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> ********** Yes What about me...who am I ??? im the sickest gal youlle ever meet..I can cook and crochet...top that one ladies...lol.... I can paint a pretty picture for you ...and not even on a canvas...ha ha feeling groooooooovy :)) I am a great person..an outgoing positive person..Im a fighter..Right now Im thankful for everything I have...especially my life..God How I love life..dont you??? .................Hi my name is Tommi and Im the mother of a beautiful 7 year old boy..I am about to go on a journey I never in my life expected to journey ...the journey of breast cancer...I might not be on as much in the next few weeks as I will soon be going in for some pretty major surgery..a mastectomy..basically removal of my right breast..as I sit here thinking that in just a few weeks I will never be the same again...that is ok ..that is what reconstructive surgery is all about..of course none of this can take place till Im well and rid of this nasty little bugger..for those of you who are close to me I thank you and love you for all your support..I can say one thing ..Im a damn fighter...let the games begin....my surgery is December 21st 2007 at 730 am wish me luck ********** I have been fighting this for 9 months now and it is 8.26.08 the video below is my journey ***** I love my kid!!!everyday is a new day and a joy to watch...he is my everything

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OK SO IM IN THE BEGINNING STAGES OF BEING A SURVIVOR BUT IM ALLREADY POSITIVE THAT I AM...IM SITTING HERE LOOKING AT THE TUBES COMING FROM MY CHEST AND IT ALL SEEMS SO SURREAL..IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING TO ME??? YES!! AND IT MUST BE FOR A REASON...I MUST HAVE A BIGGER PURPOSE IN LIFE...I AM EXCITED TO FIND OUT WHAT IT IS...BUT FOR NOW UNTIL THE REALIZATION HITS THANK YOU GOD FOR GETTING ME THROUGH THIS FIRST BATTLE...MOST LIKELY ILL START A LOW DOSE OF CHEMO AFTER THE NEW YEAR...NO PROBLEM..MR CANCER IM SURE YOUR GONE..WELL JUST MAKE DAMN SURE YOU DONT COME A VISITING AGAIN...AFTER ALL IM BIGGER THAN YOU...LOL....These shoes that have been put upon my feet to walk this road are ugly but when I reach my destination there is a brand new pair of shoes waiting for me.******** today is October 3 2009 and im now in the process of breast reconstruction. And i thought this journey was easy!! LOL i have had an expander put in my back and stretched to a double d to make the breast tissue for the skin graft to my front. The Surgery took place 15 days ago and so far so good. I now hve an expander in my chest and the process will be slow. The doctors say that since my small bits of left over skin has radiation damage that we will go super slow on the expansion.below i a video I made prior to my surgery and now the boob on my back is on my front..even my cute little mole...this is the strangest ride I have ever bee on and its going on two years!december 21 2009 will be two years and I sit and cry and the changes in my life, not because im sad , and not because I wonder why me? I sit and cry because I am overjoyed that with the aggressive cancer I have been diagnosed with I am killing it!! I told the littel bugger when he arrived that I was going to fight him and I have so far been successful. allthough you cant really claim survivor for 5 years of being clean of it, im sure that I am...God has watched over me and given me the strength to battle this. My friends have been such an inspiration. some wonder how I keep the positive attitude, and i can say that its documenting the story that has kept me strong...once I started sharing my experiences, how could I stop there? So I want to thank everyone personally for all the prayers, I want to thank Hay Sue Floyd my old boss for taking me to the 2 healing churches that plaid a factr in this bugger not going int my lymph system, after all the cancer was present for 1 year and it didnt spread out of the breast. the expander in my chest is like having a car grill under my skin. It is painful and it hurts when i sneeze or cough, but this too shall pass. I have seen feear in my friends and i have inspired others to keep up on there physicals and check there health. I look back and remembeer the man who left me once they cut off my breast and realize the shallowness in the world. Even though we were not exclusive, he showed me the meaning of a real man..A real man accepts you for who you are and loves you in sickness and in health. I will not mention his name because some things are better left private, but you know who you are...you are the man that told me I was still sexy even with one breast..you are the man that brings tears to my eyes because I know you have your own fight going on with this humbling disease. you are the man that held me and made me feel like a woman of desire even though I was mamed. I love you...I will always love you. I cry to think that maybe god will take you from me when you have meant so much to me since 2005.. life is a learning experience and oh how I have learned..patience, humility and what it is like to be missing a limb. even though it wasnt a limb I was missing, I still got the strange looks and felt the pain of those in society that are defected. I learned the insecurities of others. And conquered my own. My dream and prayer now is that my little boy will be ok and secure in his life after watching alll of this at such an early age..he was such an inspiration to me. He kept mee busy and kept my mind off of alot of this with my drive to make his life a success...I love you Christian!! You have changed my life in a million ways. Being a single mom isnt an easy job..but i must say being a parent is the best job in the world!! *************Tommi 09 ****** this is the love of my life ..my little boy..he gives me the drive it takes everyday to fight this fight ok so im sitting here mad that i cant do sit ups....shit shit shit....damn stitches...shit...so hey heres a bad ass pic my past exboyfriend whos been looking for me for 14 years bought me.....hmmmmmmmmmm love it im calling it riding the cancer wave.."CHEMOSURFER"...that Im sure is not the name but its the name im giving it SCORPIO - The Intense One (Oct 23 - Nov 21) Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long Relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional. *************

