Never Underestimate Me. .
Remember.. I am April May Ive learned to live with courage and speed. And no one seems to be able to keep up.
Anyone looking for happiness and doesn’t achieve it when they have an opportunity, is an idiot, and I’m sure they have an excuse. But no matter whom you think you are, or what you know. You'll never know the true story anytime soon. My mind knows what’s best, but I feel like I’m never satisfied. I’m looking for that ride of a lifetime. I want that exhilaration of having the lose of control. I want that adrenaline I cant seem to find anymore. I want the pain Id rather feel. The distortion that drives the rest of my sanity out of me. I miss my pulse. I know what my expectations are, but I never reach that far. I know what my capabilities are, and I never maximize on them. I’m constantly looking, most likely for something that cannot be found. I need the nasty dirty grudge. I need the world to move faster, and time to stop. I haven’t broken a finger nail in weeks, and that’s driving me crazy. .
Along with being able to wake up every day just to fall asleep again. Things are going to change. I have demons ill continue to run from. And I know the only way ill get over them to stop time, people get hurt when I stop running, so ill keep my pace and eventually they'll catch up, and the inevitable will catch up. I want the security, but I want the rush. Unless I have the band(S), I don’t want the responsibility. Knowing that I wake up with you should be enough. Because usually I would be gone by morning. I’m not ashamed of what I’ve done.
I know who I am, I know what I want, and I know what I do and don’t have to deal with to get it. WHO ARE YOU TO JUDGE ME? Keep in mind you don’t know as much as you think you do.
I’m proud of who I am. And I’m not afraid of what you or anyone else has to say. NO matter what I say, you cannot touch me. I make an effort to be as intense as I can be. You cannot chose that you love, and you can’t chose to be curious.
I’m infamous for my curiosity. All I know, Is that I need my pulse back. And I want to sweat till the point that I can’t stand because I’m so dehydrated. I love to write (Www.iloveguns2.blogdrive.com)
Please, Do not waste my time.
brainstorm.
I never want to meet another man that "loves me" again.