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I am not beautiful,I am not sweet; I am all that is defeat. The ones that loves me do not exist; But the ones I love,loves another...they insist. Love is beautiful, Love is not blind; But I ache in loneliness everytime.
me?me..me..me..how is *me*?hmm...well lets start wit my name ( dii chan chue Jasmine kaa ) then d thngs i like..i lurve rainy seasons!!maybe bcox i like d idea of a rain party...me n d gurls n d boys will get it down on a beautifullll rainy day n juz get loud!i mean we can like juz let it oout n be free...we go dancing n singin' under d rain n we gif no shiet 2those tat r looking bcox its our time n we can do wuteva wit it!haha...n evry1 else thnks we're sum drunk teens on rage!haha..den on those non-raining dayz i prefer to go visit d park n n'joy my delicious ice-cream.u wudnt noe to wutt limits do me n my frenz go 2get oursef an ice-cream!haha...then we'll juz chill on d swings or see-saw n pretend we're sum 10 year olds..tats retarded tho but still fun!n at times i'll juz go drive to god knows where at nite in search fer sum good food!haha...we here lurve good food!n i thnk mah fav dayz in mah life wud moz probably be walking under d stars on d beach at nite time...~ah~ feeling d wind brushing yer hair n messing it up in d end...d cold wind piercing thru yer spine n d scent of pure sea water...oh man!i miss tat!!den there's also tat endless walk to nowhere which i n'joy doin alone...it seems like a pathetic thng to do but i like it so yea...i give no shiet to wut u think so juz stop buggin me if ye dunno me!get?altho it seems like i prefer d time alone...i certainly do not fancy goin 2d movies alone..tats like so sad.but i do like goin shoppin alone tho.ok.now fer d thngs i do not fancy -pause to think- i certainly do not fancy any1 who tries 2 chnge wut i am to suit their own taste.if u dun like me den buzz off!i reallee ddnt cme all tis way to mke yer life misserable..tat i see u handle perfectly fine yersef.n 1 more thng..dont..wait lemme rephrase:DO NOT go n mke-fun/mock/screw my frenz or family or religion or race or belief's bcox u haf an issue against me!u dun like me so juz spit it oout on me...dun u go n find fault wit d thngs tat dsent haf nethin 2 do wit it! n i think i seriously do not fancy or bond tat well wit online pimps or suck-ups!i mean...yer sooooo LAME!n sooooo LOW!n i totally hate...i mean HATE ppl tat pretends...no no...lets make it act...ppl tat acts as if they're so fucking to good fer d world!n to those tat makes yersef feel awfull bout yersef...lighten up babe!i mean like...do u reallee thnk yer d most dreadfull sad un-luckiest person alive on tis planet??oh!get a life!i hate those ppl tat do not make a difference to help themsef when they can n den they juz like give up...man!!!yer too beautifull to do tat!!so get yer ass up n start makin it better bcox God aint helpin ye sick-lazy asses to get yersef better.so go help yersef okay?!ok..now conclusion to wrap thngs up..i am a stubborn teenage asian muslim island gurl..n i am not perfect.but i do love every bit of me juz d way it is.i may not be perfect..t wut u c is wut u get.i am not a perfect teenage girl..i may talk back to u n sumtimez my chosen word of speach aint tat good but duz speakin n actin juz perfect seem real 2 ye?well if so...tat aint me!n i am oso not a perfect muslim..i may not wear head-dresses or proper attire according 2 my religion..but in due time i believe i'll grow better or maybe smarter.but not appearin or soundin n actin d way tat i am dsent mke a person evil...it juz mkes dem human.n even tho i am imperfect the way i am now...i do not wish myself 2 b in any otha way then i already am n i'm proud 2 b who i am now.i cnt be perfect now..n i may not be perfect later but tat is all in God's hands i believe.n tats juz *me*