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Crash-Course in Self Destruction

About Me

FIRST OF ALL: the faith you found, I have never felt. ME: My name is Jon Ratcliffe. I am 21 and I live in Seabrook. I write and read a lot. Girls rock my world. I am a senior in college studying accounting. I have 6 certificates in production, engineering and record producing that I received from Bristol Studios in Boston as well as an Associates Degree in Business Administration I received in a so so college. My Aim SN is anonymous233019. I don't listen to rap- just rock. After I get my Bachelors degree in Accounting, I am going to immediately continue my education and pursue a MBA (Masters in Business Administration) at a college in a Hong Kong. In fact, I am moving to Hong Kong in Novemeber of 2009. I am currently studying French, for I may move to Paris after Hong Kong. I am currently working on a novel- "Anhedonia". I love to read. I make music as a hobby and produce local rappers such as MadMat (Matt Way) and Illuzion (Chris Bashaw).MY IDOL: Sebastian Valmont (Ryan Phillippe's character in Cruel Intentions) That fictional character is the man! (prior to falling for Annette Hargrove-Reese Witherspoon's character- look where that got him, where trusting a girl got him- fucking DEAD... THE PERFECT GIRL: a girl who is nothing like my ex. She was wretched. Wretched, in a word, because she had behaved as any healthy and virtuous American girl ought to behave and not in some other abnormal, extraordinary way. I'd like an extraordinary girl that amazes me every time I see her face, hear her voice, etc. Someone who stands out. I like to see the forests from the trees. NATIONALITY: I'm Irish which brings the anger. But I'm also English which puts it into writing. French? I don't know what the fuck to say about that.FAVORITE BANDS: Taking Back Sunday, Bleeding Through, Seether, 30 Second to Mars, Three Days Grace, Mindless Self Indulgence, All Shall Perish, ALL THAT REMAINS!!, Killswitch Engage, In Flames, Shadows Fall, Scars of Tomorrow, Dimmu Borgir, Job for a Cowboy, Lamb of God, Children of Bodom, As I Lay Dying, Arch Enemy, MCR, Silverstein, Silverchair, Green Day, Offspring, Manson, Blink 182, Aston (quite the variety, I know)FAVORITE MOVIES: Lost Highway, Mulholland Drive, Memento, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Departed, Good Will Hunting, Gangs of New York, A Clockwork Orange, We Own the Night, V for Vendetta, Idle Hands Eyes Wide Shut, 8MM, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Leaving Las Vegas, Wild Things, Rules of Attraction, The Basketball Diaries, Requium for a Dream, Blow, The Boondock Saints, American Gangster, Scarface, The Science of Sleep, American Me, Cruel Intentions, and all Keven Smith Movies, etc. HOTTEST CELEBRITIES:I don't really find many celebs hot- I think girls I see in real life are hotter. However, there are some I think are really hot (ignore the spelling)- Leelee Sobieski, Katie Cassidy, Natalie Portman, Agnes Bruckner, Charlize Theron, Katherine Heigl, Ellen Page, Jessica Alba, Naomi Watts, Lorraine Nicholson (Jack Nicholson's daughter- and I'm not talking about her in "Click"- I mean her now), Bridget Wilson, Mila Kunis, Michelle Trackenburg (She played