natasha

That look of hunger of aching emptiness That look of having been up all night of feverish fatigue, having flirted with danger, with death, a look associated with drugs, wih fasting, with sex, with intense emotional experiences and with the dangerous excitement of the night speaks of the highest experience of living!!Im happiest when im doing something i shouldnt be, love that feeling when you think youre going to get caught! Im an art student going to bristol uni..fashion and textiles! I couldnt imagine living without art, music or dancing...love going out with the girls and getting horribly drunk! Ive got loads of energy, to the point of being hyperactive. Im terrified of dying and spiders, especially scared of falling in love! love is a scary mother fucker! I hate the idea of having regretts...only get one life so take all the chances i can...sometimes having this attitude blows up in my face, but more often than not just means i have some amazing nights! im a bit of an insomniac, sleepings a waste of life. Im terrified of waking up one day n regretting the way my lifes turned out...never wanna settle for anything or anyone!my friends are everything to me. Especially the ones who have been there since the high school days!! laura b,pip, gen, vicky, lauren, hev, charlie, amy and em!but i couldnt imagine life without lola..she is my rock and never fails to make me laugh till i cry!They are all beautiful people inside and out! spend my days having lunch with the girls, shopping and drinking cocktails on the beach, and my nights dancing out clubbing till my feet hurt. love my random nights with laura and im sooooo glad shes back from thailand!! and we can resume our nights of naughtiness hehe!!! (magic hairband) Im loyal and hate to see my friends upset, so try and always put them first.I love meeting new people, from all different backgrounds! Ive got my girls who are like something out of clueless..we love getting dressed up and having a harmless flirt, but ive also got my "art" lot who i met this year at art college.Nights out with them usually involve "deep and meaningfuls","blazing" and hectic house parties!!(love you jessy, kim,andy, ed, josh, rory.....) Couldnt imagine living without either groups, im a little bit of both and wouldnt have it any other way!!Apart from the girls i tend to get on better with blokes...just usually have more fun with male friends because theyre more laid back. Love my girly things and looking feminin, but im very happy mucking about in a park or down the beach. I Hate girls that take themselves so seriously and think they're better than everyone, you get a lot in Brighton. Im happiest when im on stage and would love to be an actress, prefably some bad ass bitch in a gangster brit flick...snatch would be the dream!Im a bit of a romantic but scared of getting to close to someone so usually hold back. I try and always be myself..being anything else will only cause you pain in the future. Never want to grow up or have responsibilities and try and make the most of every day. "No man was ever beaten because he got knocked down, he was beaten because he didnt get back up" I really want to travel round Italy, venice and barcelona looking at art, drinking good wine and eating good food...well maybe just the wine lol. I would like to end up living in New york living a hectic life style or finding that perfect guy, having babies and living on a vineyard in the south of france..painting and listening to music...the first option mores likely though! Im hyper, manic, creative,passionate, loyal and just a little bit unstable...dont think i could be accused of being boring thoughxx