About Me
The most important human endeavor is the striving for morality in our actions. Our inner balance and even our very existence depend on it. Only morality in our actions can give beauty and dignity to life.
I'm 24, but my personality and interests reflect those of either a seven year old attention-seeking child with ADD ("let's prank call deeees one!!!") or a 47 year brotha who likes to say profound shit to youngins, talking about "the good old days" and quoting "Wake Up Everybody" by Harold Melvin and the Bluenotes and "That's the Way of the World" by Earth, Wind and Fire like I've been through it or somethin'. I seriously DO act like that, when people let me get away with it. Also, I'm kind of stuck in 1993-'94. On a good day, maybe '95-'96.
My mix: Italian/French/Irish/Bolivian/Dutch. It's hard to have ethnic pride, although, I'm closest to my Eye-talian heritage and family, I guess. And I like gnocchi.
I'm one of those 7-8 year college students, partly due to my social anxiety setting me back a few years, also because I'm a little unmotivated and indecisive and I have an amazing family who funds my indecisiveness (enablers!). I also work part-time at a non-profit organization.
Like a wandering student, I'm a wandering person as well. As cliche as it sounds, I've been trying to "find myself" for the last 23,490,423 years. When it comes to getting stuff done, I usually don't. I'm too insecure to go through with big things, so there's a lot of half-stepping going on in most aspects of my life. It's coming together though, slowly.
I'm pretty spiritual. I'm exploring different faiths 24/7 and I have my own idea of what "God" is. I was raised Catholic, attended a Christian High School, and still attend Catholic churches occasionally, but I don't subscribe to one specific faith. I just use the church to worship my God there. Plus, I love the whole vibe there.
I'm an old soul with an immature-ass sense of humor. Beavis and Butthead done got me hooked. Sarcasm and wit are okay, but my sense of humor is simplistic. I do like shock value humor. When I'm bent, I'm crazy, but even when I'm sober, if I'm with my friends in the right space, I tend to wild out, and do silly stuff. People either think my sense of humor is really obnoxious or they totally get it, and it's usually the former instead of the latter. Oh, and I'm socially liberal, and fiscally moderate. Gobama!
I'm both extremely insecure and vain. Body dysmoprhic disorder perhaps? However, I don't believe in universal standards of beauty when it comes to other people. Just moi. I also have social anxiety which has improved in the last year but can still inhibit me tremendously. I've seen many therapists, taken a gang of different meds, searched spiritually, etc., and it's better, but I still bug out every now and then and become totally anti-social. Working on it. Thankfully, I have two awesome best friends, and a bunch of associates/party people who deal with me.
Let me learn you:
http://en. wikipedia. org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_anxiety
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_phobia
On a lighter note, there's music (ha-get it?). Music and dancing keep me nice and good.
I'm "girly" in every which way (I do NOT go to the bathroom, thx), but I have a pretty strong affinity for oldschool WWF, the Dallas Cowboys, and I listen to what some might consider "masculine" music at times. Hip Hop might have replaced Classic Soul as my favorite genre. Otherwise, total skirt.
I'm a sadomasochist when it comes to relationships. I'm crazy and idealistic when it comes to love, and I'd have it no other way. Peep "The Vision". It's hard for me to find chemistry with anyone, but when I do, it's on. Love/relationships are the only things that I'm truly passionate about, sadly. It's not neediness; I just think love is one of the most amazing, coolest things ever. When I'm single, I'm pretty much asexual/recovering from a previous breakup. Sometimes I make the mistake of random hooking up/dating---so unfulfilling. To quote the late Luther, "Each time around I tell myself, it's the game of love, ignore the signs and risk it all, in the name of love. Well, I decided I can't let nobody hurt me again,
so I'll say 'til the end, I just don't wanna be a fool, said I don't wanna be a fool, ever again." Moving on...
A lot of what I said ^ there sounds like a bunch of contrived bullshit, so in short, I'm nice. *kissykissy*
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