Kristal

Sometimes when I'm alone, I get this overwhelming feeling, something that I can not control. Its an intense heat that builds up from the core of me, that I wish I could suppress but its seeps out each and every pore of my being. Stronger than my desires, its a NEED for my happiness, a NEED for my sane-ness all the while emotionally, physically and mentally...mentally... emotionally...physically...disconnecting me from what I know, a NEED that is greater than me, a NEED, a YEARNING that weakens me...my body is so tired...My heart is so heavy, it deepens my breath, it screams for the makings of me beyond this earthly body. My eyes weld up with tears because I don't know what it is, but its powerful, controlling all my emotions, I can't identify it but I can feel it weighing me down while lifting me to the heavens...my words disgrace this sensation...its a calling...a CALLING...to NOT be some body but TO BE SOMEBODY...this is me...