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Hello my space friend your probably wonder wow what a change Jacelyn did!!! Well let me tell you what made me change my whole life style. On June 4th 2007 my father was lying in the Hospital bed. He had all types of machine on him including a life support machine that kept him going ..ing him breath, because of a stroke he received. While I was with him in the room. I felt he wanted to go. I knew it was time for him to go, but I was being selfish and I was trying everything to keep him alive. Mean while he was suffering, so I told myself okay I got the picture. His waiting for his love one to come and say there last good bye so he could depart and go to heaven. So the following day we were all there. My Mother, my sister and her husband. I went to the room and I stood there admiring this man because as a Pastor that he was he was a strong man that never looked back. He maintain his faith in God. I started crying wishing my dad could talk to me. I wish I could hear his voice again telling me don't worry everything is going to be okay. I stood next to him I grab his hand as I spoke I told him Daddy I love you sooooooooo much. You know I am still your little girl. Daddy I'm sorry for all the pain and suffering I put you through. As I spoke to my dad I was still wishing that God do a miracle on him. I wasn't ready to let him go he meant so much to me. I wonder what if I could take his places and I suffer his pain. But God knows what his doing. Because I decided while I was standing there holding his hands. I need to change. I have to get my act together and get back into church. I have to follow the word of God he taught me every since I was a baby. I started to talk and I told him. Papi don't worry about Mom she's going to be find, Papi don't worry about Oby I will not stop visiting him and I will make sure his monthly money is in his books, Papi don't worry about Eggie and Melissa. I will try my best to help them out with whatever they need. I told him Papi I'm going to change. I'm going to be a member in your church. I'm going to make sure nothing change and the word of God get preached the way you preach it. I told him Papi I'm going to repent from my sins as I said this My Father open his eyes that inspire me the most. I saw tear drops coming from my dad eyes. He was actually listening to me. He squeeze my hand and felt proud. I told him I'm going to do what every it takes to meet you again. I knew as many times my father kneel down to God presents and cry for me to come back finally one of his prayers was answer. I laid next to my dad holding him I starting singing his favorite songs and I was telling him how much I loved him and that it was okay for him to go, visiting hours was over I went home suffering because I knew God was going to send his angel to get his soul, not even half an hour past and one of my Dad wishes came truth. To go to heaven and let him rest in peace. For you that is reading this let me tell you being a servant of God it's hard, but God give us the strength to continue on. I'm going to be honest w/ you when I went to my dad church after he departed from us. The co pastor at the time ask me do you want to repent from your sin, and of course I was fighting w/ myself because I was not ready to get back into church. I was not ready to leave everything I was doing. The world attracted me so much that I couldn't repent from my sin and be a servant of God I wasn't ready. But then I heard a voice that said what happen to that promise. Let me tell you at that moment I did not think it twice. I said yes, I want to give my life again to Jesus. I was in church and I kneel down to God and told him help me change. Help me leave everything you don't like show me how to dress. Help me fall in love with you and give me the strength to continue to live for you. The Devil will try to put all types of battle in front of you. He will try to use your kids, spouse whom ever is close to you, your financial all types of things he could think of to make you leave your Lord. The one who died in the cross for you and me. If you left your God his waiting knocking in your heart waiting there he wants to tell you I love you. But I tell you don't give up ask God to help you fight your battle. I said fight not to take them away. Because I tell you that’s how you will grow in your spiritual life. Believe me there's many times I want to give up but I want to see my Dad again. If you want to received God don't think about it please email me so I could pray for you.. God Bless you!!