MY WERDZ!!!! Caution
Seeing that,
I often regret my decisions
I’m often become obsessed with wishing
I would have fallen
Into the arms of someone else
While lying next to you
I often remember my journey;
The long path I've taken
To get here,
The mistakes I've made,
Pain I've inflicted,
And harm did to me.
The sores on my feet,
Bruises on my knees,
And crimson in my eyes,
Are my witness.
::Caution::
You never truly know
The demons
Hiding in the soul
Of the one
You lay next to.
So sleep with your eyes open
And your heart prepared.
Getting to comfortable
Was always my down fall.
So now being next to you
I still have my guards up.
Can’t be conned into believing
That you’re something better than
The last.
It may sound like I'm
A victim of my past,
But I'd like to believe
I'm saving myself from the
Damage you have hidden
Behind those eye's of yours.
They are so beautiful.
Yet I always believed
The eyes were the windows to
Your soul so,
Why are yours so empty?
you speak so fondly
Of love.
Specially in relation to me,
Yet,
Even so close,
I now know nothing of you,
You clearly only know pieces of me,
So I’m constantly questioning,
Can you love what you
Do not know?
And I guess it leads back
To my caution--->
You never truly know
The demons
Hiding in the soul
Of the one
You lay next to.
So sleep with your eyes open
And your heart prepared.
I've got to prepare-
For the best to come,
And break these bad habits
That have infested themselves
Under my skin,
Inside my brain,
And made a mockery of my heart.
See,
I never knew the demons
you had hidden
In the depths of your soul
Cause,
I was to busy believing,
To busy loving,
To blind to see
you were never truly loving me,
But now you should know::
I've saved the good,
Let go of the bad,
And left whatever we've ever had
In the past.
It's about that time
I find myself,
Love myself as much as I loved you.
So I'm no longer left wishing
I would have fallen
Into the arms of someone new.
My LOVE is waiting and for that i am due..
-VEE
After She Leaves
see,
I love hip hop
and when there was any game,
I'd sit down and watch
Clean up after her with no complaints
and gave her everything physically with no restraints
wash her sweaty bball shorts
sit down on the bench
and cheer at the court
cook up a mean meal
only call once to check up
when she was wit her bros
I compromised
never lied
and just filled the void
so in her eyes
she felt like things couldnt get any better
and had she not have walked out
I would have never left her
but in her soaking up
of
plus after plus
she forgot about us
her perfection
left little room for correction
and no space for reflection
therefore inspiration
went out the door
she slammed it
I whispered, “I’ve had itâ€
I left….
and picked [her] up
blew off the accumulated dust
and made love to [her] that night
she was
tangled between my fingers
black ink pouring from her
splaying against
lined stationary
I apologize for my neglect
with every action verb
and gently cradled her neck
she is me again
in my heartache,
I meditate
on how that BiTCH could have loved me better
had she not have walked out
I would have never left her
but she did
and that regret
flows from my soul to my wrist
then to [her] wet tip
and she is all i need
and will stay
forever
even after she leaves.
-VEE