Harriet the Spy- now so much older- she is banging), Kate Beckinsale, Kirsten Dunts, Kate Hudson, Rose McGowan, Gweneth Paltrow (how did she get so hot??? in Iron Man- she was fucking amazing!!), Connie Nielsen, Denise Richards, Rachael Blanchard, Alicia Silverstone. Choosing the hottest of all these is impossible, UNLESS I can pick how an actress looked in a specific movie, it would be, hands down, Jessica Alba from Idle Hands. Like, I don't even wanna talk about it. That's how hot she is in that movie! Either her or Leelee Sobieski. FAVORITE ACTORS: Jim Carey, Matt Damon, Edward Norton, Leo DeCaprio, Mark Wahlburg, Malcom McDowell, etc. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Naomi Watts GUITAR HERO BAND NAME: Punching Bag Jesus or Wet Sphagetti BJ, but if I'm playing CoOp with Logan, it's Cameltoe Midgets or SkinFlapDeathTrap. READ OR VIDEO GAMES: mostly read, but I play a little bit of video games. HAMPTON BEACH OR SALISBURY BEACH: neither, I graduated highschool a while ago. Boston's so much better. MARIO OR CRASH: Mario, nintendo over playstaion anyday EDDY VEDDER OR CHRIS CORNELL: Eddy OLD SCHOOL GREEN DAY OR OLD SCHOOL OFFSPRING: can't decide MASSHOLE OR NH: Masshole (I was born in Lowell, spent a decent amount of time there, grew up in Billerica, grew up even more in Seabrook) I've lived in NH just as long as MA now, so it's debatable, I'm always, always, always in MA tho. NH for college and sleep or hanging out with the other crew. MY HEROES: Keri Wallace and Jess Meile (technically they are- they both saved my life- at least that's what the ER doctors said.) Those 2 girls are my heroes literally. Metaphorically (well not quite metaphorically, just less directly) speaking, I feel Logan Daigle is one of my heroes too. BEST FRIENDS: Logan Daigle, Melissa Hoffses (sorry for making you cry- one thing you need to understand about me is that I have a habit of fucking everything up), Amy Gagnon, and Ken Morris. Oh yeah- can't forget Knick Morrill. FAVORITE BOOK: Hamlet FAVORITE AUTHORS:Shakespeare, Huxley, Ratcliffe (Ken), Hawthorne, Hemmingway OWN AN MP3 PLAYER: no DO I KNOW WHO PARIS HILTON IS: i know who she is but idk what she is, like idk why she is famous, does she sing or act? im guessing one of them, most likely poorly WHAT DO I MOST LIKELY HAVE IN MY POCKET AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT: video camera- the best one ever too. IF I GO TO A MALL, WHICH ONE: Prudential (Boston) REALITY TV: not so much CARTOONS: love 'em FAVORITE SHOWS: Futurama, The Family Guy, South Park, ATHF, Flight of the Conchords SEEN NAPOLEON DYNAMITE: no BORED WITH DOING THIS: yeah, i'm done now. "And I think I'll blow my brains against the ceiling and as the fragments of my skull begin to fall on your tongue like pixie dust- just think happy thoughts and we'll fly home." WHAT ELSE: girls, girls, and girls, Grand Theft Auto, Guitar Hero over Logan's, Singing, College, being stupid, being smart, Video Taping everything, Los Angeles, Sepulveda Blvd., Santa Monica Blvd., dropping Hawthorne, Huxley, and Shakespeare quotes, Hanging outside, watching movies, Lowell, Billerica, Bird Fergatins, Metal, punk, any rock, Boston, Manhattan, spur of the moment trips, traveling, etc.
trying out camera with melissa

