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my friends- have made me who I am today. For better or for worse. They taught me things that no one would understand. Whether they made me feel horrible or the happiest I've ever been. It built me, to be a better, stronger person. I feel bad for putting them through what I did, about death. I realized it was stupid as hell and selfish beyond reason. They mean a lot to me, I bet they hardly know. I try to be there for them whenever they need me. Sometimes I don't think they appreciate me as much as they could. But it's alright. Maybe I never expected that they would. I don't think anyone could teach me more then this little group of people. About life, maybe love, but mostly life. Somewhere between the fights, the depression, the parties, the deaths, and the changes, I found myself. Maybe it wasn't a good self, but at least I found who I am. Some people wonder through life never really knowing themselves, and never really having anyone. But I have them, and you know who you are. The biggest part of my life. My true family. Yeah like every other "group" we have drama beyond belief. But some how it always works out. And things could never be better. In all my life from the year this little organization started about four years ago until I die, I will remember all the moments we had together, how we all grew up together, and how we learned from each others mistakes. A few people separated from it along the way but so many more were gained. We are the perfect dysfunctional family. And now because of them, I am happy to be alive. I love you
-------alexa
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