Well I guess this is the first time that I've updated this thing since I created my account forever ago... Cause I don't really hang out with anyone anymore; I don't go clubing much; and I'm deffinately not going into the army this year. I still think I'm a pretty cool person though. I love the arts. I'm happiest when I'm at a concert, or art show, or dance performance. That to me is true beauty. And I believe that beauty is the only intrinsic good. But what I consider beauty is far different from the average American. If you really want to know what mine is I could have a couple hour long discussion about it. I cry a lot. But it's rarely because I'm unhappy. I cry when I find something beautiful because of how rare that is in the world, or if someone makes me really happy, and movies will always make me cry. But for how much I cry, I can't bare to do it infront of other people. I'd like to think that I'm a good person, but a lot of people hate me. I've lost a lot of really great friends over the years. I'm really unique and most people don't understand me. I will give anybody the time of day they deserve until they prove to me they no longer deserve it. I am a Christian and church will always be one of the most important things to me in life, yet I'm fairly liberal and I believe that there is nothing wrong with me being gay. I could be in a mosh pit at a rock concert one night, and the next night be at a ballet or Shakespear play. I love being out in the middle of nowhere just as much as I love the city life. I suppose you could call me a stereotype disaster zone. If you can't at least accept people like that then I'm not going to want to talk to you. I don't think I should have to put up with the presumptions that people will have based on one aspect of my personality or another, or have to hear what you think I'm doing wrong in my life. I like who I am, and unless your part of my close family, or my girlfriend, I don't need to listen to you. I realize that I probably sound pretty bitter, but I'm really not. This is just the first time in a while that I've actually put what I thought out there. Normally I hide part of me to make someone happy. This just feels really good.
Oh... And I really want to travel. It's one of my major goals in life. I want to see everything I can between now and the time I die. Sometime between now and this time next year I hope to have spent a quarter studying in another country through BCC, and at least started, if not finished, my training in massage. Yea for me!!
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