my first last and only true love.
aaand. my reason to go on living:
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songs that make my vagina hurt:
handstand kittens. peanut butter on grilled cheese sandwiches. christopher moltisanti. masturbating. people on "intervention" who are more fucked up than me. sam adams winter lager be'cos it tastes different every time that i drink it. throwing expensive phones and breaking them. zuzu and alma the best kittens ever even if they cannot handstand. acting like i get it when i don't. playboy for the articles. and the pictures. cutting people off. semicolons. lindsay's rollerskating accident. teddy bears. singing in my car. laughing at hardcore bands 'cos i'm like so over it but still liking them. drummers' arms or boys who have the arms of drummers. the freckles on chase's shoulders. getting what i want. crossword puzzles. knowing i am better than everyone. reading books that give me not smoking as an excuse for my depression. bubble baths. watching myself in plays 'cos i'm like so self-centered. throwing things away. bad words and trying not to use them so much so as to appear ladylike. my gramma who sends valentine's day cards in early january. john cameron mitchell's striking resemblance to rachel watson. the smell of marijuana when i am not smoking it.
laurence darrell. and my soulmate augustus mccrae.
lady sovereign. queens of the stone age. prince. secret machines. esthero. the von bondies. gorillaz. tv on the radio. hedwig and the angry inch. adam pascal. eagles of death metal. william shatner. songs from snow white by tom waits. nikka costa. OH, SLEEPER. HAHA JUST KIDDING.
west side story. closer. lolita (lyne). if lucy fell. lonesome dove. really. crash. cool hand luke (ha!). love song for bobby long. tombstone. mad max. i heart huckabees. dogfight. say anything. midnight run. empire of the sun. secretary. elephant. hedwig and the angry inch. love story. flashdance.
the sopranos and six feet under retroactively. who wants to be a millionaire? a cancelled titus. the o.c. rescue me and denis leary's white irish ass. american's next top model.
works of fiction by james frey.
i know this much is true by wally lamb.
the razor's edge by w. somerset maugham.
last exit to brooklyn by hubert selby jr.
extremely loud & incredibly close by jonathan safran foer.
the history of love by nicole krauss.
a prayer for owen meany by john irving.
middlesex by jeffrey eugenides.
looking for alaska by john green.
myself be'cos i am awesome.