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I want to be someone that can look at the world in a million ways at once
I want to be a spiritual person, someone with a direct connection to the divine and divine consciousness.
I want to be someone who can love and be loved.
I want to be someone who constantly thinks about everything all the time, who never keeps the same perspective
I want to be able to communicate myself to other people, and I want to be able to communicate other people to myself
I want to be someone that feels deeply, too much, and experiences the world as constant unavoidable resonations, every aspect of living becoming impossible and always fascinating
I’m playing this little game
of self-understanding
the rules are:
everything has a reason,
and I’ve got a reason for everything
I’m playing this little game
of self-worth
the rules are:
everyone needs some help,
and I’ve got some help for everyone
I’m playing this little game
of self-esteem
the rules are:
every part of me can be good,
and I’ve got the will to make it so
"Things like inhibited 'maturity', language puritanism, self restriction of 'shallow' pleasures, overemphasised cynicism... these are not signs of a developed mind, they're signs of people who'd like to have one and have started looking where the stereotypes of our culture told them to."
Quotes from Allen Ginsberg Poems:
"Drive me crazy, God I'm ready for disintegration of my mind,
disgrace me in the eye of the earth,
attack my hairy heart with terror eat my cock Invisible croak
of deathfrog leap on me pack of heavy dogs salivating
light,
devour my brain One flow of endless consciousness, I'm scared
of your promise must make scream my prayer in fear --
Descend O Light Creator & Eater of Mankind, disrupt the
world in its madness of bombs and murder,"
"that I surpass desire for transcendency and enter the calm water
of the universe
that I ride out this wave, not drown forever in the flood of my
imagination
that I not be slain thru my own insane magic, this crime be
punished in merciful jails of Death,"
This passage is from The Psychedelic Experience by Timothy Leary (I think this is very beautiful, it's from the instructions for the first bardo)
Remember:
The light is the life energy.
The endless flame of life.
An ever-changing surging turmoil of color may engulf your vision.
This is the ceaseless transformation of energy.
The life process.
Do not fear it.
Surrender to it.
Join it.
It is part of you.
You are part of it.
Remember also:
Beyond the restless flowing electricity of life is the ultimate reality -
The Void.
Your own awareness, not formed into anything possessing form or color, is naturally void.
The Final Reality.
The All Good.
The All Peaceful.
The Light.
The Radiance.
The movement is the fire of life from which we all come.
Join it.
It is part of you.
Beyond the light of life is the peaceful silence of the void.
The quiet bliss beyond all transformations.
The Buddha smile.
The Void is not nothingness.
The Void is beginning and end itself.
Unobstructed; shining, thrilling, blissful.
Diamond consciousness.
The All-Good Buddha.
Your own consciousness, not formed into anything,
No thought, no vision, no color, is void.
The intellect shining and blissful and silent -
This is the state of perfect enlightenment.
Your own consciousness, shining, void and inseparable from the great body of radiance, has no birth, nor death.
It is the immutable light which the Tibetans call Buddha Amitabha,
The awareness of the formless beginning.
Knowing this is enough.
Recognize the voidness of your own consciousness to be Buddhahood.
Bill Hicks, from Rant in E Minor:
Once again, I recommend a heavy dose of psilocybin mushrooms. Three weeks ago, two of my friends and I went to a ranch in Fredericksburg, Texas and took was Terence McKenna calls a “heroic dose,” 5 dried grams. Let me tell you, our third eye was squeegeed quite cleanly. *makes squeegee sounds* Wow! *more squeegee sounds* And I’m glad they’re against the law. ‘Cause you know what happened when I took ‘em? I laid in a field of green grass for four hours, going, “My god, I love everything.” The heavens parted, god looked down and rained gifts of forgiveness onto my being, healing me on every level, psychically, physically, emotionally, and I realized our true nature is spirit not body, that we are eternal beings and god’s love is unconditional, and there is nothing we can ever do to change that. It is only our illusion that we are separate from god, or that we are alone; in fact, the reality is, we are one with god and he loves us. Now if that isn’t a hazard to this country... You see my point. How are we gonna keep building nuclear weapons, you know what I mean? *laughs* What’s going to happen to the arms industry, when we realize we’re all one? It’s gonna fuck up the economy! The economy that’s fake anyway! *laughs* Which would be a real bummer, ya know. You can see why the government’s crackin’ down on the idea of experiencing unconditional love. Isn’t it interesting that the two drugs that are legal, alcohol and cigarettes, two drugs that do absolutely nothing for you whatsoever, and drugs that grow naturally on this planet, drugs that open your eyes up to make you realize how you’re fucked every day of your life, those drugs are against the law, wow! Coincidence, I don’t know.
Some snippets of lyrics that I identify with or agree with:
When I was younger, so much younger than today
I never needed anybody's help in any way
But now these days are gone, I'm not so self assured
Now I find I've changed my mind and opened up the doors
And now my life has changed in oh so many ways
My independence seems to vanish in the haze
But every now and then I feel so insecure
I know that I just need you like I've never done before
There's nothing you can do that can't be done
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
Nothing you can make that can't be made
No one you can save that can't be saved
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time
Nothing you can know that isn't known
Nothing you can see that isn't shown
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be
It's easy
All you need is love
You scored as VI: The Lovers. This is a card symbolising couples, relationships and strong bonds. The love does not have to be physical, nor even called by that name. This card indicates the trust and openness of such a relationship. The two Lovers have no secrets from each other. In a Tarot reading this card can indicate the forging of a new relationship, the strengthening of an existing one or simply the two Lovers working together to overcome problems. This Card Reversed can represnt the loss of trust, possibly leading to the breakdown of the relationship, decption, pain.