My Interests

Music:

Member Since: 03/04/2006
Band Website: none yet, too lazy
Band Members: I write all the lyrics and all the music except "Benzos and Cathode"- music by Mike Ratcliffe, lyrics- me. And I obviously do all the vocals and give the girls Cambodian Breakfasts. And sometimes I give them a Bird Fergatin.
Influences: wealthy vampires with the cold hands of executioners execute executive decisions determined to destroy what 1 million women, children, and men 1910 died, drowning in the rage of battle. mothers, half naked infants clutching thier necks running frantically tripping over the bodies of their sons teeth gnashing swinging machete spitting blood and mud, and screaming: land, and liberty! were erased. buried and burned along with the memory of the dead along with the ejido. with the smooth stroke of a pen and with the ghost of Nixon present in their eyes they smiled. and pronounced the omnipitence of the free market the profits of profit extending the scurge of columbus and pizarro the freedom to buy things you can never afford the freedom for indians to buy corn that once flourished overgrown in their backyards the freedom to die of curable disease the freedom to watch their children's stomachs swell and burst the freedom to starve and die without land or liberty but Ramona, with eyes of obsidian peering through her blood and sweat drenched mask darding, unseen changing direction with the swiftness of a bird through the shanty's of the canyon with every coyote, every insect, every phylum of life urging her, propelling her forward. the leaves and branches of the forest part for miles, clearing her path the voices and screams of the dead beneathe her feet echo in the deepest chasm of her soul hurling her, toward the city history surging through her veins pulsing through her fingers hurling her, towards the city she caresses her trigger and the words of magome fulfil her being and with each shot she fires, she affirms her movement saying: enough! enough! no! I will see my own blood flow before you take my land...or my liberty
Sounds Like: I aim war at war A pen with the force of a bomb A voice with the wrath of an AK Words that would make Marx's ink dry before it hit the page Another slave kept in Darfur so an American girl can buy an Iphone The same girl who asked her boyfriend for diamonds The ring sits on her finger now The rock is the price of 20 lives in Sierra Leone And a journalist in Libya Mothers separated from children for her rock Mothers murdered in front of children for her rock Children's bellies, empty and decayed Fragile, waning, withered and afraid The American girl turns the other way Something of genocide in Congo on the TV She turns it off to read Twilight She twirls the ring around her finger as she reads While Mother Earth spits blood in her face She swallows Her heart is blacker than the oil of 21 GB's in Saudi Arabia The new Persia- Iraq, Iran- she sees it well This is the war she sees Nothing of the wars she has funded Nothing of the murders she helped commit Nothing of the slaves she kept from freedom She can now sleep in her warm bed And twirl the ring around her finger Around her finger I spit up blood to the thought of her She has the face of every American She has the eyes of every American Every American but me Every American but us Who will lose? Because it's not her Who will lose? Yes, who will lose? Only me and only you ~J.Ratcliffe
Record Label: shit, what's that label we're starting Chris?

My Blog

Chapter 9

Chapter 9 5:11. The alarm went off. I shut it off, almost knocking it off the nightstand in the process. I rolled over in the opposite direction, expecting my arm to land on Erin. Nothing. Just her c...
Posted by on Sat, 20 Sep 2008 06:21:00 GMT

Chapter 8 end

"Love them." Out of the corner of my eye, I saw a Taking Back Sunday CD. They are Tera's favorite band. I started wondering if listening to their lyrics would give me any answers. I highly doubted it...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Sep 2008 09:48:00 GMT

Chapter 8 begin (too big for one blog)

Chapter 8 5:11. The alarm went off. Erin was fast asleep. I grabbed my phone to check for voicemails. My wife and I passed out early last night. I heard the phone ring when I was half asleep but I ig...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Sep 2008 09:42:00 GMT

Anhedonia Preface, CHs 1 n 2

ANHEDONIA a novel by Jon Ratcliffe Okay, this blog contains 5 things: 1. the summary of the book. What would be found on the back of the book after its publication. 2. A disclaimer that will be nowhe...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Sep 2008 06:57:00 GMT

Chapter 7

Chapter 7 5:11. The alarm went off. I got up to realize Erin had already left for work. I went in the bathroom to shave when I became conscious that I didn't even have to work today. I have to stop d...
Posted by on Thu, 28 Aug 2008 07:39:00 GMT

Chapter 6

Chapter 6 5:11. The alarm went off. I have an early appointment with Tera today! I can get some answers! I got ready and drove to work. I sat at my desk, waiting for her to show up. I started thinkin...
Posted by on Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:43:00 GMT

Ch. 5

Chapter 5 5:11. The alarm went off. What day is it? I find life much easier if I don't know. It gets me through the work week. I dragged myself out of bed and stubbed my toe. "God damn!". I quieted ...
Posted by on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:46:00 GMT

Ch. 4 Start from Preface and read up to here

read preface and ch.1, 2, 3 first Chapter 4 5:11. The alarm went off. I woke up to find Erin sleeping beside me. I passed out last night before she got home. She obviously had no idea about last night...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 04:14:00 GMT

Chapter 3

CHAPTER 3 (read Preface, ch.1 and 2 first) 5:11. The alarm went off. Fuck! I want to correct what I always said about dreams and nightmares. I used to say, " Dreams are better than nightmares. Yet, wa...
Posted by on Tue, 06 May 2008 20:18:00 GMT