It's obvious I LOVE being a mom. I have two of the coolest kids I have ever met. I am definately a grandma's girl...cause I LOVE my grandma. She is the only person that has ever loved me unconditionally, until the kids came along. I wish we were closer, I'd be at her house everyday if I could. I love country life. I hate drama! Over the past 8-10 years I have been going through some huge transitions, professionally, personally, emotionally, spiritually. After learning this year that I have probably been depressed my entire life due to the environemnt I grew up in, things make more sense. The mistakes I have made in the past. The people I have hurt and the the hurt I have let others cause myself. Forgiving and forgetting are two things I have never been good at. If someone had hurt me, or if I had hurt someone, I couldn’t forgive myself or them. I have also lived my entire life for other people’s happiness. Living the way I was “supposed†to live. I am scared to try new things or be a little bit rebellious. There were consequences for doing things my family thought I shouldn’t be doing. Until recently, I didn’t know who I actually was. I am finding this great person inside of me, who wants successful relationships and wants to go out and have a good time. I want to take time for myself and not let the life be sucked out of me. I have made it through more than my share. Life is beginning to finally make sense and I actually have a place in it. I am worthy of love and good things. I smile more, I talk more, I LAUGH more and I love more. Good things do come out of bad. I am living proof times 10! I so look forward to the years ahead! I am not perfect, and I believe that I have learned from my mistakes. I have asked forgiveness and I have received it, this I am sure of. None of us can change the past only make the future better. I truly believe that there is someone for all of us and we just have to hold out until we find them. Don't sugar coat things to get the person you "think" you want. Be true to yourself, say what you mean and mean what you say. It only causes heartache and hard feelings in the end. Someone will appreciate everything you have to offer, when the time is right. Life by the way is not getting any longer and I am ready for the beginning of my story with a happy ending. I want to swim with the dolphins and relax on a beach gazing at the clear water during the day and stars and moon at night.I love good hot chocolate on a cold night. Tulips that are just blooming. Pottery is my favorite thing to shop for. I have never been much into movies especially at the theater. I just can't see paying so much. Maybe I need to change my point of view. My son Sailor Addison is fabulous....a little smart for his own good, but still fabulous. He is 8 and in the 4th grade. He keeps close watch on me and I hope that never changes. His father and I married June 1996 and seperated in February 2002. He is a wonderful man and I am here today because the Lord sent him to me Christmas of 1993. I got lost somewhere along the way. My daughter Kensleigh is non-stop. She is going to be my tall beautiful one. Running boys away from the house. She's always asking questions and telling stories, singing and giving out hugs and kisses. She will start Kindergarten next year, I pray for the Teacher. She loves her family. Most of you know the tale of her dad.
MY FOCUS IS TO FORGET ABOUT THE PAST AND THE HURT THAT HAS BEEN CAUSED, I HAVE LET GO OF MOST MEMORIES THAT HAVE HAUNTED ME FOR SO MANY YEARS. NEW MEMORIES ARE BEING MADE AND I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS. MUST SAY I AM SO THANKFUL FOR A HIGHER POWER, DOCTORS AND MEDICINE....I ALMOST MADE A FEW MORE STUPID MISTAKES BECAUSE OF DEPRESSION. I PRAY THAT I HAVE FOUND THE RIGHT COMBINATION OF ALL ASPECTS OF LIFE FINALLY. WE ALL HAVE LIMITATIONS AND I DISCOVERED WHAT MINE ARE. I UNDERSTAND SO MUCH MORE...GUESS THAT ALSO COMES WITH AGE. THE KIDS ARE THE BEST! GROWING FASTER EVERYDAY AND I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR MY GRANDMOTHERS, MY AUNT AND SAILOR'S GRANDMOTHER FOR SHOWING ME THE KIND OF MOTHER I WANT AND NEED TO BE. I LEARNED THE KIND OF PARENT I DIDN'T WANT TO BE FROM MY OWN MOTHER AND STEP-FATHER! GUESS I OWE THEM THANKS FOR THAT HUH? HAVING TO SAY GOOD-BYE TO SOME PEOPLE I HAVE HELD ONTO FOR A LOT OF YEARS WAS TOUGH, BUT ONCE I GOT THROUGH THOSE TEARS AND THE TEARS I SHED DURING THE YEARS I FINALLY SEE I AM FREE! THEY ONLY BROUGHT ME DOWN. I WORRIED WAY MORE ABOUT THEM THEN THEY DID I. LIKE THE SONG SAYS I THOUGHT I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU.....IT'LL ALL GET BETTER IN TIME! AND IT'S FINALLY ALL BETTER! THOSE MEMORIES ARE JUST THAT AND THEY WILL STAY IN THE PAST. ..............
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