eddie [JHD]

My name is Eddie Channon, yeah....Ch-annon, not Sh-annon, I'm 17, in the 11th grade at Con. To the naked eye I might seem like a simple person, but I'm not at all that, I'm always thinking about something. I like to the think about possibilities, like the possibility that there is a God, my mentality about religion is instead of not believing in anything, why not believe in possibility. Another possibility I think about a lot, is the possibility of doing something worth wild that matters and will make you along with others feel good, like and i've honestly thought about this, just going to like somewhere in Africa, to just visite and try to help them. I also believe in the possibility that one can find someone to love, you just have to let it happen, and believe that it will, but you can't rush it. One thing I think about that scares the shit out of me, and I'm sure almost everybody thinks about this one at one point or another, is about dying, and that we can't live forever and someday you know it will happen. It could be a while from now or it could be next week or even tomorrow. I don't know about you, but I don't wanna die, I don't think anyone wants to die. Even people that are like manicaly depression or emo if you wanna call them that, in my mind those are the people who in reality are the people that need to discover themselves the most and who need to find out who they are. Like me I wouldn't call myself "emo",but I do go through shit like that, when I have no idea what my purpose is in life and what I will amount to be, or when I start hating what is going on in my life at that moment. Deep down though I know that all that bullshit, all these pointless memories and all these depressed times are just what I need to find out what my purpose is and to find out what I will amount to be. In the end a person is made from everything he or she experiences in life, good and bad, and you don't know truely who you are in life, until you live it, we'll at least thats what I think haha.