My Blog

reconstruction update..

well hello there my myspace peeps and those wating to hear my progress during this reconstruction process.as you all know my doctor died who started the reconstruction, and you all know that i have be...
Posted by on Sun, 23 May 2010 09:49:00 GMT

2010

meowww...purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrps, still no doctor...what the hell? i left a great message with a supervisor today:) I only wish I could have been there to see her face while listening, ....
Posted by on Mon, 05 Apr 2010 22:25:00 GMT

still incomplete

holding on the phonefor another hour or sobut this is the road travelled beforewhat was to takea year and ahalffor me to get back to life,was all just lies from the HMOI still sit here with the tissue...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Mar 2010 08:50:00 GMT

To Doctor Bogossian....RIP

  As I sit here pondering the way our paths crossed twice,As I sit here and think of how you..were guiding me though this difficult time.I look to the stars and ask why?why must I now make my own deci...
Posted by on Thu, 21 Jan 2010 09:42:00 GMT

Cancer Update Happy New year! 2010

Hello everyone.Im sorry I havent been on myspace in a long time and posted anything..and i miss it.Ive been on facebook and you just cant really express yourself...Happy New year to everyone, and so f...
Posted by on Sat, 02 Jan 2010 21:41:00 GMT

oweee ouch ouch

I am not on any pain medication..thank you very much! ouchowee ouch ouch..it really does hurtim sitting here typing wordswearing just a  skirtthe stretching of my skin  it is very tightits driving me ...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Nov 2009 21:24:00 GMT

my Hospital Stay....nightmare on elm street

just  a recap for those of you who dont know what happened to me in the hospital..well i had this nagging feeling inside that something wasnt going to be right..i saw myself after surgery but couldnt ...
Posted by on Wed, 30 Sep 2009 07:19:00 GMT

my Cancer Journey...revisited

ive been up since 4 am with this hot sweaty corsett that they are making me wear till the tubes come out of my back.I sit here and look through my pictures and the tears just stream down my face to se...
Posted by on Sat, 26 Sep 2009 06:03:00 GMT

a letter I recieved from a lovely girl at the "relay for life"

Dear Tomasine Traeumer,             I had an amazing time with you, Christian, and Eden at the Relay! Although we only really had one day to get to know each other, I had a great time talking to you a...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Jun 2009 21:19:00 GMT

a chase gone bad

below are some pics of a chase gone bad..these photos were sent directly to my sister from the source...wow look how high the cliff was..and the mountain lion still has a clump of hair in his mouth...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Jun 2009 07:52:00 GMT