My name is Gabby and this is my second account because it centers around my eating disorder and maybe other things. You probably shouldn't bother adding me unless you have an ED also...if you don't have one and you want to add me, send me a note letting me know why.
You Know You Are ED-NOS When...
Taken from House of ED
* one day you can't even imagine eating over 1000 calories and the next you hit 2000 or more.
* the people who know you have an eating disorder don't take you seriously...including health professionals.
* you eat salad so much that when your dad takes you out to eat he tells you that you can't have salad and means it...so you go to the other extreme and eat pizza and cheesy garlic bread and stuff yourself silly.
* Your weight always seems to stay the same...all the starving and binging seem to cancel each other out. No one can see the emotional pain you have because your body isn't displaying it.
* You haven't exactly lost your period, so you don't fit the criteria for having ana
* you see yourself as an umbrella
* you want to change the anorexic criteria just so you feel like you fit in
* you've gone through a week that went somewhat like purge, fast, purge, fast, binge, binge, binge, binge, binge
* all your meals are multiples of 20 calories... 20 calories, 200 calories or 2000 calories
* some days you go to the super wal-mart to walk around the store and burn calories, and other days you go because there's an all-you-can-eat buffet right across the street that you sneak off to and binge at like there's no tomorrow 'cause for $8 you can have ANYTHING you could ever possibly crave... and uh.. riiight, I'm not speaking from personal experience...
* people listen to you say you're anorexic and say "that's a bunch of BS"
* you're convinced you have a thyroid problem because no matter how much you restrict, the weight just stays there...
* You fast for 5 days and lose 5 pounds and then gain them all back from 2 days of binging.
* In your house you have rice cakes, sugar free jelly, apples, and other healthy stuff, and then you have cookies and ice cream... but no food that normal people would eat.
* Someone asks you what eating disorder you have and you dont know how to answer. "All of them... on different days, but not totally extreme..."
* taking diet pills to lose the most of the weight, then taking them out of habit or to MAINTAIN your weight
* when you starve yourself all day but eat about 2000 cals or more at night.
* when you feel that you're anorexic but it sure as hell doesn't look like it.
* when you are so picky people wonder why you're not skinny- but the few foods that you DO like are pizza, ice cream, etc. so it makes sense to you.
* when you eat food until your stomach hurts, and then try to purge. But then when you realize you don't feel like gagging, you just give up and lay down.
* When you don't want to get out of bed because you don't know what kind of a day it will be and you don't want to risk overeating again
* your psychiatrist makes a chart of your weight and it ends up looking like a heart monitor
* you try not to eat anything, but when you do, even if it was just an apple , you feel as though you've failed so you binge and purge and ponder to yourself how you hate mia and wish you could be a better ana.
* you eat just a salad, but feel compelled to purge, because you've always not eaten and when you had it was a binge so you had to purge thus you feel you have to purge because you binged on a salad
Current Main Thinspiration:
I don't know who she is, but she's real and she's sooo perfect and beautiful. I wish I was her. Her face, her hair, everything. I just wish I was her.
