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-=Deakon=-

Vulnerant omnes, ultima necat.

About Me

-= The tall lithe figure strides though faceless crowds of mirthless people. Who is this walker between worlds that fits not in light nor the absence of day, but drifts even in the twilight realm of both mind and soul. Without belonging he yearns for more, and that very need fuels the onward motion. Nostalgic is his manner like a forgotten aristocrat, memmory of a broken prince of a kingdom that did not matter. May drops of the silver moon carress his eyes to wash away his tears, that angels may not know his pain or the daemons in his heart... =- I may sit and read for hours, anything from personal studies such as Science and Philosophy, to Theology and Religions, Myths and legends, biographies, or good 'ole fasion fiction. From time to time I take pen in hand, and try to play the humble muse for the gods. Art has always held magic for me, and perhaps I may take the pencil in hand, or carve life from clay or stone. I am a story teller at heart, and love to take you on a journey of the imagination.. There is little better in life than share a mean with family and friends, good company and good conversation. Such things and social activities like this ar far better than any drug. I love stories of many kinds, and soak them up from all forms of media, be they legends and myths I may hear tale, to books and painting, even video games these days are elaborate epics we experience nearly first hand. Though I do not fit well in the gay scene, I take pleasure in venturing to the clubs where many of my kind are often thought of as freaks. Here we congregate and where that label with Pride. But just because we goths are dark, certainly does not mean that we are evil, nor cannot be happy ;-) I live for films and theatre, having been in both myself. And a quiet night with friends can be only warmed sometimes by a glass of wine by candlight and music... am the master of my house and tend to be the central hub for many activities. I have come from a large family, being the oldest of 5 kids, and having that responsibility, I tend to have to take care of others. The irony is that I have little time to take care of myself ;-P With my friends I am much like a father figure, I guess, trying to be te rational mind and moderate things so they do not get out of control. My close circle of friends are my closest family down here, and you are lucky if you become one of them. I am loyal to the end and will protect my home and family even further. I find myself in an intersting predicament: I am often too straight to be gay, and too gay to be straight. Thus I have difficulty fitting into either "scene" in the traditional sense. I stick out like a sore thumb in the gay world, and simply cannot find my niche in it. Not in the way most may find acceptable. I am a Goth, thru and thru. Thus I fit better with the outcasts of the mundane. My tall lithe figure, and ghostly pallor, coupled with my long dark hair and enchanting eyes make perfect for the lifestyle. In fact, if you saw me walking down the road, chances are the first thoughts in your mind would be to reach for a cross ...... Who knows? you may be right!!"Once shunned from grace In Shadows I hide Darkness abound all I confide Yet from lofty highs My Angel smiled anew And in my Deamon's soul I knew love again..."
Take The Which Fallen Angel Would You Be Quiz
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Your Ultimate Purity Score Is...
Category Your Score Average
Self-Lovin' 33.3%
When I think about you - or anyone - I touch myself 64.9%
Shamelessness 38.1%
Puts 'em on the glass 79%
Sex Drive 39.5%
I got needs, baby, you gotta unnastan'! 77.4%
Straightness 14.3%
Knows the other body type like a map 44.1%
Gayness 0%
Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame 83.8%
Fucking Sick 60.2%
Dipped into depravity 90%
You are 33.5% pure
Average Score: 72.5%

Take The Ultimate Purity Test
and see how you match up!

(By The Ferrett )..

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My Interests

“I can believe that things are true and I can believe things that aren’t true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they’re true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen – I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women. I believe that the future sucks and I believe that future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone’s ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state. I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we’ll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds. I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman. I believe that mankind’s destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it’s aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there’s a cat in a box somewhere who’s alive and dead at the same time (although if they don’t ever open the box to feed it it’ll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself. I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn’t even know that I’m alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of casual chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck. I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn’t done it properly. I believe that anyone claims to know what’s going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman’s right to choose, a baby’s right to live, that while all human life is sacred there’s nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system. I believe life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you’re alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.”- Samantha Black Crow href="http://www.celticdesires.com/tarot/whattarot.htm">I Am

Which tarot card are you?
Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)
Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.

Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving. How Rare Is Your Personality?

