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IVE SEARCHED, IVE LOOKED INTO THE LIGHT, IVE LOOKED INTO THE DARK THERE’S NOTHING THERE OR ANYWHERE. IF YOU PEERED INTO MY HEART YOU’D SEE THERE’S NOTHING THERE AT ALL AND YOU’VE LEFT ME ALL ALONE TO MAKE IT ON MY OWN. I CANT FEEL ITS AS THOUGH IM IN A STATE OF PARALYSIS. I HAVE THIS VOID WHICH CANT BE FILLED NOTHING SEEMS TO FIT RIGHT. I JUST WANT TO FEEL A SENSE OF IMPORTANCE. WHAT MY PURPOSE IS WILL REMAIN OBLIVIOUS TO MYSELF. I REFUSE TO BE HERE ON THIS WORLD WHERE I AM OSTERCIZED AN UNWANTED INSIGNIFICANT THING LIKE A STRAY HOPING, ONLY TO BE PASSED UP ON THE ROAD TIME AFTER TIME. I NEED SOME SORT OF ACCOMPLISHMENT A SENSE OF EXISTENCE SOMETHING TO CLING TO. I PUT ON THIS FACADE OF A JOYOUS PLEASANT YOUNG CHILD FOR THE SAKE OF SOCIETY.I WILL SMILE IN HOPE THAT ONE DAY THINGS WILL BE BRIGHTER. FOR WHOS AMUSEMENT WAS I PUT ON THIS HELL? WHY? ONLY TO BE MOCKED AND MANGLED. WHY DO YOU PICK ME UP ONLY TO PUSH ME DOWN AGAIN. YOU CAN HURT ME NO LONGER I HAVE BECOME IMMUNE TO YOUR RAGE. I STAND HERE TORN AND BROKEN WAITING FOR WHAT I HAVEN’T A CLUE, BUT WHEN IT COMES I KNOW IT WILL MAKE ME WHOLE ONCE AGAIN. I’M TERRIFIED THAT IT MAY ALREADY BE TOO LATE, NEVERTHELESS I WILL STILL BE HERE EVEN IF IT TAKES AN ETERNITY TO ARRIVE I WILL STILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING.