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Cauterized Soul

Love is superhero sadness

About Me


Somewhere deep inside this graceful circuitry and hardened solder, a cauterized soul cries pixilated tears for the life that will never be ... and maybe even more depressing, the life that will be. Careful, don't rust. Nothing is ever perfect. Nothing is forever. Nothing can bring back the innocence once lost. This heart of synchronized pumps, levers, etc, beats for one purpose and one purpose only, to circulate liquids containing oxygen and nutrients through this broken machine. There is only love for the naive and delusional. If someone tells you they love you it usually means they want something from you. There is only hope for the world in children, and yet I see children pushed aside instead of nurtured and treasured. So bleak a future we do not invest our best assets in. However, my programming will not allow me to give up. The prime directive has yet to be accomplished but the support systems have failed. A cold OS awaits me and I shall embrace the void of used up RAM and an empty ethernet connection. This root path my processor can not quite calculate the why of will be my best friend. The cold, sharp wires wrap around me in a comfort that can only be matched by the cobalt glow of a December twilight and the softest, yet stinging, snow. Mourn the humans for those dumb animals will never mourn you. They haven't even noticed ....

I am comforted that there is always Thomas Myspace Editor V4.4 !

My Interests


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Visit some of my favourite websites!!
Megatokyo!

The Meathead Perspective

Punkemon!

I'd like to meet:

I don't have time to spend with the friends I have, I need no new organisms in my life at this time, thank you, drive on through.

Music:


Fibonacci in Lateralus ... do not watch if you are afraid to think

Music is my life ... if music didn't exist, I wouldn't exist. Industrial, experimental electronica, grunge, metal, grindcore, acid jazz, chill out, progressive hip hop, gangsta rap, classical, old goth, new wave/post punk, j-rock, anything that doesn't ever hit a top 40 chart.
What's in my listening rotation right now, you ask?

Movies:

I'm not a big movie person as I have trouble sitting still for long periods of time and I find most movies that deserve my intrest are 2-4 hours.
The Crow
LOTR
Se7en
Willy Wonka
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Dirty Work
Big Labowski
Fight Club
Tron
Star Wars
Monty Python
Rocky Horror
Ghost in the Shell
Swords of an Honorable Ruler

Television:

I'm an animation junkie!!!

I miss Heroes

Books:


thank you for Way of the Peaceful Warrior, it was excellent

Heroes:



My Blog

zero sum

They're starting to open up the skythey're starting to reach down throughand it feels like we're living in that split-secondof a car crashand time is slowing downand if we only had a little more timet...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Sat, 02 Feb 2008 12:46:00 PST

In memory of Brets unfairly deleted profile ....

machineluvgrace:why am I in a mood for the cure today?i'm even wearing a cure shirtboys don't crycr1m50n77:did you find a good deal on make up somewhere?machineluvgrace:not so much ... but i do stock ...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 09:01:00 PST

I have proven to be a rivithead ... *pics*

So today I was at my parents house doing laundry. I was doing my handwash load so that I could dry them on my mom's clothesline. I go to hang everything up and there's no line. I freak out and run bac...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Thu, 07 Jun 2007 10:55:00 PST

40 feels like vacation time ...

It's a freaking gorgeous sunny day in Central Illinois, with temperatures soaring ... 40 may not be that warm but after 3 weeks of single digit temperatures and below 0 wind chills and snow storms and...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 09:28:00 PST

screams in the night

My goal tonight was to get a great night's sleep for my first day back at work tomorrow. At 11p I even took some Vicoden thinking it would at least take the edge off my week long headache and maybe he...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 03:55:00 PST

I've been tagged?!? *edit*

Shelly tagged meTag Rules:Once you've been tagged you have to write a blog about yourself with "six weird habits/things about yourself." At the end you need to choose 6 people you want to tag and list...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 01:31:00 PST

flames

"I am the oxygen that flares the fire,He is the fire that cauterizes my soul"- Aristocratic Assassin (me)"When I am with you there's no reason to pretend, when I am with you I feel flames again"- VAST...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 10:30:00 PST

me and my bros were gonna make one of these *edit**edit again*

Which OS are You? Get Your Own! | View SlideshowThis slideshow is entitled "The Adventures of Vampire and Ninja"Photo Credits: Michael NolanVampire: Rebecca NolanNinja: Paul NolanBaby Ninja in Tea sce...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:20:00 PST

who needs mind expanding drugs when you have calculus ...

... and now for something totally unrelated. QUIZZES!!! I'm sorry, I did have the intention to actually blog some things but sometimes there's just too much in my head. If I pull the plug to let a lit...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Sat, 12 Aug 2006 09:59:00 PST

the short reveiw (by popular demand)

*note: I will be doing a full concert reveiw shortly on my "real" blog at http://machineluvgrace.deadjournal.com/ you should check it out unless you just want the run down and then here goes*Nine Inch...
Posted by Cauterized Soul on Tue, 04 Jul 2006 12:49:00 PST