About Me
Firstly, As Revulsion is entirely the brainchild of one person, the story of the music is very closely linked to the story of the individual - Welcome to my world. Revulsion was conceived in the Spring of 2000, A point at which I had been a devoted Christian for some time. However the stablity of my faith was unravelling. Through a sinister fusion of internal and external influences my particular brand of Christianity somehow became a hybrid of 18th century Puritanism and radical 21st century Charismatic extremism. Unsurprisingly, this brought little in the way of happiness and self fulfilment and conversely much confusion and anger. As time went on these trends grew stronger and when things reached breaking point, Revulsion was born. Incidentally, it was at this time that I had a long and complicated struggle with an intensely Christian girl. Early in 2000 I had been writing highly Christian songs, which despite my best efforts I struggled to mean sincerely. Even a Christian friend commented that the lyrics seemed 'forced.' Still, not daring to question the so called 'objective truth' of Christianity, I decided that the best way for me to fix these problems was to write honest songs about what I was genuinely feeling rather than what I thought I should be feeling. At some point I decided to call this band Revulsion, even though it was all going to be entirely my own work. Every song was about a different aspect of the difficulties I was having with Christianity, as implied by such titles as: 'Enduring neurosis', 'The worst of the waste', 'Force fed faith'and 'Why do you hide?'. The music was a relatively simple form of Industrial rock/metal with some techno elements. Key musical influences in this project were industrial stalwarts Front Line Assembly and Cubanate. It was always my intention to complete an album titled 'Stigmartyr', to be distributed to friends. I was armed only with a Zoom drum machine, a guitar, bass and a few pedals. However without the means to record music I didn't complete this album, however a couple of live gigs were performed, most notably at the U.K.C. Live music society's Keynestock event in 2001. Here Revulsion was described by the university magazine KRED as being 'one of the events undeniable highlights,' which I must say was a delight to read. Furthermore, having dared to write words against the 'will of God' I finally began to question the TRUTH of Christianity, and eventually I broke free entirely. Sadly however Revulsion went into hibernation soon after Keynestock, primarily because of a lack of recording equipment. The renaissance began early in 2003 when I began to write retrospectively about various traumatic experiences, this time to do with relationships. I wrote lyrics to songs titled 'Nemesis', 'The Void' and 'Return Fire' amongst other tracks and soon decided upon the latter as a new album title. I also believed that the lyrics were of a much greater quality and depth than they had been in the initial wave of Revulsion songs. It was finally in the summer of 2004 that I visited a friend by the name of Keith Malin who runs his own business making recording equipment; KMR. With his help I built the Infusion Engine which has now (April 2007) been fully upgraded. So, for the first time Revulsion finally had the means to record music. Amongst other things he supplied was a copy of Cubase SE, though it would take me over 6 months to get this equipment fully operational. Influences have now broadened to include music from video games, chillout music and further synthetic styles. I intended to release an album quickly but once the ball finally began rolling, I realised that making a record was going to be a far more time consuming process than I had originally anticipated. However, this is no bad thing as the results I so desperatley hope to achieve have the potential to be beyond my wildest dreams. So now, in January 2006 Revulsion is very much alive and the album 'Return Fire' is finally taking shape. 'Nemesis' and 'The Void' have been remained 'Finite Wisdom' and 'Ice Breaker' respectively and the title track has been renamed 'Praying Mantis'. The albulm title will still remain 'Return Fire' and I'm overjoyed to say that i've been increasingly pleased with the results. 5 songs, whilst not 100% complete have been finished in principle and the first Revulsion live performance in 5 years, recently took place at KLANGSPIEL in Canterbury. Currently, I am having to juggle playing for the emergent american football team the East Kent Mavericks, getting my pupils ready for their SATs tests in May and continuing to create songs whilst learning the basics of synthesis and music production. Thus, it may be a while before 'Return fire' sees the light of day, but there we are, As a matter of near life and death to me, I swear it will be worth the wait. Please feel free to check out these demos in the meantime, though I would kindly ask people to consider them as works in progress rather than finished products - We'll get there :) Thanks for reading people, cheers.I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.1