Movies:

Oh so many good films out there!! Oh, how many bad movies are there?!Lets watch them all!!I love movies very much, and thus watch a wide range of them regularly. My tastes depend largely on my eclectic mood at the time. But if you are with me, so shall you be subjected to my maddness...

Books:

The Sandman (series), Mists of Avalon, Lost Souls, Exquisite Corpse, American Gods, Neverwhere, The Vampire Lestat, Universe in a Nutshell, God's Debris, Angels and Demons, The Witching Hour, Anita Blake, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, History of the Universe, Beyond Good & Evil, Siddhartha, Anything by Neil Gaimen, Poppy Z. Brite, Laurel K. Hamilton, Robert Jordan, Stephen Hawkins, Marrion Zimmer Bradley, Anne McAthy, Tolkien, C. S. Lewis, (Most) Anne Rice, and scores of others.I have a voracious appatiete for reading, and will be engaged in mulitple books at any one time ranging from Fiction, Science, Metaphysics, Art, History, Parasciences, Manga, Graphic Novels, and good 'ole nonsense....

Heroes:

Once more unto the Deakon, dear friends, once more.

Which work of Shakespeare was the original quote from?

Get your own quotes:
Your element is Darkness: Self centered, strong
willed, mischievous and mysterious. Your quite
dark and often times frightening, although you
may be good looking its just a costume hiding
the darkness of your heart. You detest everyone
but yourself, people are simply insects to be
burned under the power of your magnifying
glass. People are somewhat drawn to your
mystery but find out too little too late how
cruel you can be. But you have a passionate
soul, that is unless you already sold it.
Pursuing whatever you set your mind to, you
look at life with a 'Shut up and leave me
alone' attitude most often because people
generally seem to annoy you. You may be the
ruler of darkness but you can often times
become generally lonely, wishing for someone to
share in your dance of darkness so long as they
know who the master is.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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You're 90% Irish
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There's hardly anyone more Irish than you! How Irish Are You?

My Blog

Struggle

I am pulled in so many directions right nowWork, as I strive to become a better managerand help my staff to learn and grow, and develop a fun  place to work and help people.Theatre, as I grow as ...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Fri, 01 Aug 2008 07:03:00 PST

Making Life Worth Living

So, lets see, what has been going on in my world?I would have to say things are doing well. A few days ago, I finally began to learn how to brew beer. My dear friend Jenna's father has been doing so f...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Wed, 23 Jul 2008 03:06:00 PST

Come See Me!!! "Narrow Gate"

Come and Support the Arts!The show I am currently in is called "The Narrow Gates" playing from June 19th, through the 29th at Venice Little Theatre. Come see me covered in Egg!Made a fool of!Embarrass...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 09:34:00 PST

The Events of Last Week

Let me please start off with introducing myself, I am Deakon. Until about Wed of this week, I was Zak's boyfriend.Please understand I was doing everything in my power to help him become a better perso...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 08:47:00 PST

Seasons of the Mist

I have been lied too Used Manipulated Exploited And the worse part is? I let it happen. Knowing full and well what was happening. I thought I could help him become better, evolve. I had hope, fait...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Tue, 18 Dec 2007 07:06:00 PST

Prince of a Broken Kingdom that did not matter

""You have conquered and I yield, yet henceforward art thou also dead-- dead to the world, to heaven, and to hope-- in me didst thou exist-- and in my death, see by this image, which is thine own, how...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Sun, 20 May 2007 02:42:00 PST

Riding a Short Bus

Some films provoke thought,Some, insult. Others arouse emotionsand others inspire insperation. I just finished watching a film that did all of these tonight. I cannot say it was the greatest of films;...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 09:28:00 PST

I'm Back Baby!!

There has been much, And I have survived it all!I am back people, and better than ever... However still poor, lol. But that is alright! My bills are (mostly) paid nowand I am happy and active in life ...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 06:19:00 PST

Unavalible... I hate being rock broke

Apparently I am not as outta of the woods as I had thought, financially speaking.At the momment, I have no Internet or Phone (a matter of $35.00 it seems)So I am a bit more poor until Next Friday.Unti...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 03:51:00 PST

A request to All

To my friends and aquaintances.For many weeks now I have withdrawn myself. I have hidden away while in pain. Many of you have tried to comfort me, and I thank you. But still I have wished to remain al...
Posted by -=Deakon=- on Sun, 28 Jan 2007 12:36:00 PST