..!..Teisha ..!..

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Let's see...Where do I begin? For starters, I do not enjoy my life. I've spent the last couple of years taking care of my cousins and not being paid enough to deal with their shit . I've come to see that family will stab you in the back just as quickly as a so called friend. What else? My dad retired from the Air Force a few years ago after serving over 20 years which makes me an Air Force brat. I am proud of it to, although you won't find my ass in the Military any time soon. I've lived in 6 different states and about 7 or 8 different cities/towns. Since I lived there for 13 years or so, I consider my hometown to be Indianapolis. When I was there I wanted to leave, but now that I've seen a few other places out there I wouldn't mind going back. Who knows if that'll ever happen. I seem to be a Gypsy these days. I move wherever I am need or wherever I can find a home. After heavy consideration, I am calling myself agnostic. Here's a definition: Noun: 1. a)One who believes that it is impossible to know whether there is a God. b)One who is skeptical about the existence of God but does not profess true atheism. 2.One who is doubtful or noncommittal about something. I get a lot of shit from my family for feeling this way, but I really don't care. I'll only criticize you for being whatever religion you choose to be if you are the type that doesn't practice what they preach. If you're going to believe strongly in something, then stick with it. As much as I hate myself for it, I will put my family before myself. Some may say that that is a good thing. I am more than willing to do it, but at the same time I need to put myself first more often. It's who I am though, and I've never been able to help that. I will give my last few dollars if one of them needs it, because I know they need it more; I will sacrifice my sanity, at least until I break down, to take the pressure off them; and I will fight for them to the death if I have to. I am very opinionated, and I will tell you exactly what is on my mind if you ask or if you piss me off. I will try not to offend, but sometimes that is unavoidable. I will never be a super model, not that I want to be one, and I will never starve myself to be something or someone I am not. Yes, I do want to get in better shape, but I'm not going to do it for anyone but me. Perhaps I need to lay of the giant ass coffees, but it's just so damn hard when there are 5 coffee stands on every block. There are times when I cuss like a sailor. Those times have increased in the past 7 months. I'm pretty good at controlling myself, but it can be so fucking hard at times. Like when there's so much damn shit going on that you want to rip your fucking hair out by the roots ;D This is who I am. Take it or leave. If you leave it, see if I give a fuck.