Bright Eyes - Perfect Sonnet
Lately I've been wishing I had one desire,
Something that would make me never want another,
Something that would make it so that nothing matters,
All would be clearer then
But I guess I'll have to settle for a few brief moments,
And watch it all dissolve into a single second,
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet,
Or one foolish line
'Cause that's all that you'll get,
So you'll have to accept,
You are here,
Then you're gone
I believe that lovers should be tied together,
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather,
Left there to drown,
Left there to drown in their innocence
But as for me I'm coming to the final chapter,
I've read all of the pages and there's still no answer,
The only words before I know will soon come after,
It’s the only way it can be.
So I stand in the sun,
And I breathe with my lungs,
Trying to spare me the weight of the truth,
Seeing everything you've ever seen was just a mirror,
Spend your whole life sweating in an endless fever,
Laying in a bathtub full of freezing water,
Wishing you were a ghost
But once you knew a girl and you named her Lover,
And danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summers
But autumn came,
She disappeared,
You can't remember
Where she said she was going to
But you know that she's gone,
Because she left you a song,
That you don't wanna sing
Singing: I believe that lovers should be chained together,
Thrown into a fire with their songs and letters,
And left there to burn,
Left there to burn in their arrogance
But as for me I'm coming to my final failure,
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better,
But still ended up becoming something other,
Than what I had planned to be
All right!
Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers,
And laid entwined together on a bed of clovers,
And left there to sleep,
Left there to dream of their happiness.
Ahh living. Imagine life without it. (Ahaha I make myself laugh...... Sad really, lol).
Im pretty open minded, I have beliefs and disbeliefs as any other person, but am subject to change them with evidence and insight. Always love to hear other peoples views on situations and beliefs. Religion has to be one of the most interesting topics to pick at in someones head. Not that I have beliefs in religion... but there are so many different possibilities. That and the facts of life. Why are we here, how are we here (Religion), how living actually works, what comes after death, how hard it is to just think of an "in-existence". Crazy stuff to be honest. Questions and statements that seem impossible to give logical answers or rebuttal to interest me and I love talking to people about them.
But yeah.
Besides that, friends and family are what wake me up every morning, not knowing that the day is ahead of me, not knowing that I may make a profit that day, not even thinking that I may learn something new that will help me later in life or that I may meet somebody new in my life. It's plain and simple, everything in the world that matters to anybody, comes down to friends, family and anything that you truly care about.
Music inspires me. It fills me with many emotions. Even though I (In general) know that the song was not written for me, it just seems like certain songs understand me, and if they don't, I understand them and they shape me as a human being.
Apart from the obvious influential people in my life (Friends, parents, siblings, etc), some of the all time people I look up to that I do not know personally would have to be Maynard James Keenan (Lead singer of Tool, APC and Puscifer). Maynard writes some of the most insightful lyrics I have ever heard, they are actually part of the reason I ask the questions I do.
Trent Reznor (Front man of Nine Inch Nails). He is a person who you can tell has actually been through so much shit throughout his life, things a lot of people go through at one point or another in their life, but he lifts himself up eventually and keeps moving forward. Yes a lot of people are just like this, but I'm not completely sure what makes him seem so inspiring to me, but I just look up to the man with the utmost respect.
Brian Molko (Lead singer of Placebo). Brian use to dress like a woman, act womanly and nobody could ever stop him. I read a quote of his somewhere where he had said "It's not actually a case of saying that you're trying to look like a woman. It's more that you are what you are, that you're choosing to dress the way you please, and it's kind of self-confidence that allows you to pull that off". This man, believing in himself and not letting what others think of him pull his spirits down, makes me inspired to feel the same, not dressing up but more, "Do what you please, don't let what others think of you bring you down", because even though I tell people what I think looks good/sounds good/is right or wrong or whatever, I respect them just as much to tell me that they don't care what I think, or in fact, that they do care what I think, but they still choose to act or dress their own way because it makes them happy.
Also along the lines of my previous statement, this may sound like I'm contradicting myself, but everybody knows that this kind of behavior is completely idiotic. But if you are the kind of person that harasses others or "pays them out" by finding others faults and exploiting it just to make you feel good about yourself or make you think your friends will think they will classify you "cool". I actually to an extent feel sorry (Aside from utter hatred) for you. "are you cool if u pay ppl out??. i dont see how u are. i find it sad that you cant look in a mirror and point out everything wrong about you" - Bree. I got my inspiration for the adjacent paragraph from this quote.
I will leave with yet another quote from "another dead hero". I stumbled across this quote because of Tool's love for Bill Hicks and use of his voice in their songs, also from the propaganda used in the most recent Nine Inch Nails album.
RIP Bill Hicks. "Think For Yourself. Question Authority."
