provide intrinsic satisfaction which is only secondary to the greater good of striking a blow against Man's Inhumanity to Mankind.Extraverted iNtuition Extraverted intuition faces outward, greeting the world on behalf of Feeling. What the observer usually sees is creativity with implied good will. Intuition spawns this type's philosophical bent and strengthens pattern perception. It combines as auxiliary with introverted Feeling and gives rise to unusual skill in both character development and fluency with language--a sound basis for the development of literary facility. If INTPs aspire to word mechanics, INFPs would be verbal artists.Introverted Sensing Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect. This introverted Sensing is somewhat categorical, a subdued version of SJ sensing. In the third position, however, it is easily overridden by the stronger functions.Extraverted Thinking The INFP may turn to inferior extraverted Thinking for help in focusing on externals and for closure. INFPs can even masquerade in their ESTJ business suit, but not without expending considerable energy. The inferior, problematic nature of Extraverted Thinking is its lack of context and proportion. Single impersonal facts may loom large or attain higher priority than more salient principles which are all but overlooked.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

i love meeting people who are brighter, funnier and more interesting than myself (and do NOT mistake that for a declaration of ego)... i can find something good or interesting in almost anyone, and am not afraid to look for it... also: alan moore, terry pratchett, chuck palahniuk, tom waits. and whoever is running this freakshow on earth...i've been working on a list of complaints.

What Is Your Battle Cry?


Y ea, verily: Who is that, skulking out of the plains! It is Darby, hands clutching a studded crowbar! And with a booming scream, her voice cometh:

"I'm seriously going to use you like a hand puppet!!"


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i think i may never be in a good mood again.so if that's what you're waiting for, really... been good knowing you.well, sometimes it's been good, anyway....as you wish.
Posted by on Thu, 25 Jun 2009 20:00:00 GMT

bucket list...?

(for mom, since she probably thinks i won't do this-- ha!)seems like i could come up with better stuff than this....---------------------------------------------------- -----------------The Buc...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Jun 2009 11:41:00 GMT

glass slipper

"how many wishes do i still have left to fix the way it ends how many princes do you think it takes to put a girl like this back together again how many instances can you point out where i was les...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Jun 2009 00:15:00 GMT

oh, the HUMANITY

so today i was being kindasorta bored silly by charles and his periodic youtube-surfing, when he turned up a thread that actually caught my interest.  if you've looked at the interwebs much, you know ...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Jun 2009 05:38:00 GMT

nonproductivity

(from Ms. Kimbly)---------------------------------So from now on, your going to be asked unique questions, you ready?...that would be refreshing.  what are the odds?Have you thought about an ex today?...
Posted by on Wed, 27 May 2009 15:00:00 GMT

weeee.

(from kim)----------------------What do you consider some perks of being your gender?nyah nyah, i got tits and you don't?a functioning brain?Would you ever get a tattoo with someone's name on it?noooo...
Posted by on Fri, 17 Apr 2009 05:24:00 GMT

*yawn*

(from ashley)----------------------1. Do you like chinese food?some.... yes.2. How big is your bed?cal king3. Is your room clean?*snicker* notsomuch4. Laptop or Desktop computer?i has a desktop.lapt...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Mar 2009 04:14:00 GMT

from kimbly

Why are you at home?because i do, in theory, live here?If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?hmm. could be thinkin' Deep Thoughts.could be very depressed.or very angry, and trying not to ...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Feb 2009 14:42:00 GMT

darby & The Dave

(from steph. who had better answers)------------------------------------------------What are your middle names?lynn and berronesHow long have you been together?technically, 18 years. married for 12Ho...
Posted by on Sat, 27 Dec 2008 06:20:00 GMT

2008 redux

(from the OTHER stephanie, small but mighty)----------------------------------------------------- ----Where did you begin 2008? downtown beruit, er, my houseWhat was your statu s by Valen tine' ...
Posted by on Tue, 23 Dec 2008 05:59:00 GMT