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mama niki

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About Me


I LIVE: life because there is nothing else better to do anyway.
I WORK: for the equality of humankind, the most ethical corporation I can find, for financial freedom and to serve my fellow humans.
I TALK: too fast and too soft, mostly in song lyrics and say the things that I wish the world will become.
I WISH: for true happiness for all, for people to get to know me before judging me, for a gazillion dollars so I can travel the world.
I ENJOY: photography, the ocean, spending time with my love, talking to my best friends, playing scrabble and Age of Empires, cooking and sleeping.
I LOOK: left to right, up and down, then turn around because you never know when lost becomes found. (Ten points if you know where that comes from).
I WILL: get married and have children, write a book, swim with dolphins, graduate college and witness the monarch buterfly migration.
I SMELL: like coffee, bubble bath, grapefruit or lavendar.
I LISTEN: to people butchering the names of espresso drinks all day, to philosophy and positivity and to music that gives words to my soul.
I WALK: on flat feet in flip flops, slippers or chucks, with my head up high, smile on my face because I am no longer surviving - just living.
I WRITE: to organize the chaos in my head, to celebrate or mourn life when nobody is around to listen.
I SEE: the potential in people, from a 35mm viewfinder and the beauty in love and laughter.
I SING: too loud and off key in the shower, in the car, to relieve stress, wakeup, have fun and relax.
I LAUGH: easily and freely and often- sometimes by myself because people don't always get my jokes, when kids laugh and when people pick there noses in the car.
I WATCH: the world with careful eyes, deciphering and analyzing all that comes my way - searching for the truth within the truth.

I was stained, with a role, in a day not my own, but as you walked into my life, you showed what needed to be shown. I always knew what was right, I just didn't know that I might peel away and choose to see with such a different sight.

Never cared, never wanted, never sought to see what flaunted so on purpose, so in my face. Couldn't see beyond my own place. It was so easy not to behold what I could hold but you taught me I could change whatever came within these shallow days.

As the sun shines through, it pushes away and pushes ahead. It fills the warmth of blue and leaves a chill instead and I didn't know that I could be but as illusion dies, I see there is so much to be revealed.

and I will never see the sky the same way,

and I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday

and I will never cease to fly if held down,

and I will always reach too high cause I've seen,

cause I've seen twilight


Just me...

I'm broke but I'm happy. I'm poor but I'm kind. I'm short but I'm healthy. I'm high but I'm grounded. I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed. I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby. What it all comes down to is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine... I've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is giving a high five. I feel drunk but I'm sober. I'm young and I'm underpaid. I'm tired but I'm working. I care but I'm restless. I'm here but I'm really gone. I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby. What it all comes down to is that everything's gonna be quite alright. I've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is flicking a cigarette. What it all comes down to is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet. I've got one hand in my pocket and the other one is giving the peace sign. I'm free but I'm focused. I'm green but I'm wise. I'm hard but I'm friendly baby. I'm sad but I'm laughing. I'm brave but I'm chicken shit. I'm sick but I'm pretty baby. What it all boils down to is that no one's really got it figured out just yet.


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My Blog

Random Survey cuz I can!

If the last person you kissed on the lips said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them? i sure would... he's my hubbie!What are you currently hearing? zayda playing on her baby ...
Posted by on Wed, 07 Jan 2009 09:32:00 GMT

good bye 2008...

The Year in ReviewWhere did you begin 2008??Sleeping in my bed with Kevin and ZaydaWhat was your status by Valentine's Day?marriedDid you have to go to the hospital??not a single timeDid you have any ...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Jan 2009 01:30:00 GMT

Seriously?!?!

OK so I'm sure you all know how much i love No Doubt and Gwen Stefani.... But seriously, she jsut had her baby yesterday and named it Zuma Nesta Rock Rossdale... WTF???? kingston is a hella cute name,...
Posted by on Fri, 22 Aug 2008 12:02:00 GMT

Naw Ruz Resolution

In order to achieve this cordial unity one of the first essentials insisted on by Bahá’u’lláh and ’Abdu’l-Bahá is that we resist the natural tendency to let our attention dwell...
Posted by on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 23:30:00 GMT

Because I have a short moment to myself....

The Dirty Thirty... 30 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:1. In two words, explain what ended your last relationship?self absorbed2. When was the last time you shaved your legs?today3. What were you...
Posted by on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 13:24:00 GMT

Finally settling in....

So we're hereeeee!!! The drive (wednesday) was not too bad at all... Zayda only cried twice and it was bc she was hungry... other than that she was a perfect little angel. Although I tried to pu...
Posted by on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 15:25:00 GMT

Vegas... Here we come!!

So Kevin finally got laid off (after several weeks of waiting) on Wednesday... So we are coming back to Vegas... no sense in staying here when we came here for his job. So we are back to be with my fa...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 13:04:00 GMT

avoiding packing

98 questions and 98 answers............1. First thing you wash in the shower?i think my face... or maybe my hair2. What color is your favorite hoodie?black and gold4.Do you plan outfits?yes... all the...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 12:06:00 GMT

Sucks...

I'm sick!! And so is Zayda... A few days ago she woke up with  really runny nose & was sneezing alot. I thought she just had allergies, until 2 days ago when I woke up feeling like crap....
Posted by on Thu, 04 Oct 2007 08:35:00 GMT

can’t wait for grey’s to come on!

Don't Lie Survey1. Last cigarette: Jan 4 20072. Last beverage: ice tea3. Last phone call: morgan4. Last text message: my sister in law kim5. Last CD played: fall out boy6. Last bubble bath: sometime w...
Posted by on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 19:15:00 GMT