The last mosquito that bit me had to check into the Betty Ford clinic. I appear composed, so I am I suppose. I stare into space like a dead china doll. I smoke and I drink and as bad as I am, I'm proud of the fact that I'm worse than I seem. What can I do but wallow in you unintentionally? I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause dreams last for so long... I feel it falling apart too. Like I'd been wasted all day long. Yesterday feels like a life ago. Life is a b movie it's stupid and it's strange; a directionless story and the dialouge is lame. But in the he said, she said - sometimes there's some poetry, if you turn your back long enough and let it happen naturally. This is fact not fiction. and when I see you I really see you upside down but my brain knows better, it picks you up and turns you around. I've been let down, but I'm still coming round. Beggers and choosers don't get to live in paradise.While a million thoughts go racin' through my mind, I find I haven't said a word. When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend. I've got a flask inside my pocket, we can share it on the train.
And if you promise to stay conscious I will try and do the same. Do nothing today. Give yourself a break. Let your imagination run away. If I told you a secret, you won't tell a soul. Will you hold it and keep it alive? Cause I'm shaking like a dog shittin' razorblades red eyes on orange horizons. I just found me a bottle of blues, some strange comfort for a soul to soothe. Ain't it hard, ain't it hard ... to want somebody who doesn't want you. In the back of your car I feel like I have traveled no where ... what will bring me home? What will make me stay? I don't know. There's a war inside of me. How do you know when to let go, where does the good go? So drive yourself insane tonight. It's not that far away and I just filled up your tank earlier today. Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better than slowly growing old together? Lately I've been wishing I had one desire, something that would make me never want another, something that would make it so that nothing matters all would be clear then. But I guess i'll have to settle for a few brief moments and watch it all dissolve into a single second.. Holding hands with an impotent dream. I just found me a bottle of blues, some strange comfort for a soul to soothe. Ain't it hard, ain't it hard? To want somebody who doesn't want you. You're the only one who really knew me at all. I see them come. I see them go. All things pass into the night. You told me I'd seen it al before, I've seen my hopes and dreams lying on the ground. Well I talk to much to myself, and I can't stand this place. I'm so tired of my mood. And sleep comes, with a knife, fork and a spoon. I have never been insulted in all my life. I got my feet on the ground and I don't got to sleep to dream. Don't make it a big deal, don't be so sensitive. You got your head in the clouds and you're not at all what you seem. I wonder when I wonder home, will I be fit to drink alone?
