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Layout made by sugarbooger75 I feel exceptionally uncomfortable in my own skin. My identity seems to change on a daily basis. Recently, I was under the false impression that maybe, just maybe, I might be figuring myself out. I mistakenly thought that I had a tedious grasp on my wants, needs, desires. Apparently this one finally figured out that I'm a fraud. My mind is in a constant state of chaos, and I am impossible to handle. This one that reassured me that I wouldn't be abandoned, finally realized that I'm not worth the trouble after all. This one promised he would be here when I needed him, but now it's obliterated. Once a "shadowy masterpiece", now a damaged little girl.~"i have scars on my body from using myself abusing myself in sickness and in health i have bruises on my body which go away with time but remain in my mind forever"~"And I now know exactly WHO I AM, WHAT I AM and THE WRATH I BRING The UGLY BEAUTY, the LYING TRUTH, the VIRGIN WHORE... the QUIET STORM A LOVER, a FIGHTER, a SAINT, a SINNER, OLD SCHOOL...... a BEGINNER I've been CRUCIFIED, JUSTIFIED and MORTIFIED by my behaviourI am UNSWEETENED, UNCLEAN.... Been called DRAMA QUEEN EX GIRLFRIEND, EX MEMBER... TANTRUM, TERROR I point my finger... TAKE THE BLAME And this time I WILL OWN THE NAME Because NOBODY is going to RUIN ME, if I have to I will RUIN MYSELF.. And it will be 'MY RUIN'"