About Me
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Myspace GraphicsYou wanna know about me? Let me tell you about me, I am an unbelievable BORING person, who raises my children, and stays mostly to myself (due the the number of "frien-emies" I have aquired over the years, yet I still manage to stay in the spotlight! For some very odd, and creepy reason, there are people who think that my life is their business, and they go to great lengths to TRY and find out what I am up too! This is flatering, don't get me wrong, but it also a HUGE pain in the ass! All I want to do is live my life, my way, on my terms and be left the hell alone - but what I get - instead - is a constant nagging, bitching, blogging, status updating, cult like following! People who harrass my family, and the few friends I have left, who talk shit about my kids, and continue to make up stories and reasons as to why they THINK I am nothing but white trash - although, apparently, I am a very important part of their lives, and they still miss me! Sweet, I know, but really, I'd rather just pretend they don't exist!The real me is a down to Earth, lover, fighter, momma, friend, who likes to drink coffee on the porch in the mornings, and beer in the evenings! I like to sit home with ALL my kids and cuddle up with a great movie, or put on my heels and dance the night away on Bourbon Street - as long as I am with people I love, and trust, and RESPECT, it's all good - all the time. I dance around the house all day while I clean, or don't because sometimes, I just don't - I like to drive around with no where to go whith my windows down, my radio up and me and my kids car dancing! I take random road trips at insane times for no reason other than I wanted to see a new face, or new place. I have no ambitions, and no want to save the world or climb any ladders, all I have ever wanted to be is a wife and a mom - and spend my life with the one person on this planet who would just GET me, no questions, no rules, no doubts, just come home and love me no matter what my crazy brings!My kids are my life, but I don't believe I have to give up my happiness to be a great mom. I know I can have the best of both worlds, the times where I do it all, PTA, cleaning, cooking, homework, hugs, loves, kisses and cuddles - and times where I get to let my hair down, be a dancer, a lover a fighter - because underneath my MOMMY clothes, and my messy house and hair, there is a WOMAN who NEEDS to feel free, and beautiful, and loved - trusted, respected, wanted.Right now I am "SINGLE" - and not really looking! I have to focus on life on my own, with my kids, and I have to do it with nothing. I am not affraid of being alone, I am not affraid to try new paths and fail. I am affraid that I've lost my chance at the love I always dreamt of, because of ignorance and jealousy, and the hands (and mouths) of others - but my true love will come along, be it the one I want, or someone new, and I will fall again, hard again, and probably even hurt again - but I know it is worth it! What I will never do again, is hold someone else's secrets, be someone else's bail out person, or be used as an alibi. I will never again feel like the victim, or the pathetic, sad and broken one, left behind - from now on when someone CHOOSES to leave me behind, I will know it is their loss, and my gain, because even if I have to start my life over again, 1,000 times, I will always come out on top - it really isn't what is on the other side of the struggle, it is the struggle that is important.I don't want some cop- out, Romeo and Julliette romance story. I want to be the friggin' GLADIATOR!! KICK me, HURT me, BEAT me, CALL me names, and LOCK me away - but know that in the end, I will come back, stronger than ever, and I will take down all the kings' horses, all the kings' men, and even the king, and I will walk away with the bitch I wanted all along. That is true ROMANCE - fighting for what you love, and who you love, and what you truly believe in, no matter the pain, and cost along the way - I will fight like that for my kids, my family, my few true friends, and one day for the ONE person who is willing to fight for me the exact same way, and I will NOT settle for less than EVERYTHING I want, deserve, and love.This is me, and if you can't handle it - walk on!
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