essah

all u gots tah know iz that.. yah don't know me.. im indescribable.. mah life's private.. u can talk bout me..but its a privilege fo' u if id care.. u myt have met me but u dunno me.. if yah rili wanna know me.. u gots tah be wit me.. im not like what everybody is.. i dont say that ..im juz me.. im not 'juz' me... there's more to know.. more to see.. im not 'juz' me..all u see is juz a lil' part of me..there's lots tah get that is unseen..i dont even know myself.. confused LiL' miss ESSAH, who's misunderstood by those people around me.. im someone who conceals my emotions as long as i can. u can see me smilin' but u won't know if its fo' real. im weak and i admit it. im broken and im incomplete.. i wanna let out tha real me but im scared of rejection. im stupid cause i don't know me. a great pretender i am. i show mah gurlfriends im fine, makin' them see im having fun. but when i get home and im alone, tears starts to show up again. i try to fight it but my emotions' too strong.. its takin' over me.. and i start to feel helpless and low.. makes me not want to continue.. but i know i have to.. im holdin on tight to this life.. i know this will be over soon..but fo' now.. im still on search for tha light on tha side of real life..