VI: The Lovers


88%

II - The High Priestess


75%

XIII: Death


63%

XIX: The Sun


56%

XI: Justice


50%

0 - The Fool


44%

III - The Empress


44%

XVI: The Tower


38%

IV - The Emperor


38%

XV: The Devil


38%

I - Magician


31%

VIII - Strength


25%

X - Wheel of Fortune


25%
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Haiku

Here is my haiku for today. old mantending to morning flowersbeer in hand
Posted by on Fri, 03 Aug 2007 09:27:00 GMT

Una poema

Mind is the blade forgedfrom a million blowsMind is white hot metal,radiating from withinDark ore rooted deepwithin the earth mindis the edge, licking bloodfrom a careless fingerthe smith's sweat evap...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 04:46:00 GMT

god fucking damnit

I think I've finally come to a definition for the word "overanalyze." I've thought about this word a lot, because it's something I've been accused of doing on multiple occasions. By the way, the title...
Posted by on Tue, 05 Jun 2007 02:27:00 GMT

What I say

"What I say makes me drunk." - Rumi Right now, I feel very aware of the power each thing I say has. Every word I speak or write has ages of meaning behind it, and every word refocuses my mind on one t...
Posted by on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 16:26:00 GMT

philosophical ramblings

Alright, I'm posting a blog. I have to admit that it is impossible for me to sometimes adjust to the sheer difference between the realities that each of us live in. This sensation is strong often, but...
Posted by on Fri, 02 Feb 2007 23:02:00 GMT

Some observations

I think being in my coob, my roomlet, my nonroom, always puts me in a very specific mood. I feel pretty safe (to an extent) or at home (to an extent) inside these curtains, underneath my loft bed, but...
Posted by on Fri, 22 Dec 2006 01:06:00 GMT

Do etttt foo

Leave your name and:1. I'll respond with something random about you.2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.4. I'll say something that only ...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Sep 2006 18:58:00 GMT

da survey soooon

Silly survey... just do it foooo1. Who are you?2. Are we friends?3. When and how did we meet?4. Do you have a crush on me?5. Would you kiss me?6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.7. De...
Posted by on Sun, 27 Aug 2006 01:37:00 GMT

woo survey about emotions read ittt

Emotions + Basics + Are you emotional :: Thats an interesting question. Compared to some people, I am quite level headed. Compared to others, I am a frantic mess. Its all relative, really. I ...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Jul 2006 02:23:00 GMT

A poem I did not write, but which a hella like

I've Looked So Much... I've looked on beauty so muchthat my vision overflows with it.The body's lines. Red lips. Sensual limbs.Hair as though stolen from Greek statues,always lovely, even uncombed,and...
Posted by on Mon, 19 Jun 2006 00:05:00 GMT