Courtney Lynne

DIARY:

3/30/08:

Hello Myspace
Hello World?
Long time no see, right?
School is tedious, and so is everything else.
But that's not new...and until then
Au Revoir!

7/6/07:

Summer is lost, or so it seems.
I haven't gotten much done.
I feel bad for myspace, since facebook has consumed my being
along with work and sleep
work and sleep
and more work and sleep
4th of july was a bust, I must be too old or something
maybe it was due to the fact that mitch was in california
BUT
I wont blame it on him...
that would be unfair
Right?
Hah, but the new is old and the old is new.
Im going to sleep.


5/6/07:

2 weeks.
2 weeks, and Im a summer away from my senior year. 2 weeks, and Im a summer and a year away from freedom.
Let's rejoice.


4/06/07:


I have a hamster now;
Iris
Shes the goshfreakingdarndest thing.
Spring break is much too long
&Im getting absolutely nothing done.
not homework, work, chores, or long-term projects
I hope my world cultures class group is okay with failing.


3/21/07:

I take the ACT on April 14.
Exciting, huh?
pfft, talk about
PRESSURE.
My entire life depends upon it...
or something dramatic like that..


2/19/07:

Im 17 now, and almost positive no one reads this.
Stagnant or Static, which ever you prefer, desribes my entire being these past weeks.
Tomorrow, I have to go 6 hours without eating, so that doctors may poke and prode at me with their meaningless medicinal tools.
Doctors, Ive found, don't necessarily like to find solutions to our sickening woes.
They like to prescribe pills that make you sick, and FLONASE(the devil)
But, anyhow, I hope one day they can tell me what's wrong with me
and why everything hurts so much.
Live long, and prosper?


1/14/07:

Its a new year.
But for some reason it doesnt feel all that new..
everything is
the same old
...
stuff
I dont think anythings getting an newer
just more exhausting.


12/24/06:

breaks in half
&runs away
for veggies die happy
& people die
DEAD.


12/22/06:

Captivated By FICTION.
nontheless
I feel shameless
I must be some sort of..
crazy.


12/11/06:


one of these days
im going to be the one who only says what you want to hear
im going to be the one who isnt such a good friend
BUT
in the mean time..
go
go
go be everything you THINK you want to be


11/14/06:

stand back everybody,
we're waiting for change...
it might actually happen this time.


11/12/06:

I say the wrong thing..
too often.


11/2/06:

I...
courtney pitts
DO NOT
under any circumstances
break down,
have an inability to cope with stress
get a bad attitude
cry
let people hurt my feelings
BUT
TODAY
I..
did
im horrible
i feel horrible
it was all so horrible
today,
i failed
i broke my promise
im weak
i lose
im not courtney pitts
im just like everyone ELSE

10/30/06:

so i have this THING
with people
we dont always get along
BUT
when we do
let me assure you...
its BEAUTIFIL.

10/29/06:

i decided
that i just dont care anymore
AND
thats the way to do it
because it doesnt matter anyway
srsly
does it rlly matter
if i forget to call you back
or that i rarely like the widely loved
or even that i like to say that I like change
BUTS ITS ALL AN ACT?

10/17/06:

im sick.
very sick
and it was the kind of sick I knew was coming
and there was no way to stop it
and now im stuck
at home
missing out on the world.

10/11/06:

its cold outside, real cold,
as if winter is here.
This happens to be
outrageaously UNFAIR!
Fall is my favorite season...
Its just my luck that GOD would decide to skip it ;(

10/7/06:

for some reason im always...
unusually tired
today was that type of day that seemed to be...
unusually long
and no matter how I spent my time time
it seemed as if
I spent my time ususually WRONG.

10/6/06:

most days im happy
today im not
i rlly dont like being mean/rude/vulgar...etc.
and i rlly dont like people who do
im not always gramatically correct
but i try
i dont cry over spilt milk
i just feel rlly stupid about it
im not rlly a coffee person
but i like it when my hot cocoa is mistaken as coffee
im not sure about friends
you know...
whether they exist or not
but then again,
im not sure it rlly matters
i visted Doane College today
AND decided i wanted more than that
but thats the story of my life.