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martha

to be or not to be a girl ... that is no question

About Me


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Hello You all! So here's something about me. I'm 23 but living my second teenage. I should be mature 'cos soon I'm graduating, but nooo, I feel my teenagegirlself woke up and taking "the wheel". I love to full around, do spent my time on talking, shoping, having fun 24/7.NOW: I'm transgendered or transsexual (whatever). So: I was born a BOY. I started to feel that something is not OK when I was 5 or 6 but waited till 10 for the courage to dress like a girl. It took some time to understood the inside of me. Unfortunatelly I have a very strict and narrowmindet familly, catholic and so I didn't told them about me. I couldn't count on them to help me transiton. And so I waited so I'm 23 with no hormones or SRS, out to only few friends. Yeah. Looks like a mess, but I'm working on it to change. Weekdays I do study and make music. Like shoping, going out, dancing(very much), good music, drama and films, music concerts and cultural events, photography, talking and chating.Now in the middle of confusions to go out as much as possible and look convincing.BOYS and MEN , DON'T ask me for friendship, 'cos I'm lesbian. Girls RULE!Would like to meet openminded people, genetic girls and authentic t-girls around the world, friends, talkative people ;)

My Interests

music, music, music ... bass and electric guitar, violin, piano, arts, dark fashion, design, singing and dancing

I'd like to meet:

openminded people, genetic girls and authentic t-girls around the world, friends, talkative people ;)

Music:

Archive, Depeche Mode, Kroke Klezmer music, Marilyn Manson, Oceansize, Placebo, Porcupine Tree, Riverside, Tool
Your Taste in Music:
80's Alternative: High Influence
90's Alternative: High Influence
90's Pop: Medium Influence
Adult Alternative: Medium Influence
Classic Rock: Medium Influence How's Your Taste in Music?

Movies:

" American History X ", "Crash", "The summer of love", "25'th hour", "Closer", "Goldfish memory", "Match point", "City of Angels", ohhh ... much more

Television:

Grey's Anatomy ... Yeah !!!

Books:

"White Oleander", books from Paolo Coehlo and Steven King

Heroes:

Brian Molko, Dave Gahan and Martin L. Gore, Nigel Kennedy, great artists, that payed with most of their lives for what they achived, some of my friends ...

My Blog

WOW !!! I'm OUT !!! Unexpected

Just a fresh note to tell you how a mixed up day can turn into the one day that you always wanted to happen - the Coming Out. To tell the truth I must admit, that I was preparing myself to this step f...
Posted by martha on Tue, 25 Mar 2008 05:27:00 PST

a year turnover

Yeah... It's almost a year since I've written something here. It has been a really freaky year. I met a girl that tried to be the whole world to me, I crushed on my past and came to moment when all, t...
Posted by martha on Sat, 01 Mar 2008 12:54:00 PST

Confusions

I don't know what is happening to me. My head is a complet mess. Everything is confusing. I'm starting to hate myself, my body, my d..k. I fell awful with myself. I have nightmares, I can't sleep, my ...
Posted by martha on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 05:10:00 PST

the scientist

You Are An INTJThe ScientistYou have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems.Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized.You tend to be a bit skeptic...
Posted by martha on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 07:53:00 PST

too picky ...

..> You Date Like a Woman According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.A mental and emotional connection always ...
Posted by martha on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 06:56:00 PST

Finally !

Finally, after such a long autumn came winter. Yesterday, when I woke up, I saw something, that I've missed since a loooong time. SNOW !!! wow. You know, I love snow. I love when it snow, it brings me...
Posted by martha on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:47:00 PST

New Band

Hi All! It's long since I quited my band.Transitioning and all that comes togethet made me stop playing.I regarded it really, but I couldn't focus on anything, I became nervous and 'cos I like to thin...
Posted by martha on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 02:59:00 PST

Quizes everywhere. sometimes even funny

..http://quizfarm.com/images/1114323893girl2">> You scored as Goth. Goth 88% Slut 88% Popular Bitch 56% Hippy 44% Nerdy Girl 25% Athletic Tomboy 25% ...
Posted by martha on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 10:32:00 PST

Party

Last weekend was thrilling. I went out to a new music / cultural club downtown and fortunatelly/unfortunatelly I've knocked against 4 girls from my university. Ohhh my... I had some dou...
Posted by martha on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 12:21:00 PST

Quiz

You Are 80% Girly You're girly, a little boyish, and probably a whole lot indie.You have your own unique style, and it pretty much defies gender lines. How Girly Are You?...
Posted by martha on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 11:18:00 PST