well this guy goes by the name mickie or mix. though i dont normally call him by name. i go for love, beebee, labiduds, labipoops, magni nd tabs for tabachoy. haha. gee,i remember when i first met him at bee's house. i was bein a snob to him. until he started complimenting about me playing the guitar. thats were the usual convo started. a week later i believe. another drinking session was made at the same house. nd he was there. teasing me with this girl named KAYE. me and mickie became good friends since then. he did everything for me to be his friend. lol. like he would come up to me and say "hey want some weed?" i know. i know. hes such a bad influence. haha. kidding. also i remember how he wud eat a yummy chocolate ice cream with me even if its against his health. all that for the sake of friendship. isnt that so sweet? :D me so lucky. hah. anyhow, as days passed by i got to know him well. we spoke frequently than before. then i began liking him for what he is nd for having a good heart. it wasnt that very long til the feeling went mutual. he opened up and showed me more of his own side. ive been getting surprises and flowers almost like everyday. i couldnt explain how happy i was during those times. indeed up to this day. i am still feeling the same. yet the happiness and affection i have within me for this man is getting bigger and bigger each day. we've been together for quite long now. i hope this love that we have wont just last for a year or two. i know what we have is special. it is something that i would never ever trade for nethin or ne1 in this world. i love him with all my heart. i want the whole world to know it. im not even scared to show everyone how he truly mean to me especially to my family. infact if i could only have the power, il take him to church without a doubt and marry him. no joke. il do that to prove how sincere i am. if that aint enough, id still do anything for him. i am willing to sacrifice everything and anything. even if that means taking away my own happiness. only God knows how much i feel for this person. if im not with him, i feel sad. i wud miss him like crazy. nd wud feel like not doing anything but think of him. i dont even think he realize that i cry silently at night. wishing, praying and hoping that he can live a normal life. [u know what i mean babe] but i guess, i have to lay it all in GOds hand and prayers. im so blessed for having him. i mean what else can i ask for?!? hes sweet, understanding, very smart person, caring and thoughtful... ok ok fine..il say hes cute! hah. just kidding. i reallly mean that. he is really good looking. cant blame the other girls. they wer all drooling and dying to meet him. too bad, mickie's the best that they cant have. ;) [freakin sluts grr] lol. anyhow, i owe this man big time. he have done so much for me. more than i thought i could ever imagine. never does a day that he left me hanging. he's always there cheering up, making me giggle, helping me out with whatver probs that comes in my way, hes always there inspiring me to live.. he wud even fart at me! how rude and disgusting.. haha. weve been thru lot of retardation fyi. lol. he encouraged me to go back to school,taught me how to make use of my time wisely and not to be selfish. he never fails to put a smile on my face even if i know hes tired from his sucky job at vrb. idk how he does it but he really does manage and make sure that im alright. most of all, he taught me how to give an unconditional love after i thought i never could again. never regret anything is also one of the things that i learned from him. he brought me closer to my family and i appreciate him bringing me closer to his family as well. well except for his dad. didnt even get to see him when he was here in california. thats because im scared of his daddy. haha. but yea, i want you to know love that i love your fam. theyre great and im looking forward to being with them again. forgive me for the times that i have to desist you from ur bad habits. [talking about smoking] im aware that it aint easy to quit but u gotta at least try.. :( im just concern. u and i both know that at times, i tend to act like a bitch. i wud try to pick a fight over small things nd ur there struggling to understand nd solve the prob..while im on the other side, ignoring you.. its selfish, i know. forgive me for doing that. i dont want you think that its ur fault. the problem is me. im stubborn and never take time to listen. i admit it but im willing to change. we talked about it few days ago after we had that silly argument. so yeah, hope things will work out just fine. :) i may sound stereotype but i do wanna end this by saying i love you and i wanna be with you far longer than forever.