these sleepless nights-this isnt how its supposed to be. but you're so good at taking your time to get back to me. i will wait for you forever, if you would just let me. i thought that i could change you, but you changed me. it doesnt feel right holding someone else's hand. together on phone lines and living on opposite ends. it scares me that you could find takers other than me, and better than me. but your head is elsewhere and im talking enough for both of us. when will you see its no so easy for me? you're callous and insulting and bruising and i thought that you said things were improving. but my feet are still walking away. i never thought that you could say these words-is this really happening??