Cyndeelouwho1972

I grew up in East Brunswick, NJ. I never assigned myself to any "group" of people but somehow got labled in the "Ginker" genre.LOL After graduation I moved to Creamridge NJ and went to Brookdale for a short while. Life was a bit rough and I had to grow up quick. I lived with a loser who basically mind gamed me into questioning everything I thought I knew. That didn't last too long because I had to find my BITCH side and ended the relationship, but not before having my first child, Tyler who is now a teenager. I married my hubby in 94 and we had three more kids, Caylie, Cody and Trevor. Do you see the T & C pattern with the names? lol Married life is hard, Parenting is harder, but it is the most heart wrenching and rewarding experience a person can have. Making kids is easy, raising them up right is the hard part. Luckily I have a great support system and when I don't think I am doing the right thing, I consult my sisters, mom, in-laws, friends and they will give me advise or just listen and laugh at me sometimes but all in all they are all a big part of the "family" process. My only regret is that my grandparents are no longer here. I get a little lost without my Nanie and Pop. They definately told me like it was and would knock me down a few pegs when I needed it. LOL I realized I forgot to mention my other two,,,trust me they aren't forgotten!!!! Michael and Cassie came to live with me when they were teens. Michael has been in my life since the age of 8 but only came to live with us fulltime @ 17 and Cassie came to live with us at 15. They are now both grown and out on their own and I miss them very much! It was difficult having six kids in the house, but even though there were alot of trials and tribulations with these two, they will always have a special place in my heart. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of them. Cass & Mike-I may not have been your MOM, but I love u like a real Mom should!!! Unconditionally. You both taught me alot more than I taught u. If I did teach you anything I hope it is,,,,,DON'T REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKES!LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES AND YOU WON'T EVER REPEAT THEM!!! I wish I had all the answeres and could have given you both back a better childhood,,,,,but only time and effort can heal those wounds. Please always remember your Aunt Cindy and no matter how hard I am on all you kids,,,,know it is out of wanting the best for u guys(& Munchkin). I want you all to have more in life than me because thats what all "Moms" should wish for their kids!