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I am _ _ _ _ _ _ , aka " M ." As a quintessential Pisces, I am sometimes detestably idealistic (although attempts to stifle such thoughts/hopes with cynicism have been largely successful in the past), sensitive, and prone to dabbling in extremes of selfishness and selflessness. Often I am off woolgathering, getting more satisfaction out of what my mind can devise than out of the world in which I physically exist.
My social ineptitude has hindered me for as long as I can recall. I have always been ever the introvert, preferring to keep to myself over interacting with anyone. More often than not, staying inside to read an interesting book is more appealing than venturing out. As a result of this habit, most of my daily endeavors are online, book, or video game-oriented. (It has been jocosely suggested that I should reside in a loft apartment with no less than 30 felines for the rest of my lifespan...)
There are times in which I can come off as incredibly sarcastic, but most of what seems like bitterness is only an expression of facetious dribble. What I say - in most cases - should be taken with only a grain of salt; taking me too seriously would be a grave mistake.
A great deal of my time is spent on the site GaiaOnline.com. Since I am a hopeless nerd, it's become an addiction to be reckoned with; prying me away for even a short while is a monumental task that requires skillful inveigling. If you also possess an account, you might have more luck contacting me there. Myspace has become somewhat of a secondary site, and I don't check it as often as I once did. [ Gaia SN: Ephemeral-Existence]

My Interests

Habitually Enjoyed Activities/Things

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-the consumption of coffee in excess
-books and the act of reading
-writing
-anime/manga/yaoi
-photo manipulation and web design
-horribly jejune reality television
-MMORPG games
-roleplay/cosplay

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My Blog

So Glad You Could Make It, Sanity.

For three nights, I have not had to wake him. My fear, which was at times insurmountable and drove me to panic, seems to have been quelled into a state of semi-passivity. I worry that repetitively lea...
Posted by M on Wed, 04 Jun 2008 08:36:00 PST

a minor milestone in life achieved a little late.

. . . but better late than never. on the morning of Thursday, April 3rd, i went down to the DMV to take the test to receive my permit. Of course, without much surprise, i passed. However, weather cir...
Posted by M on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 05:35:00 PST

i could not muster pity...

i could not muster pity for you, for there is none to be had. your life may be piteous, but you, i dare say, are far from so. do not ever question me - i know that my affection for you does not come ...
Posted by M on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 06:17:00 PST

the winter will be mine once more.

impervious to the howling, wind-driven wintereach year is but one more opportunity to embrace what enlivens me;in absence of this frigid climatemy lungs are raked with fire, and the sweltering, persis...
Posted by M on Wed, 12 Mar 2008 03:21:00 PST

could such an illusion be, to my surprise, advantageous reality?

i can only hope for favorable results in this current endeavor, though even to keep hope is mildly dangerous . . . with feelings on the line, there's no better time than the present,for catfight...
Posted by M on Sat, 08 Mar 2008 01:07:00 PST

An Untitled Expression Of Momentary Angst.

Inexplicably, within this wire cage of protection, my heart will not sing like the harmonious canary; in silence it sulks, desiring neither validation nor appreciation.   Wounded more than once, ...
Posted by M on Thu, 06 Mar 2008 12:34:00 PST

life is not a sitcom. . .

. . . meaning that it is now time for another painfully boring, superficial blog about "how M's life is goin as of late". upon Feb 25, i received my last english essay grade -- full marks, which was f...
Posted by M on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 05:29:00 PST

Though It Matters To No One Other Than Myself

Gradually, over the last month, I have regained my ability to speak without constant stuttering. My mind--which previously ran too quickly to keep up with--has quieted down considerably. Now, without ...
Posted by M on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 06:54:00 PST

borealis eyes

the anomaly of your structure:irises aglow with winter.it is that which pierces me--your borealis gaze,a modicum of contradictory warmth.though audacious languageoften falls short of as...
Posted by M on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 04:44:00 PST

Ambivalent (The Tired People Pleaser)

While it would surely be a fallacious statement if I were to say that I might be considerably more content without you in my life, I cannot help but hesitate. I am happy now. I no longer feel that con...
Posted by M on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 05:00:00 PST