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The Basics The name's Shay. I'm 19 and I live with the two best roommates, Sean and Lisa, in a fairly nice house in Lincoln, NE. I must say it feels great to finally be out of my mother's living quarters and excelling on my own, without my family constantly baring down on me. I have a great job with Windstream as an internet service representative and I love it. Granted, it has its days, but what job doesn't?
Insider I'm selfish, self-centered, and at times, even inconsiderate. I'm a flirt, a tease, and I'll take advantage of you if you give me the chance. Those are things I've grown to acknowledge and accept about myself. I'm not saying I feel that it's right, and I'm working to change some of those things, but accepting is the first step. Just something to let you know upfront, don't ever think I'm leading you on. I love attention and I love to give attention. Just because we hang out alot, we flirt alot, I think you're attractive, or you think I'm attractive, doesn't mean I'm interested. You're simply my entertainment. I'm not exactly in a relationship, but my heart is already taken. IF by chance I want to go further with you, I'll let you know.
Dreams There are many things I'd like to accomplish in life before I die. One of the most significant is making someone happy. I still hold onto that hopeless desire of finding "The One" and doing everything I can to make him happy. Yes, even if that means changing the way I do things for them. I don't believe in all that crap, "Oh.. you shouldn't have to change for anyone. They should love you for who you are." That's bullshit in my opinion. You can't have a relationship without change. There NEEDS to be compramise between both party members in a relationship. Otherwise those tiny little things that you just can't stand about the other, will turn into giant things to the point that it ends the relationship.
Conclusion Being only 19, I'm just beginning to learn and grow in the world. I'm still just a child, young and naive, and I have a lot to learn and experience yet. I'll stumble here and there and make an ass out of myself at times, but I'll make the best out of it to become the person I want to be in the end. And if you don't like the person I am, well nobody said you had to. =]

My Interests

Music:

"No Tomorrow" by Shay V.

What if you weren't there to see tomorrow?
Would you die in happiness or die in sorrow?
Could you leave this world with your head held high?
Or would you hang your head and curl up and cry?
Are you satisfied with life? Did you fulfill your role?
Or are you begging for someone to free your soul?
Did you ever wish you had one more friend?
Did you ever just want it all to end?
Was there ever a thing you wanted to tell the world,
As the days continued and your life unfurled?
Did you ever say "I can't" when you could?
Did you feel you were always misunderstood?
Would you tell a dark secret to that certain person?
Or would you bottle it inside and let it worsen?
Maybe you don't care what you do or not,
But in the end you'll end up in a knot.
For if you run and hide, remember this:
You'll never be happy come death's sweet kiss.

"I Cried" by Shay V.

I cried tonight.

I cried tonight, and for the first time in a long time..
It wasn't out of anger. It wasn't out of hatred or disgust.
It wasn't because he made me feel like crap.

I cried tonight.

I cried tonight because..
I love him

"Once Upon A Time" by Shay V.

I stare at your picture everyday,
Recalling the good and bad times we once shared.
Lying here in my bed
Choking back tears,
Remembering how once upon a time you cared.

We were irrational teenagers
Letting our imaginations run free.
Said nothing could ever come between us,
But time would soon tell how it was really meant to be.

With such distance between us
The tension was just too much for you to bare.
Before I realized it, things were never the same again.
You spun me through an emotional dispair,
Longing for something.. someone that was not there.

My mind is spinning in endless circles.
Everything is changing so fast.
Though no matter how clear you make it,
No matter how much I know things could never work out,
I can't stop living in the past.

The damage is done.
Wounds begin to heal
But the scars will always remain.
Nothing could make things better.
Not at this point.
Not even you can take away the pain.

My love for you runs true and deep.
Perhaps someday you'll be mine to keep..

I stare at your picture everday,
Recalling the good and bad times we once shared.
Lying here in my bed
Choking back tears,
Remembering how once upon a time you cared.

My Blog

Never Let You Go

I cried tonight.I cried tonight, and for the first time in a long time..It wasn't out of anger.It wasn't out of hatred or disgust.It wasn't because he made me feel like crap.I cried tonight.I cried to...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 05:55:00 PST

To My Special Someone

As I continue to slowly but surely pack my things away, I find many ways to procrastinate. My personal favorite is by going through every little thing one by one and reliving the memories. I found a c...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Sat, 20 Oct 2007 11:38:00 PST

Sagittarius

As I begin to pack for my journey to a new life, I come across many possessions that I find hard to let go of, many of which I am trying oh-so-hard to find away to take with me. I will most likely hav...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 04:08:00 PST

August Memories

August Memories - 8/28/1999End of Spring,Beginning of Fall.Kids at schoolRunning in the hall.A great timeFor adventure and fun.Meeting new friendsAnd playing in the sun.Everyone's enjoying it,Can't yo...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 06:30:00 PST

[Song] I Hate Her

I can't sleep at night Starin' at the phone Knowin' you are not alone She is right there by your side I'm tryin' just to hide All the things I feel inside I can sense the chemistry When you're stand...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Wed, 23 May 2007 08:27:00 PST

[Song] River

It's coming on Christmas They're cutting down trees They're putting up reindeer And singing songs of joy and peace Oh I wish I had a river I could skate away on But it don't snow here It stays pretty...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Fri, 18 May 2007 06:49:00 PST

Another Wasted Day Off

Well I had today and yesturday off from work, which felt really good. But once again, something seems to be bringing me down physically. WHY do I always get sick on my days off? For some reason, I co...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 08:33:00 PST

[Dream] Smile For Me

It was a late Saturday evening, maybe around eight or nine o'clock. Jeff, Sean, and I were out cruising trying to figure out what we wanted to do. Suddenly they got this bright idea to go over to a fr...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 01:47:00 PST

An End To 2006

What do you do when the one you love doesn't want to be with you anymore? What do you do when the one you love tells you they don't love you anymore? Naturally, you're surprised. You can't believe it....
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 09:45:00 PST

A Little Hope

There comes a point in time where you need to move on and stop living in the past, which is one thing I'm not exactly good at. All I ever do is constantly ask myself "what if" questions, never really ...
Posted by Sexi Mexi on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 10:44:00 PST