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In the bright morning my courage falls weak no excuse for my actions, no where to run consequence comes like raining fire, burning every part of me... showing no mercy the day that i thought would never come, has arrived here i lay, a victim of my own decisions i've exchanged the wisdom of God for selfish pride...thus my down fall my appreciation is laced within apologies, for not becoming Your plan grace is where i lay my head for this is where the angels sit... and she spreads her silver wings to offer shade for my pale skin from the blinding sun of consequence consequence...no where to run, but to Your arms in all my shame...reconciled as i weather the storm, i fall to the ground i look to the sky, then His hand reaches for me....alas a new day my appreciation is laced within apologies i'll never understand this grace bestowed upon me... alas a new day..I'd like to smell the fear shivering on your lips and I'd like to taste the sweet revenge of cutting out your tongue, because your words sound better red spilled upon my floor knowing I won't have to live with you anymore... and I would've rather never known that your blood inhabited my veins because with each nights turn I think about ending it all in account of you, because of you, god, I hate you, only because of you... time was on your side to find a solution to your problem of finding rid of me... nine months had past and so long your chance... remember those unloved days and fear filled nights, they're now your burden, along with myself looking to spill the blood that binds... I don't want to love; I don't want to love you... I don't want to love you anymore... did you ever think that your own creation would come back to kill you? or were you expecting love from me even though I grew so far from you? it's inevitable with a father like you... you never felt pain like I felt pain... it hurts with your blood in my veins..